Lies, Lies, and Lies

Yeah, I know. First, there is going to be a kinda venting moments with disappointed.

Knowing that my cousin was raised by NPD grandma. So, he married one. It's really sad. After my bad experience with my ex, I already know who I'm dealing with. However, my parents doesn't. Espeically my mom, she is still clueless around NPD.I told mom that she has NPD. I explain a lot about it. My mom wasn't happy that she lied about her son who had allergic reaction from tick and needed money to pay hosptial bill. So, she send through wire money. Next 2 days, she called from Tenn and having fun at the aquirium. Staying hotel, she bragged that she got the money from the wired other day. That's NPD. And she even asked for more money.

My mom asked her husband who staying home (he didn't go with her and he had no idea where his wife is at), he told my mom that tick never bitten his son. And he doesn't have any allergic reaction. Of course not, she use my parents money and left to Tenn. I already knew that she's lying.

My mom said that she is very good with money that's why my cousin is giving her resonpsible. Ha! I told mom it's like trust your dog to watch your meal for you.*sigh* they're bankrupt and they have no choice but living with her mother (grandma). They had lost home. Now, she asking more money. My mom kept saying something that she doesn't make sense. I told mom, the more you talk to her and askes question the more she'll lied. My mom went ahead and called her again to ask questions. I warned my mom that she would not take no for an answer.

My mom did said no but cousin's wife kept manpluating to make my mom feel guilty. Also, my mom found out that she telling 2 different stories on the phone. I told my mom that NPD will keep telling lies even the truth will set you *free*. My mom said she wants to help the babies (which is now they have 2 boys). I told her, there is nothing you can do. NPD will keep all the money. Best thing you can do as I told my mom is keep sending Birthday and Christmas gifts to them. No matter what. Keep on sending and never the money. No matter what. Cousin's wife will kept it all the money for herself.

Something else that my mom told me that she kept asking cousin's wife why she didn't ask for help from her own parents that she have. She said that either they are not home or out of town the same thing. I told mom that I'm willing to bet that her parents stop giving her the money because of all the lies she kept saying and using them for the money.

My mom also said that it is same with her brother who always making up lies just by getting more money. I told mom that he does have the same NPD. That I already knew. Just that my parents doesn't. It's sad that kids are affecting by NPD parent (or both). Even though they never pysical abuse but they do recieve mental and spiritual abuse. It is almost the same as "Ever After"Cinderella. One young boy will become like Cinderella while the other will be like the Stepmother. Sometimes both will have NPD. It's sad that happens for gerenalition and the next.

Like I said, "just do your best as you can by giving the love that they need even in long distance." The rest is up to them.

OFF TOPIC:
Reese is doing good. She wants to play again. I did play with her for about an hour before I leave work because I know that I would be too tired to play when I come home but she still wants to play. I just throw a ball. Other time she doesn't want me to throw the ball. She wants me to chase her while she has the ball. *haha*

My parents are doing good and so do I. My legs are tired and so my feet but since I bought an excellent quiality pair of shoes, I notice the pain are reduce. It's still there but not so painful like the first 2 weeks that I have had. I'm glad for my brand new shoes. I needed them.

Smile!

Long Day

Today I have to get up early because I can't take a shower while thunderstorm last night. Finally, it has been raining all night and all day but on and off. It's about time! This place is so dry and brown.

I had hearing aid appointment in the morning then go to work. Like I said, it has been very long day. I got home about 11pm tonight. Reese is feeling better, now. She wants to play but I'm too exhausted.

During at work (and last week), they put me in Infants/Toddlers and Shoes dept for me to do. All I have to do is pick up the mess from other people left behind. Geez, I'm not a clean freak and I don't like to pick up other people's mess. However, I get to paid for it. *haha* As I was working at Infants/Toddlers. It makes me think of my good friend who is going to have a baby. I even thought about buying something but don't know what. Beside, I notice that I rarely use snail mail. I'm not the type of person who writes letters and mail them. I prefer emails. It's so much easier.

Well, I'm getting very sleepy so I'm going to bed, now. MMMmmm maybe find something sweet first. I'm thinking about sugar-free chocolate milk. It's good. I bought it that brand type is NestleQuick (sp?) with that brown rabbit picture on it. It's new sugar-free chocolate to make chocolate milk. Yummy and Healthy especially go with skim milk.

mmmm I have to ask my mom about how to make Fat Free and Sugar Free CheeseCake. It's easy to make and NO bake in the oven. That's right, ya don't have to cook it. Just do the mixtrue and put in the refridge. I'll try to remember when I get around to it to ask my mom. Okay.

Good Nite!

No Title #2

Really? How old did ya think I was back in Fall of '98??

Smile. Well, I'm free this weekend but not next weekend. I think next weekend is Labor Day weekend. Is it?? I lost track of time. Anyway, how's things going? I'm doing good. My parents are doing fine. My mom's cat, Tom-Tom is fine. He still don't like my dog, Reese. Reese sometimes like to give him hard time by walking by him too close.

However, Reese isn't feeling good lately. Past several days, she has going on and off diarrheal. This morning she had been barking of want to go outside but my mom and I want to sleep in. My mom didn't realize that she have to go. She did go in the kicthen. She did very good job of going outside to the bathroom. She really tries hard. Bless her heart. She's being such a good girl that she hold for about few hours or so. Of course, we didn't punish her. Meantime, we did call vet and the vet told us to give her ONE certian medication from the phramcy(sp?) store such as CVS or Walgreen. So, we did to see how is she doing the rest of the night and in the morning. If she didn't go diarrheal then she should be okay if not then I have to take her to vet on Saturday morning about 10:30am.

I hope that she's going to be okay. I'll let you know how she's doing in next few days.

Snow Leopard

(One of several favoite

creatures of mine.)

2nd week of working

Wow, time sure flies fast, already!!

Guess what? Yesterday and day before that, many people been asking me how old am I? I said, "guess."

Their respond 18,19, and 24. *LOL* None of them are true for my age. Haha. One elder lady said, "19?" My respond, "Nope." She asked, "Down or up?" I said, "Up." She guessed, "22?" I said, "Higher" She said, "25?" My repond, "Nope." She said, "GET out!" She find that hard to believe that I'm nearly 30's. I said that I will be 30 next month. She was like "WHAT? No way! I don't believe you!" I laughed hard. She looked at the other about young and asked her "Guess her age?" She guessed 24 years old. Then the elder lady said "no, she's 29!" She looked at me and said "Wow, ya looked good!" I said, "Thanks"

Many of them couldn't believe that I'm a lot older than my appearce. No wonder why a lot of younger guys... I do mean High School guys find me attractive. My mom said there is a guy next door likes you. I was like, "huh?" I told mom that he is tooo young for me and I'm tooo old for him. My mom didn't realize how old is he. I told her that I saw a sign said Congratlation Graudated High School last May of 2006 in the front yard and his name is Tommy. That's how I know he's about 18 or 19. (or possible younger).

Mmmm Maybe I should be a model?? *hahaha*

Anyway, I really enjoy that I do look young even I'm a lot older. Truth is that I have my father's side family that looks so young. Hopefully, I do have my strong dad's gene because most of my dad's side their death rate is between 100 to 105 years old. Very few in 95 years old. While my mom's side mostly 80's. Maybe I get to be 100 years old and get to see 300th anniversy of America for 2076 since 1776. Obvious, I born 1976. *wink*

Anyway, I really did enjoy talking to the workers around me and they are talking to me more. They kept asking me how to use sign language. I like working at night better than daytime with the workers. They seem friendlier. Well, next week, I'm getting extra hours of working, now. YAH! More money for me! I even have to work on Saturday but 8am in the morning next week. Ugh! I'm not morning person but I'm able to go for it. I wonder who's working on Saturday next week? We'll see.

Oh! I almost forgotten... Good news that my closest friend in Oregon, her kidney failure is able to reverse back to normal. It has to do something with allergic to certain medication that she has. Whew! I'm glad that she's going to be okay. Whoever read this and send good thoughts or prayers or both to her, THANKS!

Weekend Off

Well, I do have Monday off, too. Tomorrow (technically, today is monday), I'm going to shop for a pair of good tennis shoes. I hope that might help for this coming Tues, Wed, and Friday. That's right, I'm working on Friday. Not only that but I'm goint to work at night shift. Well, look at the bright side, I can sleep in. *LOL*

I hope that pair of good shoes would help my feet. Since, I've came home, I felt like I'm walking on thousand tiny thorns at the bottom of my feet. I give anything to help my poor feet. My legs feel so sore. Even though I've been walking an hour and swimming for an hour or more, my legs and feet are hurt when I come home. It's the concreate. They're not good for your legs and feet. Especially on the knee, it does put weight on your knee. If your weight more than your ideal weight then it would put a lot on your knee twice. Yes, it does put a lot of pressure on your knee.

Anyway, I admit that I do not really enjoy working at the store especially dealing with costumer. Obvious, I'm introvert but at the same time I don't really like to deal with hearing cstumers. I notice that I'm more introvert around hearing people while I'm extrovert with deaf people.

Ask yourself, do you tend to be the last person to stay at the party (whichever ya feel comfortable like christian's way of party or non-christian's way of party, depend on situation that you feel comfortable) or do you leave early?

If you are last person to stay at the party that means you are extrovert. If you leave early that means you are introvert. When I'm around hearing people, I leave early. When I'm around deaf people, I may be the last person to leave; however, I tend to stay to help clean up the mess before I leave. When I'm around with people who smoking and drinking, I leave early. If I'm around people who having fun times without drinking and smoking then I'm last person to leave.
It's depend on situation and which group do I hang out the most. Sometimes, I know that some deaf people are not so smart then I don't normally hang out with them. If I meet deaf people who are smart then I like to hang out with them. It is same with hearing people. I know that there are some hearing people who isn't smart and who is.

That's main reason why I don't like working with costumers especially when they are not nice. Even though it is only 3rd day of working, I feel like want to quit. I dunno yet. I'm going to try to hang in there for 60 days or so. I prefer to work at cashier. Only thing I have to do is "hi, how are you?" and "hope you have a nice day." Something like that, I don't have to deal with their complicated different questions of "where is this and that?" "Is this on sale?" "What's the different between 2 robes, one is on sale and other is not?" The worker told me it is because of color. Some people like that color better than other so the price stay the same while other color that people don't like use it on sale. Oh okay. I didn't know that but still some people asking complicated questions that I can't answer. Worst, some people have very soft voice which make it diffcult to understand. *Egh* At the cashier, the questions and answers are predictable. I know that person would either said, "I'm fine, so-so, tired, or boring" stuff like that. So I can able catch on that the usual possible answers.

I think I already mention at the resturant. It is predictable questions. I know one lady have VERY heavy accent from Mexico. I don't understand ONE word she said but I know those questions are being asked and I was able to answer. My mom was surprised that I was able to answer the questions. She asked me if I understand her. NOPE, not one bit but I can already predict what questions will answer.

Here's another example, when I come home from high school, my hearing aids' battery are dead. I do mean both hearing aids for 2 of my ears. I came into the kitchen as usual. I already knew my mom would asked the same question. "Hi! how was your school, today?" My respond, "Oh, good news, I past my test on math, today." My mom would replied as usual, "That's great! I'm happy for you" Or "Wow, I'm proud of you. I know that you can do it." Then my mom would asked me, "Mind get some veggies to wash and chop them up for me?" Which I grab them and do what she usually asked me. I never hear one or look at my mom the whole time. After a while, my mom notice something, (she does that everytime even today and it's my d***n pet peeves.) she sticks her finger in my ear, "Don't you have hearing aids on?" I told her "No, I don't because batteries are dead." Mom asked "How did you hear me?" My respond, "I'm deaf, mom! Because it is the usual rotinue! It is always the same questions and same answers every time." My mom went like 'oh' in her face expression. I contine as a teenager kind of way, "DUH!"

Limited of being deaf person, I prefer to stick the same rotinue when I'm around hearing people but when I'm with deaf people I'm the type of person who likes to change and enjoy changing rotinue. I do enjoy exploring and learning. I enjoy learn all the questions that they asked me to help me to think of how to answer the questions. It's doesn't matter what it is. Weather it is life struggle, advice, or challenge religion's belief, I like that. Some people have excellent question that I do not able to answer and other times I was able to answer perfectly. Well, being in a hearing world is not easy for the deaf people. It's frustrated sometimes.

Well, sometimes I just have to learn to put it up with it.

Okay, time for me to wrap up.

Oh my closest friend in Oregan, I haven't hear anything from her. All I know I will find out more news on Monday. Hopefully, a good news.... Please send a good thoughts and prayers for her. Thanks again!

2nd day @ work

Wow! My legs and feet are killing me!! When I came home and sit down for 10-15 minutes, I got up and my legs felt sore. My feet are stinging. I've been working for 6 hours walking and standing. I only able to sit down on my 15 minutes break twice. I work in clothing dept. I'm resonsble taking clothes from fitting room and put them back. I have to fold clothes and put on table and etc. Always neatly order of the clothes rack, costumers are so annoying. When I finally straight the hangers out in neatly order, the lady came up just look at it and mess them up on purpose. *Geez* Can ya believe that? Then I realize I had done the same thing but that time I was in teen year. It's normal. I don't do that anymore. That lady is in her 30's and that I consider so immature for her age. Now I understand how the workers feel of how frustrated to re-do them everytime when costumers are being just plain mean. It is not only frustrated but so tired and tedious because you have to go back and forth everytime. It's same o' rotinue.

*sigh* I'm going to work again tomorrow for another 6 hours. I dunno about this Friday and weekend. There is part of me hoping just to have a full 3 days off. My legs and feet are screaming for a rest.

Good Nite!

P.S. Please pray (or sending a good thoughts) for my closest friend who lives in Oregan/Washington state, she had kidneys failure. She is about the same age as I am. She's in hosptial and waiting for result of find out what causing this problems. Thanks again!

Got a Job! **adding

Well, seem like I did got a job. I got called this morning to ask to show up for orienation (sp?). It's all about rules, safety, and what should we do. Blah blah blah for 4 hours and a half. That young man is most talktive in the group. So that's why it's taking a little longer than it should be. However, I will be back for training at least 2 weeks or so. Afterward, I will get a full-time job for clothing postion. Yep. It's all about clothes. *grin* My favorite position to check out for clothes. Heehee, if I ever find something I like I might buy it after I finished working. Haha. Maybe not... I want to save money to pay off my bills and maybe have mini-vacition, I really want to get out of here! Obvious!

Lucky me that the store will closed on Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year Day. It means I still get paid. *grin* I liked that. Full time job with benifits, that's what I needed. Soon, I'm going to set up for dental appointments. I hope my teeth are okay. I've been bushing my teeth for several years but didn't go to dental. It suppose to have regular check-up. We'll see. Hope nothing serious, I don't feel anything awful. I do cherish my teeth since every dentist I visit have always said that I have very good and beautiful teeth so take good care of them. I do not have to wear braces nor take the wisdom tooth out. Or any other complication stuff. Just one gold cap for cavity (sp?) in the back of my teeth.

Okay, since it has been long day. I'm going to take a nap for a little while.

***Adding more comments: Oh yeah, I almost forgotten. I am under probroation (sp?) up to 60 to 90 days before I actually stay in perement job. Oh boy, dealing with unfriendly costumer is not my favorite thing to do. Some of them can be quite rude. ***

Drug Screen

Well,

I went to the lab to get the drug screen. Everything is the first time for me. I have no idea where it is. I have a map but I kept missed my turn several times. Blah blah blah. Don't want to bored ya. After that, I got home and wait to hear a phone call from the Main Store. I should hear by next 6 to 7 days. Wish me luck!

Here's a small venting moment...

It has been second Friday of no closed caption, in fact, it has no closed caption since Aug 4th on my favorite channel Sci Fi. I am very disappointed that I missed couple of my favorite shows because of no closed caption. I'm not happy about that. Other channel the closed caption works fine. I tried my parent's tv and it has the same respond. I decided to give a try by send email from the sci-fi website to see if any luck. Surprisely, I recieve a quick respond and said I have to send snail mail to Sci Fi company in New York. Well, geez! Thanks-a-lot! Should I wait or should I send a letter?? What if there were too many people sending letter and they may not be able to read mine? Mmmmm...

Off-subject.
Things are going good. My parents are doing good and so am I. I truly am looking forward to get a job just to do something. Also, tmw (saturday), there is some kind of downtown festival but not in my area but the other side. We might go there to check it out to see if there is anything good. It's something for us to do. My mom is going nuts by staying in the house. I told her get a job, too. That will keep ya busy. She gave me a look. She doesn't want to. Who cares! If she wanna to bad enough then she'll go for it. If not, then too bad. Haha. It's up to her.

Oh if anybody read this then please send a good thoughts (or pray) to my long lost best friend in Oregan since she had a bad back pain from her fall. Thanks In Advance!
Quote of the day: "You can't build a reputation on what you're going to do."~Henry Ford

The real superman

What is Water Bear? I just watch last night tv show about eXtreme. For those creatures be able to wake up from the dead. The number one count down is called water bear. It is mircoscope creature. They're able to surive thru freezing -300 below degreeF and heat of 400 degree F up to 120 years. That tiny creature looks like a bear with 4 legged and has claws. Oh, they can survie in space and radioactive. AMAZING!

Check out couple website.
Water Bears - The World's Toughest Animal

And...

The incredible water bear

And...

Amazing Facts

Or check out more thru search engine websites.

Quote of the day: The best way to predict the future is to invent it. ~Alan Kay

Interview

Well, I did had interview today and it went very good. I was kinda surprised myself that I was able to talk about my strength and weakeness. When I started to talk, I notice my nervous seem gone. That's the first because last time I had interview, I was nervous the *whole* time!

I think I'm going to get hired but first I have to get thru drugs screen. Blah! I have to go tomorrow for that. pppffffttttttttttttt After 5 to 6 days if there's drug-free then it is possible I would be able to get to start work. At least it's something for me to do and earn some money. It's really cheap start cost of hour. I was kinda hoping a little bit more than that but guess not.

Oh, look at the bright side, when there is 75% to 90% off, we the workers are able to get them first. WHoo-Hoo!! I hate it every time I go to the store that have percent off and doesn't have MY size! Now, there's a good chance I would be able to get my size before somebody else. Especially when I enjoy shopping!! *grin*

I'm looking forward to do something in mean time I still haven't give up my goal to search for my biology major related. Maybe those biology dept would give me a better chance?? Once they see me that I am able to work with hearing people including customers and teamwork.

Quote of the day: You don't develop courage by being happy in your relationships everyday. You develop it by surviving difficult times and challenging adversity.~Barbara De Angelis

Big Store

Yep, yep, yep, It's a big store that I applied the application either last Wed or Thursday. I got msg on phone possible Saturday morning. So I called back on Monday but the lady wasn't there so I called today. It is thru relay (An operator voice for me of what I type to the receiver on the other phone line), she seemed like surprised by the fact that I am deaf. Since the relay explaining twice what is relay. I decided to tell her that I have the ablity to speak and lipread very good. (Well, I didn't mention most of the time.) She asked me to come over for the interview tomorrow (Wed.) at 2:30.

Geez, I'm so nervous. Even though it is not my perement job but I am still nervous. My mom said if they didn't hire you, it is possible that they don't think it would fit my personality (since I am introvert, not extrovert.) My mom told me that when my dad had interview for a job and he didn't get it. My dad's boss did called and asked why. (Under Air Force to transfer a different job). The man told my dad's boss that he didn't think that my dad is a strong enough to handle this stressful job. His boss said, "Oh, yes he is, he had been working under me and I have seen he have the ability to handle very stressful job and I know that he can do that position, too." So he got hired and transfer. Point is that some people don't think it would not fit the personality and depend on what job would we able to handle or not.

I think my mom is trying to ease my nervous. Thanks mom for trying.

So, few minutes later, she brought up for another story. She said that "Do you remember when we went to the river and my parents rented Canoe and I get the open kayak (open means that there is nothing cover my legs in case I might flip over as for beginner.) By the time, I arrived first before my parents to the dock. There are workers to gather canoe, kayak, and others. Since I am voluptuous young lady, this guy refuse to help me because I can tell by the look of his face expression. Same time I knew he wouldn't hold the kayak for me. However, I can be very good atheltic in my own way. (it's the medication that make me look big.) I kinda wished that the dock is alittle bit lower or the water is a little bit higher as I look at it. It is above my shoulder. However, I use my both arms lift myself onto the deck as one leg on the dock while one foot is holding the kayak. If I let go of kayak, the higher chances that kayak would flow away someone have to swim to get it. I knew that the young boy wouldn't hold on the kayak. I used my foot to hold on and picked it up. The young boy saw it all and surprised that I have the ability to get on the deck and picked up the kayak all by myself. I gave it to him. He got full blast red in his face and said, "Thank You." as he took the kayak with him. My parents did saw it all.

I asked my mom why are you bringing that up? She said that nothing will ever comes in your way and you have manage to overcome adversity and I think that young boy is truly impressed with you and being embarassed by judging your appereance. You have the ablity to prove them wrong. So, some people may look at your apperence or look at your personality by mistake that same for my dad and I until someone or yourself prove that is not true.

I was like Yeah that's true. I know that. Sometimes it is nice to be remind. I know that my mom is trying to help me, however; sometimes I feel like she's helping a little bit too much. I just nod in agreement and hoping that she doesn't bring up another example. *LOL*

Well, I better get to bed very soon after my laundry. If I am going to get hired then I better wash most of my clothes so I can wear something clean this week and next week.

Wish me luck!
Quote of the day: Determination, patience and courage are the only things needed to improve any situation. ~Unknown~

Sharks!

Yep, it was last week for the Shark of the Week. Check out that story to find out if it is true or not.

There are 3 different ways for sharks to have babies.

Here's true facts: Shark baby know as pup. The blue shark does have pups grow inside the mother (like humans). There are about 2 to4 each on two sides. One or more will eat each other before they are born. Can ya believe that? Those blue sharks eat each other before they were born inside the mother. Wow! Now, that's very interesting.

Well, I'm going to say good nite.

General stuff

Well, here's another subject about guy, there is a guy who contact me via IM. We were talking online for a while then he asked me if I like poem. Sure, I do. Then he posted a poem and I asked him where did he get that from. He said that he did that himself and he likes to write poetry. I couldn't help but I am being wary about this. So, I went to google search as I continue to talk to him. He posted another poem. I couldn't find it at first but since he posted another poem so I decided to type full poem and I found the website. I asked him did someone wrote this. He said no and he said that he wrote it all by himself. I still wouldn't believe that. He posted another poem and it is from the same website. I checked out the first poem and it is still from that same website. My respond, I don't think you really wrote those poems it was really from somebody else. Claim it as his poem and really is not his. It is not a good sign. We chat some more, I kept things in gerenal. He wrote another poem few more. It is still from that same website. At last, I said bye and blocked him with no explanation. It's not worth my time. After a while, I notice that he's no longer member in the single club. Either that or is he changed to different one. I knew that he's just a scum and he's not a honest man. He's hearing and I feel like he treated me like I'm stupid. Now I bet he had a wake up call that I'm not and I am not the gullible type.

Anyway, I decided to created a new blog a month ago and I wasn't sure what to use it as a novel or what. Instead, I am going to use that blog "To Type or Not to Type" for any kind of stories. Short one, long one, poem one, quote one, or 2...... Or more, it's depend. There will be true or false otherwise it will be noted. I am still putting on my hold of writing a novel or writing a long story of based true story.

Another news

There's a news about in California, 2 older women in their 70's killed homeless man so they can earn 2 million dollars from the insurance. The insurance found out that is happen twice. So, they investigate and arrested those two older women. I wonder what's in their history? It can't be until later age to decided to kill someone.

*sigh* What a sad thing happen to our socity.

Anyway, the weather is sorta cool/warm but humid. The temperture will increase up to possible 100 tomorrow. If I have to pick summer or winter, I rather winter even though I prefer Fall time.

Oh, before I forgotten True or False? I wrote a story earlier and wonder if you want to know weather or not if it is true. Please read this story first before you know what the answer. The answer will be at the below of my comment.

Well, I did apply my resume a few more companies and hope to hear from them soon in next few weeks. If not, then I may go ahead and start working at the basic job until I pay off my debt. Maybe it is time for me to go back for graduate school. I know it can be quite expensive. However, it might help me to get a better job. I am not interesting in basic job and I know I don't deserve that after hard work at University that I've been through.

Off the subject, ever watch Anne the Green Gable? It's my favorite all time movie part 1 through 3 (or is it 4?) I love'em all. Kinda remind me of my best friend who has black hair and I have the red hair. Yep. I do have red hair! (more like dark red). However, I use to have red as Anne then later change to strawberry blonde then blonde. Later, my hair turn almost brown and now dark red with the hit of some sunlight. It is all from the sun or no sun. I never dye my hair but once I try highlight but not heavy just light. The lady who did my hair asked me light, medium, or heavy amount of highlight. So I pick light just to see if I like it. I do but it makes my hair looks so unhealthy later on. Anyway, if you haven't see that movie then check it out. It's about orphan young girl who grew up to be a beautiful young lady.

Okay, I better wrap up to go.
Quote of the day: "I distrust those people who know so well what God wants them to do because I notice it always coincides with their own desires." ~Susan B. Anthony


Well, that story is true.

About Men!

Well, GEEZZZ, I can't believe this! I got the "mail" from the email thru internet to find love for single people to meet each other. Well, guess what? I got an email from a deaf guy said, "I hope that you would lose some weight but it doesn't matter I don't care about the weight." Isn't that conflicts?? I like you but I don't like you. What a crap!?!

Learn what they said and watch out for that. I remember my ex said that I do miss YOU but I don't miss that other side of small part of YOU. Well, the small part is still part of me so you are going to have to accept that, if not, then I'm wasting my @#$@ time being with my ex. Doesn't matter what part of me that you don't like, you are going to have to accept that because it is who I am the whole part is who I am and if you can't accept the part of me whatever it is then I'm leaving.

Oh yeah, I did apply 2 different for single websites. One is for hearing and other is for deaf website, since I haven't find my match for the deaf (even though I prefer have a deaf partner.) I thought I would give a try to date hearing (I never date one so I have absoulute no idea about how to date a hearing guy but I am going through learning of trials and errors. I made sure that I inform that I am deaf but I have the ability to read lips and speak. When the hearing guy first thing email me said "I'll take care of you!" GEEZ do I look like a dog that needed to be taken care of? HECK! I can take care of myself! I don't need anybody to take care of me. Men are so.... weirdo! Well, not all men, I know that. I find that so ridiculous.

Here's another hearing guy, "If you really want me then you must lose weight." HA! In your dream, I will never want you weather or not I lost weight. I remember one guy who interesting in my friend who is very healthy and thin girl but not me. I was sitting in the group and someone did asked him suppose if she gain weight what would you do? He said I will leave her. Uh-oh was come in my mind. I would not recommend date that guy weather or not you are healthy.

I don't know if I mention this before or not but excuse me if I repeated, there are about 70 to 75 percent Narcissistic Personality Disorder of men. Those of what I just wrote are perfect example of possiblity have Narcissistic Personality Disorder. (Well, we know for sure that my ex does have that). It's really really sad. NPD tends to twist things around. *sigh* That's explain why it is so diffcult to find a good man who raised by a good parents.

One of my family member (actually more than one), has kids and I knew that one day one or more will have the same NPD when they grow up because of NPD parent. *sigh* The whole world is fucked up. Send love and hope for the best.

Quote of the day: "The cure for all ills and wrongs, the cares, the sorrows and the crimes of humanity, all lie in the one word 'love.' It is the divine vitality that everywhere produces and restores life."~ Lydia Maria Child