Hello!

Yeah I know. What a weird way of saying this in introduction? Well, it's still February. The love is in the air. No matter when or where.

Here's another reason, it's going to be quite a while before I ever get on the computer unless I go to Library but very good chance that I may not have the time. I have been using my father's computer instead of mine. Mine isn't working. No matter how much I tried. Nothing seems to work. I asked couple friends of mine of what their suggestions and yet nothing seems to work. I might have to send to the computer doctor to get it fix but I haven't get around to it. I want to straighten things out in my computer before I ever send to the computer doctor. I hated the idea to send to a stranger to fix my computer espeically they may lied. Maybe having the lack of computer might push me a little bit farther.

Overall, my family and our pets are doing fine. I'm doing good. My right knee gotten hurt real bad back again. There will be pysical thearpy this Wedensday and lucky, it's 3pm so that gave me a chance to sleep in a little bit and get myself a penty of rest before I go. I hope this will work for me. My mom thinks the physical therapy might just focus on one knee. Well, I would feel funny if that does. It wouldn't feel right. Ya know? I sure hope not.

Anything new so far? My parents had decided not to have my best friend to come to live with us mainly because my parents are getting too old and they rather have their own old fashion way by sticking to same old routine that they are familar with. I don't blame them.

Meantime, I'm having long time discussing with one good friend of mine about my weakness. I'm having hard time to go out and social. Yeah, I make up an exuses that I do not know the roads and being uncomfortable going out there in long distance drives. Here in Texas is really complicated. Guilt as charged. Time to force myself to get out. It is only way for me to learn around here is to go out. I can't learn my way around if I'm not going out. I can't soical if I'm not willing to force myself to go out and do whatever it is.

There's this quote from Drew Berrymore (funny, I didn't really like her much but I do like her statement): "I don't expect things to come to me: I go out there and create them for myself."

That means I have to go out and learn. I wouldn't learn my way around if I'm sitting around here. Only way for me to learn is to get lost. Hahahaha. Sometimes in life can be good thing to get lost even we are not on the road. Life can be unexpected but good if we are willing to learn and willing to try.

Anyway, I wouldn't be on computer for nearly two weeks or possible more. See ya later!

No title ....

I tried to type this other day and somehow the power went off so is the interenet. What's really bugging me is that this blogger doesn't have auto-saved. That means I have to type over again. However, I forgotten what did I previous typed that was couple days ago. Don't expect me to remember. Haha.

Oh well, I would like to remember but there's so much going on lately around here. And so much info of what's going on, too.

So, how is it going for you? Everything is doing good. I can't wait for beautiful weather. I heard that theye will be next week and I happen to be only work one day of that week, too. So, there's a good chance for me able to enjoy. Also, for me to give my doggie a bath.

Speaking of a bath, I saw a funniest video and it's so cute... There's a young baby who sitting in the high chair. There's a food all over on his cheeks, nose, and hands. The woman who video him and said, "Oh no, you looks so dirty." The baby's eyes wided and said, "A bath... A bath...A bath..." as the baby nodding and moving hands up and down. "A bath.... A bath... A bath..." So cute. Look like that baby really likes to take a bath. Hahahaha.

Oh, there's another news... my best friend from other state had asked to move in with us. She needs a place where she can get back to her feet and needs a support. My parents and I were discussing about that. I would love for her to come but same time it is a big adjustment for us. Like I said we are still discussing and trying to decide weather or not should we invite her. Possible 90% sure. However, I want to take time to think it over the weekend. Also, give the time for my parents. Since, we grow accustomed that it was just "3 of us", my parents and I.

So, like I said big adjustment for us but it is also for her, too. It would be big adjustment for her. She might be trying not to walk on eggshell on us. LOL since she is new to our ways of doing things. So, wait and see over the weekend...

What else is new? I'm waiting on physical threapy. I'm not sure if I mention this before or was that message had been deleted as I tried to type before but forgive me if this is repeating.

What's ridculuas is that even though there's MRI had been proven that there's something wrong with my knee, the insurance still required elevluation. Right now, we are still wating for accepting for me to continue to do the pysical threapy twice a week according to doctor's note. I haven't hear from physical threapy for nearly a week. Seem like I have to make a phone calls. Ugh.

Oh, I stumbled up and find a news thru this. I make $6.50 an hour. Am I poor?

Guess we're not alone in this. Huh? Sad. I think for adults should make 12 dollars an hour for teenager should be 6.50 an hour. *sigh* No matter what job it is but require for 12 dollars for all companies for that certain age. But then again, would the companies start refuse to hire because of that? Mmmmm? And hire somebody who less age so can pay less? Who knows?

Ohhh I remember... Happy Valentine's Day. Yeah, it's belated. However, it was on that day I was typing "Happy Valentine's Day" that same day where's the power went off. It was about 10 minutes then came back. Anyway, Valentine's doesn't have to focus only for couple. Singles can celebrating! In fact, I bought card for my parents saying that I know that they do love me and it shows and that they always there for me when I needed. And I love them back with Happy Valentine's Day.

*sigh*

I've been taking a deep breath and sigh few times. I'm exhausted! Past several weeks, I've been working from 5pm to closed. Today was the first day I was working since 2pm until closed. I'm so glad it's over. Now, I have this week off until Sunday.

Ya know? this same girl from last year, she was the first who had the flu before anybody else. This same girl who been buying and eating candies all day long at work. She must have high methblisom(sp?) 'cause she's that thin! So thin that she can wear a little girls outfits. Yeah, that thin and she's almost tall as I am. OY! I couldn't believe it! She's lucky. I'm envy of her. One thing that's I find it so annoying is that she doesn't eat healthy food. That's why she get sick easily. Right now, look like she had another cold/flu. She had been coughing, sneezing, and blowing her nose all day. I was thinking... #$%$#* Just great! Just fancastic! Please God, don't let me get sick. I told my mom to stay away from me. She asked why and I just explained about the situation. My mom said that according to tv news there were so many flu in school this year. Oh no! that's the first thing comes to my mind. My mom said give it about 3 days to see how I'm doing. OY! I'm not looking forward. Please don't! I hate getting sick again. I don't want to get sick again. It's not a good thing.

*sigh* I guess I'll wait and see. I'll set my mind to not to get sick. "I will not get sick. I will not get sick. I will not get sick. I will not get sick. I will not get sick. Over and over and over and over again... for the next 3 days.

Well, there's nothing new so far. Everything is good here. Oh, it's almost Valentine's Day. Well, I may be single but there's a way to celebrate Valentine's Day. It doesn't have to have a partner to celebrate a Valentine's Day. Ya know? I even thought about buying Valentine's Day card for my parents. Just my way of saying that I do love them and I cherish them and very lucky daugther to have such a wonderful parents. They may not be perfect but their love is.

female bodyguard and female histroy

Yep, there are some females bodyguard. I just watch one on tv channel few days ago. I was surprised to see there were females bodyguard. I was glad to see that. There's always male. This woman who is bodyguard mention that sometimes it is nice to be with someone who is female and shop with you and can go to public bathroom for protection while males can't. She said that it pays good money but it can be very stressful. She looks normal. She doesn't look like she's a bodyguard. While males are easily obvious that there are bodyguard. They looks soo serious. While she doesn't looks so serious. It shows a lot of other females and mention it is best if you had previous working in police forces or any military so you have already had been training and experiences.

Now that's cool! I was hoping there is one for female bodyguards and it is. I'm glad that the tv shows that. It shows that every female still have the oppurnity to have their own dreams.

I decided to explore a bit about female bodyguard thru interenet. I couldn't find here in USA but I found one in Russia. What's interesting me the most is that women have better effiencgy than men is that they are good at "peace talk" than get into fight. I kinda agree since men tends to get into pysical fights long time ago even during biblical times. There's always wars. Men are the leaders and tend to get into physical. Also, what's sad part is that they do not get the same paid as the men in Russia. Even though they have same professional trains and etc but they do not have the same respects.

Oh what's interesting the most is that, in china, they do have some female bodyguards in the past. Now that's cool. What's cool is that Mulan is real woman who did join the fights and stay to give guidance to the king after the war.

Oh, did you ever read histroy about Debroah Simpson? She is a woman who a bit bulker than most women and she's taller as a men. When the revoulunatry war starts, she wants to join. So, she had a guy friend to teach her how to walk, dress, and talk like a man. So, she wants to see if she can pass her test by meet her mom. Her mom didn't reconize her. So she passed the test as a man. So, she joined to fight the battle. Rumor was that she got shoot in her leg and she took it off by herself. Later, she got shot in her chest so that's how the doctors found out that she's a woman so the military gave an honorable discharge without getting paid.

Later, she got married and had kids. They couldn't afford so she travels and gave speech of her experience. It is only way for her to earn money until she couldn't travel anymore. There's a man next door. A man's name is Paul Renve(sp?) know as "Red coats are a-comin!" as running down to wake all the neighborhoods. Anyway, he wrote letter to congressmen about her. So the congressmen decided to give monthly payment for 4 dollars. (that is possible 4 thousand dollar or more worth nowadays.)

I truly admire many women who has guts to do things like that.

Here's another most interesting part that I like the best. I couldn't remember the name but I've been searching for her. It's during Civil War. There's a woman who isn't try to act like a man nor is she dress like one. She was wearing a normal dress and join the fights. She did the cannon and etc. Now that's even more impressed.

Cinderella

The orgininal(sp?) Cinderella is always been my all-times favorite movie. Yep, I'm sucker for Disney movies as I mention before.

I did saw preview for Cinderella 2 and I didn't care that much for it. Someone I once knew owned one of that movie. She said it was great... blah blah blah... She let me watch it so I did. I didn't like it. It wasn't that great. Doesn't seem much of the orginial(sp?); however, I did like Bambi part 2, now that was very good. It is very close to the orginial characters. I'm glad that I didn't bought it.

Now there's Cinderella 3... I observed few times and I think it would be pretty good as the way I observed for Bambi 2. I do have pretty good judgement as I watch the preview. I tend to pick out the very good movies while my parents tend to pick out the worst ones. So, they usually let me picked it. So, I think it would be worth to buy. So I did. Tonight I watch it. Yep, it was pretty good. I like it. It wasn't that fantastic as Bambi 2 but it was good.

Meanwhile, I did bought Flicka. I remember seeing "My Friend Flicka" few times. So I already knew it is similar so I don't mind buying it. It is good one, too. I cried. I'm sucker any good movies that make me cry. *grin* It's worth it.

Oh, I went to Physcial Threapy. It was just for elevluation and measurements. That's all because that STUPID insurance said so. Geez, if MRI isn't proven enough then it has to be elevuation. How ridculuas is that? That was it. Now, I have to wait for the approval to continue to have physical threapy two times a week. OY!! Oh, doctors said my knee isn't swellown and my mom said it is. Turn out that thru the measurement, it is still swollen. She suggestion to put some ice pack... Well, I haven't start on that, yet. I needed to do that, huh? I've been using heat. Isn't that why it's swollen? I didn't think about asking. I was too sleepy since I had to get up early in the morning. What's worst? I even have cramps in my lower stomach (if ya catch my meaning?) Part of me glad that it didn't start the physical workout this morning.

Afterward, my mom and I went to the Mall until I get so sleepy and tired. My eyes were heavy. I told my mom I want to go home. So we did. I went straight to bed and knocked out. I barely can feel Reese. She wants to play. She stand over me and looked at me until I fell asleep and I have no idea what she's doing next. I was so exhausted. Few hours later, my dad woke me up so we went out to eat dinner. Now I'm wide awake and couldn't go back to sleep tonite. Haha. Guess I took a little too long nap. Lucky, my work tomorrow wouldn't start until 5pm so I can sleep in a little bit longer. Sadly, my work start at 2pm this Sunday. OY! But at least it is Sunday and the store closed one hour early. *fingers crossing* I hope there isn't inspector on Sunday night because if it does then we have to stay longer. BLAH! Wait and See.

What's even best? I'm free all week after Sunday. Monday all the way to Saturday. Now, I dunno about next Sunday. I will find out sometimes this Thursday or Friday. I wonder what's the weather is like? Can ya believe this? Mother's Nature must be hating me lately. Because everytime I am off from work the weather is sooo COLD up to 30 degree is the highest. When I'm working the weather is never been so beautiful and weather is nicely 70 degree. Geezz, thanks-a-lot to Mother's Nature. It's not a good timing. *frown*

I'm hoping for the weather is better when I'm off so I can take Reese out to the park. I know she'll love it!

One of my friend left a quote, "Love needs hope, trust, faith, respect, communication, love, and passion in order to survive... without ONE of those, the fire of love will go out and never be started again. ~Author unknown.

How true is that?! Once my ex didn't show any respect to me that's how I no longer loved him. It was truly gone forever and will never came back. I admit that I did try to "earn the love back" but I realize that he had destory literally.

I like that quote.

Butterflies

Ever had your unusual experience? Or something that unexpected had happened?

I remember when I was invitied by my friend when I was a kid to go to Disneyland for her birthday. Once, we went to nearby the castle where's the waterwell. That's popular place where Snow White is at "I'm wishing" song. There flowers overflowing on the walls and the bridge. There's a shallow fake river but real water with fake blue color. It's still beatiful when you see flowers and most of all lots and lots of different kind of butterflies flying around.

As we approach closer to the "wishing well", my friend and I throw couple of pennies to "make a wish". What's strange is that? I haven't decided what wish do I want instead I decided to wait before I make my decision. So, I went ahead and throw and make a wish later.

We went off and chasing buttflies a bit. Then I said to my friend, "I am going to stand here and stick my hand out then let the butterfly landed on my hand." My friend had her doubts that it would happen. Just a few seconds, I made my wish then the WHITE butterfly landed on my hand. She and her parents were surprised to see that as much I was surprised, too. It was wonderful experience for me. It was my most happy moments.

Here's another butterfly story....

Few years later, I asked my mom if it was okay for me to cut some roses that already blooming in our yard. There were pink and yellow rosebushes. My mom handled me the gloves for protecting and warning me to be careful because of thorns. I wanted to gather them to put in vase in the house. As I walked back and forth and I spotted something unusual on the door. I tried to figure it out and I couldn't. I yelled for my dad to come. He did. He came up to the door and I asked him, "What's this?" My dad looked at it and said I don't know. The color looks similar as the door but something else seem like some kind of 3-D. Something that seems popping out of the door. My dad went ahead and touch it. Turn out it was a butterfly had already came out of the cacocoon(sp). So, I brought the butterfly in and put where the roses are at. Few hours later, there's a heavy rain outside and the butterfly flew and "whacked" on the window. I'm surpised that butterfly didn't hurt him/herself. The butterfly just stay on the window while rainning outside. I decided not to let him/her out.

Next day, it was bright and sunny, I went to school and forgotten all about the butterfly. During the school, I suddenly remembered. I was so concern about my cat might try to eat him. I wondered where's the butterfly now? I arrived home and quickly checked. I found butterfly staying in same spot on the window and the cat is sitting on the windowstill and looking out. The cat NEVER notice the butterfly that is right above the cat. I took the cat in my bedroom. I try to get some kind of straw or toothpick to get the butterfly. Struggling, I tried to take the butterfly outside but the butterfly being so stuborn and flew against the window twice. I can hear the "whacked" sound. I was a little bit frustrated and manged to do the same thing 3rd time. This time I put the butterfly near my chest so it wouldn't be able to see his surrounding that much as I had my hand over the butterfly. I didn't touch him.

Finally! I took him outside where the sun directly to his wings. The wings open and took off. Here's the amazing part, the butterfly circle around the house and come to me right in my face. The butterfly was fluttering as he looked at me then left. It was like "Thank you for let me go free and bye bye." That was incredible experience for me!

Few years later, I joined 4-H club. I made a speech about butterflies and moths to completive against other kids in GA state and won! I was so exciting that I won the first place.

The moment when the butterfly open his wings. I memorize him. The butterfly I met at the door is called "Mourning Cloak". Here's the pix of what the butterfly look-alike. Oh if ya don't believe me... ask my parents they were the witness. They saw it all. ;-)

I still remember to this day for those special moments. We may not remember days but we do remember moments. How about you? Ever have your own speical moments? Feel free to share.

VP is finally here!

Viedo Phone is finally here and many of my friends who kept reminding me. What's ironic? They're busy! Haha But I had my chance to chat with my good friend who I once roommate with her for a year and a half. She looks tired but it was great to see her! I know deep down that she's glad to see me. I can't wait to hear more from her espeically that first-time mom who's going to have a baby. Of course and her husband who's going to be first-time father. I didn't forget him, either. Wouldn't dare. ;-)

I went ahead and have a very short chat with my long lost best friend in Oregan. We're planning to chat more when we have a chance. She has very outgoing personality! She's always out. I said to her, "should I make an appointment with you to have at least one hour chat?" She gave out softly laughed. Yeah girl, I'm talking to ya this time if ya reading this. ;-)

I do look forward to chat with her soon.... very soon.

I also have another friends.... too... I hope to get around to catch them.

I do feel like a little kid who exciting to have a "new" toy. Shame on me for not having for quite a while, too.

Let me see, what else is new? Oh, I finally have appointment for physical threapy and it's tmw morning 9am. OY! That means I have to get up early. Lucky, I'm not working tmw night. Oh, look at the bright side. I'm free next week!

Most of all, I just can't wait to go to AZ!

Brains...

Ya know I always wonder how does brain works. I meant in gerenal such as "How the people being pyschopath, socialopath, and etc.?" I wonder does the brain affect our souls? Or does our souls affect our thoughts? Or is it really our soul in the brain? The heart is just emotion? I even met few heartless people as much I know a few people can be such a heartless. Does that mean they don't have a soul? Sometimes I could have sworn that they really have no soul as much as heartless. Ya know the old quote is "The eyes are the window to the soul" I wonder, does that means the soul is in the mind and not the heart?

Here's this one mention about, "Yep, They're Gay." (By the way, I do find that insulting by trying to get that gay sheep to be straight.) Anyway, I find this very interesting statement, "that gay rams have different brain structures from heterosexual ones" (5th paragraph on first sentence at the first page). How does it different structure? The size? The shape? The wavelength? The hormorne? I wonder does human brain's have different structures for anything such as pyschopath and many other things. Does it born that way? Or being raised that way such as sexual abuse? Or is it being taught? Interesting, huh?

I remember someone once mention to me that he knew that he's guy since he was in elemetary school. He knew that he's different and he often find men fanastcanting. He's gay and that's who he is. I didn't had a chance to ask, does he knew in his thoughts or in his heart or is it both?

Our hearts and minds are struggling half the time. Weather our heart disagreed or agreed to our mind. I remember when I made my final decision in my mind but my heartaches so listen to the heart then finally agrees with the heart then the heart is no longer aches. I also remember that my heart didn't show any feelings. My heart is very neutral while my mind trying to make a decision. It's ironic that my heart doesn't feel trouble while my mind is still agrue. It's almost like an angel one side and devil is other side. They were agrue in my mind. I notice that there is two voices in my mind and once I realize which voice should I lsten to is the angel one, meanwhile my heart shows neutral. How werid is that? So which one do I really have a soul? My heart or my mind? Or is my mind is a soul?

Am I talking philosophy here?? Or science? Or both?

I'm thinking too much.

Good Nite.

Sorta good news.

Well, the good news that I'm not crazy. Haha. I recieved the phone call from the nurse. Ironic, the nurse said something like this, "There's something wrong with your knee but I don't know what it is." Geez, but at least I can call back if I have anymore questions or wait a bit later. The nurse also mention that she/he will call back for physcial thearpy appointments. That's good to hear that my knee isn't broken and it take time to heal back again with physical thearpy's help. I can't wait! I want my knee to completely recovery. I wonder what it is like to have that for me to go thru. Well, it's always first time for everything. Guess I'll find out once I get there by learning thru error and trails.

Oh I almost forgotten... Hearing aids for those who are curious and wants to know more about it... Check it out. Hearing aids Maybe that will be helpful. If you want more info then go to Web Search Engine, you can find more about it. Even though I'm wearing them, doesn't mean that I'm expert. It's best to contact Audiologists. They are the one who been trained and studies through colleges. They're professionals. I just listen to their recommendations and decided to accept or not.

Oh, if you don't feel comforable about cochlear implants then feel free to decline. First thing you enter the Audiologists, they will try to talk you into it. Be sure you gather all the information before you make your final decision. One thing I notice that there a few things that they didn't mention.

One: They will cut your half of your hair on one side
Two: It is very noticeable with that brown thing-y on the outside of your hair. Ya can't cover it.
Three: If you want to go for Scuba Diving for fun or for future jobs (example: Marine Biology)then do NOT take cochlear implants
Four: They use to surgery on your good ear. I mean if you are deaf on right ear and hard of hearing on left ear then they will use your left ear and not the right ear.

Like I said, best to go to research more about it through interenet and books and talk to audiologists. Be sure you gather ALL the info before ya make your decision.

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Mmmm What's next? I recieved an email from a friend of mine.
Feng Shui Horoscope

It's weird and funny.

Take just a minute to take this test & see what happens! If you are honest this tells the truth -- it's pretty good. Write your answers on a paper, NO cheating!! The answers are at the bottom.

1. Which is your favorite color: red, black, blue, green, or yellow?
2. Your first initial?
3. Your month of birth?
4. Which color do you like more, black or white?
5. Name of a person of the same sex as yours.
6. Your favorite number?
7. Do you like California or Florida more?
8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
9. Write down a wish (a realistic one)

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I usually picked green or blue. Depend on my mood, so this time I picked green.
1. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - you are conservative and aggressive
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back
Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love
Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

I don't know about yours but my letter is C.
2. If your initial is:
A-K - You have a lot of love and friendships in your life. (Mmm I do have several friends but not that a lot. *s*)
L-R - You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z - You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

I was born Sept.

3. If you were born in:
JAN - MAR: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
APR - JUN: You will have a strong love relationship that will last forever.
JUL - SEP: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good. (Interesting... I wonder what it will be like.)
OCT - DEC: Your love life will be great, you will find your soulmate.

I tried to think white or black. It is most common choice is white and for some reason this time I prefer black. Something different. I even thought about wearing black as gothloic few times. I'm kinda in the mood for it but never get around to wear them.

4. If you chose...
Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change. (Haha, that almost similar as Sept.)

White: You have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person should be your best friend. *smile* It's Erin, she the first person who I thought of. We been best friends since middle school. I'm so glad that we found each other since several years of lost contact. She's in Oregan.

I don't really care about numbers that much but I thought about if I ever stand in line or giving presentation then I don't like being first or last. Yet, I don't like being 2nd. I prefer 3rd, it just sound right to me. I was forunate(sp) last time my professor will pick in order of names of giving presentation. She asked me if I want to go first or last. I said, "3rd!" I was lucky!

6. This is how many close friends you will have in your lifetime. (Haha! How true!)

I choose Florida. I don't really care much about California. I used to live there. I just dislike the smog. That's why I decided Florida but not the East side of Florida. I prefer West side of Florida, AWAY from hurricane if that's possible.

7. If you choice...
California : You like adventure.
Florida : You are a laid back person. (Haha same with Green color).

I pick Ocean....

8. If you chose:
Lake : You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people. (Haha, I do enjoy please other people but I often reminded myself to focus on me or I'll go nuts. ;-))

Aaahhh I can't tell my wish because my wish wouldn't come true if I did. ;-)

9. This wish will come true if you send this to 1 person in one hour. Send it to ten people, and it will come true before your next Birthday.

I hope so.
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Meanwhile, I found out that VR person wouldn't come over because that person have an emeragcy with someone. I dunno what it is but whatever. That person kept saying "hurring up and hurring up because that person have surgery next week." Geez, not my fault for last minutes. I only told when I'm available and when I'm not. Too bad for that VR couldn't show up. Something tells me that person wants to get it done before the surgery so that person don't have to think about it during and after the surgery. I don't blame that person but like I said when I'm availabe then I'm here but I can't guatrnee to fit person's schuadule for that person must fit mine because I am a customer and that person needs to find a way to fit for my time. Sorry. I truly find it so annoying but I manage to ingore and go on. Life it too
#$% short. I learn to limit to please others.