Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Unrealistic Dreams

A Dream is a lyric from Cinderella's Disney,
"A dream is a wish your heart makes...
"When you're fast asleep...
"in dreams you lose your heartaches...
"Whatever you wish for, you keep
"Have faith in your dreams and someday...
"Your rainbow will come smiling thru...
"No matter how your heart is grieving...
"If you keep on believing...
"the dream that you wish will come true..."
I love that song and the lyrics. I love to dreams and being a dreamer; however, I wonder am I being unrealistic in this real world? Am I dreaming of prince charming too much and not facing the true reality? Is this reality that I'm avoiding to?
If I won a million dollars or billion(would be nice), what is the first thing I want? I would go and make a movie. Doesn't everybody? Does that means I need to change my career? But even I did, would it be impossible? Because, you have to have projects... and who's the boss? Who would hire you? do I have experiences? Do I have to start all over again?? Do I have to go back to school? If so, which school? How would I get my foot in?
Would have a multi-million dollars answer to the questions? Like Hugh Howard, he quit in the middle of college as soon as his parent died and went to make a movie from the hollywood. He inherit ALOT of money. So that's what he did. He's major in lawyer but quit to go to hollywood and made it to himself without helps from others. All he ask for more cameras and everybody just laugh and think he is being silly. However, he kept on going and do the dreams that he dare to dream and his major hobby is airplanes, without him, there will be no commerical airlines such as Delta, U.S Airways and etc. Same with air forces and jets and etc... Nothing would happened if it wouldn't for him. He spend alot of money for himself and his dreams and make a name for himself too. Truth is, I don't care about making name for myself, although it seems that way if I am trying to make movies through Hollywood.... Or make movies in Canada... That's is what across my mind. Maybe I'm being unrealistic that Micheal Shanks being inspire me to do so... Yes, my favorite actor, he is inspiring me weather or not that he knows it. It doesn't matter. Point is that, what if I want to do that, mmmmmm??
What other unrealistic dreams? A man of my dream.... or a man who is my soulmate... Or is he not my soulmate? Am I making unrealistic of searching for my soulmate? The one that I hear about and wondering if that is true.... Or is my expectation is too HIGH that I need to low it down?? Or am I not loooking hard enough? Or am I just waiting for long lost love to come to rescue me like the Rapunzel (for those who don't know, it was a witch who got a little girl stuck up in tall tower and only way to climb over the window is to climb on her longest hair. The prince saw it and did the same of what the witch did by climbing over and both fell in love and he rescue her. Well, not the exact the same but get the idea). Anyway, there is no such thing like that. Point is, I know that it is unrealistic that no man would come and knock on your door and swept over your feet so the realistic would be seeing a stranger who is being a stalker and called the police.
Mmmmm, all I know is that I'm getting older and I do not want to change my career at this moment. All I want is earn good and stable money and to live in retire and travel around the world. There's no mice, squirrels, birds, deer are around to hlep to make a dream come true and clean up your mess.

Sunday, March 07, 2010

dream...or nightmare?

I had a strange dream other night. I am currently dating someone but this dream I am dating this same guy, the moment I blink my eyes, I saw John, the narriastic personality disorder. *sigh* But I do know for sure that he doesn't have NPD. He doesn't drain my energy out but... he's being too vague half the time. I am having second thought about him. Don't get me wrong, he's really sweet guy but I have to ask more speaific question to know what's he really talking about.





For example, he did asked me do you know that two street names (wouldn't put a real names and numbers) and I have no idea. So I asked my dad, my dad thought for a moment. He said that's where the mall is at. So I send him the messages (via, thru converstation text). I admit at first I thought he was asking for direction then I realize I was assuming. Then he send back the message, yes that's the one. That was it. No clear or directly messages or whatsoever. I'm totally clueless what is this about as soon as I realize I was assuming then I put aside of the assumption and asked, "Ya being vague, what's important about that mall place?" Then he send message back, oh I'm sorry, I meant to meet there. I realize that he prefer to meet halfway to the mall. I don't mind but at least be clear what's about the first place. He wasn't.





Before that, he did mention about taking a week off and have vaction but he also mention about not going on vaction during that week because of doctor appointment. So, I was left in the hang. I don't know what his plans or what does he wants. Later, I learned that he's going to take a vaction with me but I haven't take days off from work because he haven't decided what to do. He did in the last minutes. I was like, "sorry, but I can't leave my work because I didn't request days off." He seems rather disappointed. I told him that you told me that you haven't decided and you are considering to stay with your doctor appointment. He's being too vague and not clear with direct. I have no idea what's he's planning to do.

Plus, he own 3 credit cards and he also owe alot of money as well as IRS. So, he's really broke and in a bad credit. I just learned that recently. I couldn't believe that he's paying for meals, trips(yellowstone park), and other things. He uses credit cards. I was kinda disappointed, too. Because I knew that (it may never happens) if I married to him, I would get a bad credit even I have a good credit before I met him. Yeah, it is ridculas(sp) but it is true fact that "us" women get the bad credits because of MEN, if we are married to them!! (mind you men, I know there are women out there who have bad credits, too, just not men). It just that it is soo annoying that I think it should be seprate and not put in two as one when comes to money situation.

For me, I notice that I'm keep meeting men who is lousy when comes to finically. As I mention before (or maybe not), maybe I just date millioniare, is there such thing as one (or more?).

Is it normal for guys to being too vague? I don't like it. I really don't.

World's Coolest Hot Springs

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From the icy tundra of Alaska to the arid desert of the Atacama, our molten-to-the-core planet is laced with underground plumbing that regularly springs a surface leak. And visiting these hot springs can be a therapeutic addition to any vacation.


An hour or two in a thermal pool—especially one surrounded by natural beauty and clean air—is just about the greenest way to relax and recharge, courtesy of our blue planet.


Blue Lagoon

Grindavik, Iceland

The Soak: Healing power on a massive scale—literally, as its real purpose is to supply hot water and electricity to 45,000 Icelanders—this lagoon just outside Reykjavik holds 1.6 million gallons of 99°F–102°F geothermal seawater laced with silica, minerals, and algae.

The Scene: With 400,000 visitors annually, Blue Lagoon has a theme-park feel. Still, a soak here is undeniably cool, like a communal pool party of Icelanders and tourists slathering silky silica mud on their faces and bodies.

When to Go: Year-round, but Iceland’s winters are notoriously glum with just a few hours of daylight, while summers are 24/7 celebrations since the sun barely sets.

Banff Upper Hot Springs

Alberta, Canada

The Soak: What’s a little pungent aroma when you’re surrounded by the majesty of some of North America’s most awe-inspiring peaks—including aptly named Sulphur Mountain? Discovered in 1884, these soothing 98°F–104°F waters are loaded not only with sulphate but also with calcium, magnesium, sodium, and bicarbonate.

The Scene: Set amid the glacier-studded panoramas of Banff National Park, the spring-fed pools are serviced by a retro-rustic 1930s bathhouse with splendid views of Mount Rundle. Hike the steep 3.5-mile switchback trail up Sulphur Mountain before a pre-sundown soak.

When to Go: Year-round, but for fewer crowds and peak foliage visit in the morning during early fall.

Pamukkale

Denizli, Turkey

The Soak: Known as the Sacred Pool, this divine dip in southwestern Turkey lives up to its name: as you float in spring-fed water that’s a relatively refreshing 94°F, look up at a cerulean Aegean sky and down at 2,000-year-old Greek and Roman antiquities scattered on the pool’s floor.

The Scene: The eye candy here is a panorama of gleaming white terraces—Pamukkale means “Cotton Castle” in Turkish—created as flowing water deposited layers of calcium carbonate. Soaking in these natural pools is no longer allowed, but you can snap photos and then visit the nearby Roman city of Hierapolis.

When to Go: Year-round, but early fall is particularly lovely.


Hot Water Beach

Waikato, New Zealand

The Soak: “No pain, no gain” is the motto at this unique beach just south of the North Island’s Mercury Bay: you have to bring a shovel and dig your own “hot tub,” which for two hours before and after low tide will fill with spring-fed water laced with calcium, magnesium, potassium, silica, and fluorine. Note: also bring a bucket to add cold seawater to regulate the temperature, which can emerge at a scalding 147°F.

The Scene: It’s a communal Kiwi beach bash, so arrive early to stake out your circle of sand.

When to Go: Year-round, but summer (December to March) is ideal.

Chena Hot Springs

Fairbanks, Alaska

The Soak: The adults-only Rock Lake, fed by sulfur-tinged springs, reaches a toasty 106°F, but the truly hot ticket is the blazing aurora borealis (northern lights), neon-hued curtains of charged particles that dance across the late-night sky above you.

The Scene: Rock Lake is part of the 105-year-old Chena Hot Springs Resort; located 60 miles from Fairbanks, it has 80 rooms and suites, plus an indoor springs-fed pool (chlorinated and 94°F), a spa, an ice museum, and dogsled tours.

When to Go: Year-round, but the northern lights are most spectacular from September to March.


Jigokudani Monkey Park

Yamanouchi, Japan

The Soak: The old adage “monkey see, monkey do” is apropos, as this mountain region’s Japanese macaques (a.k.a. snow monkeys) have taken such a liking to the steamy onsens (Japanese for “hot springs”) that they’ve claimed the best for themselves. All we hapless humans can do is watch—and then head to Yamanouchi town, where a dozen-plus traditional (no swimsuits) communal onsens await.

The Scene: Jigokudani means “Hell’s Valley,” and it is a trek to get to these secluded pools located at 2,790 feet and a mile-plus by foot through formidable forest. But persevering monkey fans will be rewarded.

When to Go: Winter, when the simian-filled springs are steamiest and skiers can hit the slopes at nearby 1998 Nagano Olympics site Shiga Kogen.

Thermae Bath Spa

Bath, England

The Soak: Enjoy a splash of history at Britain’s only natural thermal springs—the water is believed to have fallen as rain 10,000 years ago—which have vanquished stress for everyone from conquering Celts and Romans (their ancient baths are now a museum) to politicians and poets. Although the water surfaces at a red-hot 113°F, the spa’s intimate Cross Bath and rooftop New Royal Bath are a comfy 93°F.

The Scene: Paging Mr. Darcy! One of Britain’s loveliest Georgian cities, Bath is best known for its honey-hued limestone crescents and celebrated resident-author Jane Austen.

When to Go: Year-round.

Calistoga Hot Springs

Calistoga, Calif.

The Soak: There’s lots more than hot water on tap at this onetime hippie hangout in Napa Valley: Calistoga’s mud baths are as free-flowing as Merlot. Chill-out types will find an array of spas—from frayed-at-the-edges to five-star—offering 80°F–102°F geothermal pools and volcanic ash mud pits where sassy slathering is not verboten.

The Scene: Founded in 1885, Calistoga’s wines are known to loosen inhibitions and lips—as they did when Samuel Brannan christened it “the Calistoga of Sarafornia” (he meant to say the Saratoga of California).

When to Go: Year-round.


Dunton Hot Springs

Dolores, Colo.

The Soak: Yee-haw! This impeccably restored ghost town, located at 8,600 feet in the San Juan Mountains near Telluride, offers six ways to soak in waters ranging from 85°F–106°F and rich in calcium-bicarbonate, iron, and manganese with a pinch of lithium. The most authentic (and hottest) is under the stars at the source; the most private is the king-bedded Well House cabin for two.

The Scene: Twelve hand-hewn cabins, built by gold miners in the 1800s and given a five-star facelift, bunk up to 42 people. Social hubs are the Saloon (serving organic local cuisine) and the Bath House (with two geothermal pools).

When to Go: Year-round.


Puritama Hot Springs

Atacama Desert, Chile

The Soak: The high desert—and at 11,482 feet, we mean high—of this geyser-spiked South American region provides a dramatic backdrop for eight secluded pools named for the term “hot water” in the indigenous Kunza language. While not especially scorching at 91°F, they do, however, have a brilliant blue-green color and an ultrarelaxing aura.

The Scene: Maintained by luxury adventure resort Explora Atacama, the pools, north of San Pedro de Atacama, are open to the public but are rarely crowded.

When to Go: Year-round, but the weather is best from October to June.

Monday, March 01, 2010

Young dashing medical student

Mmmmm.... Can you believe it?? Other day, I have doctor appointment, just for a check-up to see "how-do-you-do?" kind of crap. I have an interpreter there since I'm deaf but yeah, I wear hearing aids and lip-reading and able to speak almost like an hearing person that doesn't have deaf accent (no offense to those who does, I just have some kind of gift.) Truth is, I often doesn't want to speak because I'm too modest more than I want to admit as well, I couldn't speak if there's a good-looking guy and I couldn't face or approch to them, especially those who are hearing. Yeah-yeah-yeah, I know, I have no problem talk (signing) to good looking deaf guys or semi-good-looking deaf guy. Whatever.... I just don't have the courage and other times, I just don't want to speak because they think I'm actually hearing and didn't believe that I'm actually DEAF! When I am Deaf!! Profound Deaf, that's for sure!! I can't hear, period. Yes, hearing aid helps but not as good as "hearing person". Beside, having interpreter helps because some people are FAST talker that I can't understand at all... zip, nada...


*ahem* Ok, now, about the good-looking young man, who happen to be medical student (possible internship-like). He came in and the interpreter actually jaw-dropped!!! The medical student noticed and he chuckled. I just looked at both of them and I was kinda shocked but no jaw-dropping. Thank goodness!! He introduce himself and told us that he's medical student and etc. Sadly, I couldn't remember his name. (yeah, yeah, I'm lousy with names as always!!) I looked at the interpreter and then back to medical good-looking guy student. I finally work up my courage and made my decision to speak up (normally, I rather interpreter to speak for me). I talked... He talked... we talked... He's flirting.. Oh yeah, he was very interesting in me!! He told me how much he impressed that I speak so well and able to lip-read. Once in a while, I glance to the interpreter when I missed what he said or didn't understood that small part. He asked me what I normally do after my work. I told him that I spend mostly my time studying GRE. (for those, who didn't know, it is SAT-like but for graduate student who finished with Bachalor degree.) He said, "oooh, ya going to be scientist?" Oh my god, his tone of voice that he is really getting more interesting in me. I nodded. He asked, "Don't you mean SAT?" I told him, "no, it is GRE, I have finished with my Bacholor of Science in General Biology." then I added, "I'm considering master degree for Biotechnology." He got MORE interesting in me. I have no idea if I'm blushing or not but he certain asking more questions that isn't relate any of my health and etc. Just more of gerenal questions sorta like... dating type of questions that ya normal asking when ya out for date. Truth is, I fight my urge not to blush too much. We talk for quite a while then finally changed the subject... back to medical talk....but it is still alittle akaward.


After we are done, he bring the "real doctor". He and the medical student came in together and talk for a while and told what mediences that i need and etc.... Typical routine... When they left, I'm almost tempting to ask the medical student to stay and want to ask him "are you single?" but I didn't have the courage.


After few months, I have another "check-up" again. I was soo hoping to see that same medical student but NOT!!! However, I saw the same interpreter. She remember so strongly and remember ever situation. She said, "he's really flirting with you and he's really interesting in you" I blushed for real. She asked me if I remember his name. Unfortunely, I didn't. Seem like she didn't either. Oh well...