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Wow! Highly competitions this year for we need a good strong leadership for USA. I'm somewhat uncertains in so many different things.

Would I get shot if I speak as in freedom of speech? Maybe, maybe not... But I'm speaking what's in my head. Maybe I'm right... Maybe I'm wrong....

Espeically after I watch on History Channel, Nostromous(long name), he's a prophet. He did predient the future. He uses anaycom(hidden msg) like Hister is word for Hitler. He did mention Hitler is a smooth talker in Germany and blah blah. Which Hitler did only gave speech to draw people into do what he wants.

The prophet did mention New City blah blah 45 degree blah blah. Possible for New York City since he use anaycom and he left out one word. Plus the plane did crashed in 45 degree angle. Plus there is pictures. They look like 2 planes and look like New York city building. So he knows what it look alike. Even he lives in 1500's century. Amazing!

He also precident the Pentgon will be bombed.

Something tells me people wants to forget 9-11. So that man is still on the lose. Since his goal was distoryed Pentgon, but only sucess one section and not the whole building. He's going to send somebody else to do it, again.

Maybe the prophet isn't true but why do I get the feelings that could happen. Sound like that man really wants wars, fights, voliences, and deaths. Sound like he really asking for it weather or not Bush provoking it. Weather or not the past tense of presidents provoking to cause it. Like I said, sound like this man is begging to continue to fight. If he doesn't get what he want, he might go and send more men to bomb pentogan(sp) to able to success that he didn't last time.

Like I said, I dunno.... I just hope that I made the right choice and I hope people make the right decision on whoever they vote.

Good Luck, we do need this for America.

Never Mind...

Oreo doesn't want to be loving. He wants to be bath himself on my lap.

So far,

I didn't hear anything from my new boss. I'm not going to worry about it. Right now, I'm starting making appoitments with universities. I already had one this Friday. Other one had to be 2 weeks advantance. I went ahead made reseveration. I dunno weather or not I could make another tour.

In meantime, I have to fill out pell grant. I really don't like going to library for that because filling out take so long and I need breaks in btwn. Of course, you can click on hold and save it for next day. However I have to do the cleaning backgoround, chache, cookies and etc. It takes too much time for it. I really do not like to do paperwork. I'm sure it same for anybody. Oh well...

Life goes on, huh?

Lets talk abt our (my parents and I) pets. According to my mom, when she got up before I do, Oreo(b/w kitty) tend to call me in the hallway. Oreo wants to see me. Everytime Oreo runs down the hall, Reese would catch him to prevent from him to come in my bedroom. However, Oreo managed to be sneaky sometimes. He would already be on my bed. Once Reese found out, she whined. Haha, soo cute.

Other times Oreo would lay on the relcincer chair where I had my feet to lay a rest on. Reese didn't like that. She would get him off from it. Later, Oreo sneak up and lay on that place next to my feet. Reese looked up and notice that Oreo up there, she would whined. Reese wants to be center of attention. They are so much like brother and sister competeing each other for my attention as well as possible for my favorism. Truth is, I love them equally. Just that Reese is big dog, she doesn't fit in my lap as Oreo, the kitty. He's small and sorta baby in the family. You just couldn't resist giving a lot of attention to Oreo. Everytime I see him, I just scoop him him and pet him while he lays on my arm and one front leg sticking out. He seems to like that a lot. He's such a sweet kitty. Oh, he's so sweet that he doesn't mind being on the leash. Yes, a leash like having leash on the dog. Reason why is that, we haven't neuturled(sp) to remove. He would gone so far to find mate chances are he would not come back until he's satified or he's lost. So Oreo kept begging to be outside. That's why mom put him on the leash. We r hoping to get the despoit(sp) money back from AZ to use that for vet bill. So far, that stupid lady kept postponing it. I'm planning to write down how awful it was there in temporary apartment on website later on. Whenever I get a chance to...

So, we r still short on money. We might not able to for quite a while. We r hoping soon but don't know how soon.

By the way, Oreo just jumped on my lap. Like I said, I couldn't resist. So I'm giving him my loving. Good nite!

work & TV

Past this week, the work is going good so far. I hope things will be ok afterward. Sigh. My sore isn't so bad once I get the hang of this. However, once every section is clean, there will be no more cleaning. I don't know if I'm going back to work in the evening or not. I guess I will find out soon or later.

In meantime, my parent decided to get statlite dish since it said have more channels and a lot cheaper than cable. It is rip-off. Only thing has more channel worth 20 channels of NFL, 20 channels of NBA, and 20 more channels for Sports. I'm guessing but I do know it is worth over 80 channels are just sports. Maybe there are guys out there who are sport freaks would love to have that dish. There is no A&E, Hallmark, Lifetime, Animal Planet and few more channels that my parent and I enjoy watching those together as a family. If we want those, we have to pay extra. Sadly, we can't cut it off because it is under 18 months contract. So, we are stuck with 18 months for that limited channels compare to cable.

There's postive side just for ME... Yeah, I know... There's Science Fiction channel!!!!!!!!!!! Whoo-hoo.. Now I have to catch up of what I missed on Stargate: Atlantis for Fall Season. I hope to get to see re-runs this summer.

There's more just for me... TLC(the learning channel), Discovery Channel, History Channel(depend what's attract my attention, not intesting in wars), and coule other things. I already start watch those every evening. Untold Stories of ER, Mystery Digonis(sp), Dr. G, just to name of few. Anything with medical, I'm watching it. Also, I watch History Channel "Life after People" that's about what is it like when people are gone. There is one city in Union Soviot had atomic bomb and spread radioactive so high that people had to leave quickly. After 20 years, it showed what it is like. The plants covering up the buildings. There's some kind of amusement park. You can see the metals are rusty with some holes. It looks so much like ghost town. The animals did use the houses. There was a deer on the bed. Haha. Owl was resting on window still and etc.

So the just gave examples here in USA, there will be powers go off. The first week, it showed how would pets managed to live without humans. I felt bad for animals may stuck in the house and impossible to get out. It shows when dog managed to escape, the live thru trash cans and visist every houses and etc. What made me interesting and sad part, small dogs who have short legs, may live up to one week then die because these small dogs are made by human to make them smaller so the can't live in surviual world. I can't help but wonder what abot my Reese? As well as other 2 cats?

Also, it showed that only one Hoover Dam can run without humans on it's own while any other Dam will automatic turn off if there is no humans around in one day. That Hoover Dam can run for possible a century or 2 then it will cut off because there is a pipes down below under water. There are some kind of mussels can build up there slowly, that's when it blocked the cooling system. Once Hoover Dam been cut off, then the Las Vagas' electric power goes off. Imagine that... The Las Vagas can run on eletric over a century or 2 without humans around. Haha. Well, there is a lot of informations. It is truly fascanting.

I just love anything with facts as well as fictions.

Oh by the way, since I have been home in the eveings for a month while I'm at work... I truly enjoy my mom's cooking lately. I missed that so much plus able to eat out couple times. It is soo nice to be home in the evenings. Aaahhh Again, I truly enjoy that. Wishing that last forever... It is a "dream job".

can u say "no"?

I admit sometimes it is diffcult for me to say no. Only thing I can say no is to sex and drugs or anything that's dangergous.

I remember last time I went out with a guy. He wanted to make another date. I actually said no. Howver, his begging make it worst. So I gave in and said yes. I managed to convinced him to accept to mee me on Friday when he wants to see me next day, then next day. Everyday is too much for me. In fact, I got tired of him. My instrest in him grow into zero then below zero.

So he accepted Friday, that gave me few days woth of break from him. I took myself reconsideration. Finally, I emailed him Thursday evening that I do not want to meet him on Friday and from now on. I notice it is a lot easier for me to say no thru email even he begged me thru emails but I was able to say no again and blocked him out.

When my boss asked me to work the next morning, I did respond, I don't think I can. My boss is actually gave me a look. So I gave in and work next day. My legs were so sore that I almost collespe several times. My muscles in my legs were abt to give up on me and could not hold me up any longer.

Next day, I wasn't working then my boss text msg me and asked me to work the next day. It was too soon for my sore legs. I even nearly collespe couple times on my first day off. Like I said, it is so much easier to say no thru emails, text msg, and relay(can't hear tone of voice even relay explain the tone of voice but I can ingore).

In so many ways, I thank God, that I'm deaf. It is one nicest advantage.

My sore legs are getting better. Although the sore and pain are still there. At least, it is not extremely. Thanks to Bengay/icyhot plus tenyhol helped out. Oh, I did had one nice not bath with epsodium(sp) salt. I'm thinking abt do again tmw.

pain in the a$$

In advanatage, Pardon my FRENCH...

Anyway...

One of my co-worker did know what happened last week with me in costmatic(sp).

Today same co-worker, when I mention about the boss complain that it is still dusting. Co-woker did cleaning. Of course Co-w( for short) did missed few spots which is pretty commons that we actually do on purpose. The new boss did checked. I knew that new boss would do that so I made sure I did spotless for the sake of the new boss. Once my co-w finds out abt new boss isn't happy and told to do again.

Now the co-w understood how I feel. Co-w did looked around to be sure nobody is watching and gave full gesture in body language using the hands and so the shovel type up in the air. What she meant was shovel in the ass or pain in the ass.

Oohh that cracked me up big time. I managed to keep it low. When I came home, I did told my parents abt it. My parent and I laughed. Mom said sound like ya have a "little buddy" to talk about behind boss' back. I said, "yep."

Nice to know I'm not alone in this situation. I know it is not nice to talk someone behind somebody else back but sometimes we all need to vent once in a while to help us to keep going.

ow, owie

Oh my goodness, legs, arms, shoulders are very sore by cleaning. I mean, not when walking and foot sore. Since I bend my legs a lot. It is my thighs the upper part of my legs are sore. It made worst when I walk downstairs than I'm walking upstairs.
My shoulders and somewhat my back where's my shoulder hurt, too. I did work a bit harder and faster today. It seems paid off. Since my boss satified today. OY!

Now I'm asking to come in much earlier. It is before the store open. Well, at least one hour without costumers interpruted what am I doing even though, it is imporatant to put the costumers first. I have been interpruted few times. Maybe this wld help to have one hour early without intruprted.

I just took tenyhol and soon for antibodic. I'm going to rest about an hour then take a long hot shower then to bed.

Hope I do better tmw... Wish me luck...

Oh, I did break a sweat. Geez...

cinderella again

Yep! This time, it is not cosmtic(sp). My new boss wanna me to do dusting from racks and walls and mirrors. Of course every concer and every inches and every tiny bars. She wanna me to be done by halfway today. Ugh!

Last night, I overheard the conversation when mom asked my dad if that is wise thing for me to continue to go back working. I missed what my dad said.

Later I did contact to my second mom, I asked her opinion. She said that not uncommon by not getting along with your supervisor. She said just keep on going and keep on trying. She enouage me to have postive attitude no matter what. It doesn't matter if I can't make the boss happy. I just show up for work and do the best as I can and (again) have postive attutide.

She said it is best to get fired to know that you did your best as you can and not just because I didn't show up for work or to quit working. Truth is, I can't quit working cuz I have already searching and searching for other job. There is no luck for me.

So I guess I just put it up with it and give my best as I can even though it may never be enough. I will give the best as I got, anyway. As Mother Teresa said. It is between God and I. It will never between me and others.

Beautiful Day!!

It is truly nice day, today. It is cool outside but the wind stay still while the sun warms you. It is truly beautiful. Perfect day to walk Reese and bath her. She's already stink.

I'm so glad that my new boss cancel Monday morning just becuase I didn't do good job cleaning. Well, it is a good thing. I got to enjoy my day today and tmw would be nice as much as it is today. I'm so lucky! On Wed night that's when cold front comes in. Possible snowing/slight/freezing rain, so it is good thing I bath my dog before it is too late. I can't wait to walk again tmw with my Reese. I know she'll loves the idea of going to park. So I'm planning to grab the oppuruinty(sp) to do that tomorrow before the weather get too chilly.

I wonder shall I contact my new boss about up-coming schedule? Or shall I wait for couple of days? Mmmmm, I really don't like driving in snow/sleet/ freezing rain espeically I knew it would be too dangerous. I'm going to wait for few days to see how is it going before I contact my new boss.

almost forgetten

When I got home, I was upsetting that it wasn't good enough and fast enough. Mom held me. Sometimes, it nice to have someone to hold me weather it is from boyfriend or someone you're close with. While I was sitting next to my mom and Reese sitting next to me. Reese was licking my face and brought the ball with her. Few minutes, she lay down as her head on my leg. Oreo jumped up and his tail on my other leg while his head on my mom's leg. Oreo looked up and looked at us several times. That really help me calm down. They're sooo sweet.

Finally, I decided to go out to eat. I ask mom, "why don't we eat out for lunch?" I haven't ate. I was starving. So we did. We even went to couple stores, afterward.
That's when it happens. Suddenly popped in my mind. I did almost forgotten. I went back and read the poem that made me feel ssooo much better. I already posted this before but I'm going to post it again to remind me.

"Do It Anyway"
By Mother Theresa

People are often unreasonable,
illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,
People may accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be Kind anyway.

If you are successful,
you will win some false friends and
some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

People may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis.
it is between you and God;
It is never between you and them anyway.

I'm not good enough...

She said I'm too slow. I don't clean. I told her I did my best as I could. Her respond that's not good enough. I told her I scrub hard with bleach and brush. I dusting constantly. I tried to be fast as I could but it take a while to get it clean it off so that's why proceed is slow. Her resepond over and over, "that's not good enough" she send me home because I'm wasting time and she is going to find somebody else does better cleaning.

This is really upsetting me big time!

OCD?!?

That's short for Obcessive Complusive Disorder (sp?).

Is there such thing a book called, "how to deal with OCD bosses?" Beacuse there is fine line between clean freak and OCD.

First day, working with Q-tips to get in between, not satified. She wants sparkling clean. 2nd day, work with bleach and brush to get in between. She not satified. She complained, I want this sparkling clean.

Today is the 3rd day. She got steam cleaner. Unforuantly, when been plugged it in, it blowed a fused. Meanwhile, she wants me to dusting again on the same alse(sp). I haven't move to the new place for 3 whole days.

Like I said, there's a fine line between clean freak and OCD. My 15 minutes break is over.

cinderella... cinderella...

Geez, I'm on my lunch break. I found out my boss' new boss is not being reasonable. I even try to talk to her that isn't quite possible. She's already set her mind that I should be finished halfway by end of the day.

She wasn't satified the way I clean yesterday. She even test herself with Q-tips. She realize that isn't working so she got brush and bleach. I scrub real good; yet, she isn't satified. So I knew it would be impossible to try finished halfway. Since I'm spending a lot time of scrub. I feel like a cinderella. Only differneces between her and me is I'm getting paid.

My mom always said, just do my best as you can and go on.

Gotta go...

no title # whatever

I'm in no mood to find out what's #.

I did applied a several jobs before and after Xmas since I only work 2 days. I needed money so badly. I didn't get any. Even no experience require, I still didn't get it. I was sooo disappointed that I couldn't get any. I only had interview once. That was it. *sigh*

I admit my depression is starting to creep up in me. I try to remind myself is to hang in there plus sing a song in my head... No I'm not singing out loud. "Anyway" that helps me alittle.

Meanwhile, my left ear had been infection twice. It was extremely painful. Oddly thing is my left ear is still painful but not extremely. It still ongoing. I find it annoying. I took regular tenyol. It is helpful. So I thought I had another ear infection. I went back to see doctor, again. My doctor said that there is no infection; however, there's a slight ear infection on the other ear. I find it weird. Doctor is also recommend me to go see aduiologist(sp) if my left ear is still in pain. So I got another antobodic for 3rd time.

Talk about soo tired. I could sleep in all day and night. Possible infection but maybe not. I dunno...

Meanwhile I got in touch with the person who responsable(sp) schedule. I found out that person didn't know I'm coming back for good. It is not tempoary. So, that clear up the misunderstood. Lucky, I'm able to back to work. Again, I ask for morning shift. I still haven't give up, yet.

That person told me I can do the costmatic(sp? Make-up and speical facial clean area). I said that would be fine. Boy! Was I wrong? I have to clean off the dust and I have to use Q-tips to get in the curnor(sp) where's the tight spot. First thing comes in my mind where you see commerical of maid clean your shower that you have to clean in tiny and tight spot. Geez talk about clean freak. At least, I'm working morning shift, now. Be careful of what you wish for. My real question is, how long would it last? Will I stay mornings from now on or not? Part of me hope so. So, wait and see.

Right now, I'm sitting and waiting for my medication in Pharmacy store. I was told if I sit there and wait for medication, they will do it faster. It has about one hour left before it closed.

Yep, after 30 minutes of waiting and I got my medication.

Anyway, I can't wait until I go home and go to bed. I'm ready to knock out. Good night.

wowieee

Oh boy! Christmas and New Year had come and gone. I have been busy here and there lately. It is truly amazing. What's my new year resoultion?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, you already know as America's choice is usually losing weight. Of course, it is same with mine. Since I did quit cold turkey of soda and had been nearly 2 years (or was it 3 years?) I lost count but point is, I rarely drink it. I manage to drink Crystallight, tea (different flavors), water, juices(not much) and once in a while V8.

However, when I cut down on my soda; I eat more than normally. Plus, I have been in AZ so I've eating out more. I had gained back to my orginally(sp) weight. Life goes on.

Few things I have left is make more money to contiue to pay my bills, working my way to go to college and visiting college. That's only things I have for now. I don't think there will be anymore.

All in all, my family and our pets are ok.

Final thing I wld like to say is my grandma. My father's mother had altizmer(sp). We are hoping to see her before her mind's gone. It is getting worst. That's last time I heard. So I'm hoping to get to see her since she's a last grandparent that I have. I want to grab my chance to see her and so is my dad. Mom been encouraging dad to go and I'm kinda waiting on it. I could go myself but I don't have money for it.

I hope to see her soon by end of this month or beginning of Feburary.