Jump to Conclusion

Few days ago, I was having conversation with my friend who determined that I’m Buddhism. I know that I’m not. More than half the people who I talk with already determined in certain things that are not always true. I find it ironic. They really don’t know me as they think that they do. Only person who knows me more than my parents is my longest friend Deb. She’s the only one that knows me more than anybody else. I’ve shared with her since middle school. I am very lucky to have her. Anybody else who knows me beside Deb is God.

It’s funny thing about people who already determined. Whether I talk in person or online, those people already determined of who am I or what am I. When they ask me questions, my respond I do agree or disagree. Their respond is you are Paganism. I told that person don’t be determined, even if I do agree or disagree with certain religion doesn’t mean that I’m in that category of religion.

When I talk about my parents, they already determined that I’m daddy’s little girl. That’s not true. I’m daddy’s little girl and mommy’s little girl. I’m both, not one or the other. Many said that they have to watch out my father. Actually, if you had spoken to my 2 ex-boyfriends, they will say it’s my mother that you have to watch out for, not my dad.

When I was a Christian (notice the past?), I know I already accept Jesus as my savior. There are few people who are already determined that I’m not Christian and I haven’t accepted Jesus as my savior. I choice not to argue with them because truth is they are argue against themselves and didn’t realize that they haven’t accepted Jesus as a savior. Later, they came to realize it is themselves who haven’t saved. I know that deep down in my heart, soul, and mind that I have accepted Jesus in my heart because I have the deep desire to connect with God and Jesus, the Lord. I have the yearning to have HIM in my heart and I made a room for HIM. I have deep longing to have relationship with God.

One thing that is true that people had notice about me, they always asked me, "How did you get to be such a strong woman?" Haha! Now, that's true! So some things are right about me and some things are not.

I just laughed when I find people who already jump to conclusion who I am or what am I. I do find that’s funny. It is like people who try to analysis other people when they really can’t analysis themselves. It is so much easier to analysis other people when they have hard time trying to analysis inside. To explore deep down in heart and soul, it is most difficult thing in the world because they dislike the idea that they found skeleton in their heart. They do not want to face the truth that person could be nasty, violence, personality disorder, and etc. It is not easy to change from negative to positive. Try to change is to give up the old lifestyle. This old lifestyle is so much easier and very familiar. To change the old lifestyle is very scary since they never had change and fear the unknown at the end. Instead of analysis themselves, they analysis other people. Interesting, huh?