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Here, five business-based strategies that will improve your marriage. Aug 18, 2007 - 6:17:07 PM
Given the near collapse of the wall between work and family, the ­suggestion that you should bring more office into your marriage would seem to defy common sense. And we’d never recommend taking the BlackBerry to the dinner table. But you can call on the same skills that put you on the partner track at work and adapt them to make yourself a better domestic partner. Here, five business-based strategies that will improve your marriage. — Chris Connolly See both sides. Think about the last fight you had with your wife. Now ask yourself: If she were a client, would I have acted that way? Men often treat business contacts with more temperance than they do their loved ones. “When people get emotional, they lose their ability to see other points of view,” says Emily Nagoski, PhD, a sex researcher at Indiana University. “If you act as if your perspective is more ‘right’ than hers, you’ll never find a solution.” Tend your in-box. Even if you love your job, there are bound to be tasks that annoy you, such as filing or chasing down invoices. Well, your relationship has paperwork-equivalent elements too: watching romantic comedies, having relationship chats, taking partners yoga. But at home, there’s no HR stickler making sure you’re up-to-date. So next time you pass on date night to watch a play-off game, remember this: That date was just added to the growing stack of date nights on your metaphorical desk. Don’t let ’em pile up. Just two hours a week can rescuscitate your relationship.Be punctual. When the boss or a client asks you to do something by a certain date, you do it, right? Treat your spouse’s requests with the same alacrity. “You can make your life much easier if you follow through on your promises,” says Nagoski. Get creative, too. Anyone can be punctual to a reservation at a fancy restaurant, but dining at a secret supper club is by appointment only.Set goals. At the office, success is measured in quantifiable terms such as earning a certain amount of money or booking a certain number of clients. By setting goals with your wife—“Let’s save enough to buy a cabin in two years”—you will create a sense of teamwork in your relationship and enjoy the feeling of making progress together. Here's how one businessman and his wife turned a backwoods cabin into their dream escape.Pay bonuses. In the work world, bonuses and gifts are commonly distributed to reward accomplishments. This practice can be easily co-opted for personal use. “Appreciation is quite possibly the single most important thing a man can give a woman,” says Nagoski. “A woman’s sense of accomplishment is only complete when the people she cares about acknowledge her success.” If there are no day spas or lingerie boutiques on your speed-dial list, add them. Just don’t call it a “bonus.” Speaking of bonuses, use these three steps to maximize your holiday bonus.


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Why Men Don't Talk

By David Zinczenko - Posted on Mon, Dec 17, 2007, 9:32 am PST
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As the editor of the biggest men's magazine in the world, I am privy to something many women rarely hear - straightforward, uninhibited guy talk.
Don't be so shocked - guys do actually talk, and not just about Tom Brady's quarterback rating. Most women think their man is the strong, silent type (or maybe the oblivious, silent type), and they wonder why he doesn't share his feelings.
But here's the truth: Men do want to open up, about their hopes, their fears, and their passions. Yet put him alone in a room with you, and he often turns into a Sphinx. Why can't he take his eyes off the TV and talk about the state of the relationship, or the finances, or, heck, the backyard landscaping? Why in the world can't he just summarize his day for 10 minutes?
In fact, one in five women say that they typically fight about a man's lack of verbal interaction, and 30 percent of men say their failure to communicate is the source of major conflict in the relationship. Why is it this way?
Here's one answer: Because even men who have feelings to share don't always feel comfortable sharing them with their partner. These are some of the reasons why some men often prefer to zip it, rather than delivering the goods:
Guys Are A Little Intimidated No question, women are expert communicators. They throw questions like Oprah after her third cup of coffee; they're connecting on all cylinders. And like the divine Ms. W, women bring a lot of skill to their game: A special awareness of the people-scape around them, a keen set of emotions keyed to that awareness, and a rich vocabulary they use to talk about anything at anytime.
And they're always practicing their Q&A skills on their many friends, so they're in top talk mode all the time. Men know this. And they also know that more than one-third of women say that men simply can't relate and don't understand women. The result: Men are afraid of saying too much, because saying the wrong thing may get them into more trouble than Lindsay Lohan as a designated driver.
Guys Need To Decompress Woman's view: When a man walks in the door, he ought to cough up some of the details about his day. After all, it's been 10 hours since they've communicated, not counting the two IMs, three voice mails, and one actual mid-day conversation.
Man's view: Can I please make a beeline to the bathroom? When men reach home, it's like those ultra-marathoners staggering across the finish line in Death Valley. The last thing they want to do is discuss how bright the sunlight was, and how scarce the water stops were.
Further up on his want-to-do list after arriving home: 14 percent of men want to check email, 12 percent are looking for a little private time in the bathroom, and 10 percent simply want to eat dinner. The common theme here: After they've spent a day serving the needs of others, they want to take care of themselves a little.
So when a man is hit with a demand for conversation so closely after returning from the stressful environment of work, he has only one gear left to shift into, and sometimes it's reverse. He's retreat, retreat, retreat.
Guys Are More Comfortable With Actions Than Feelings Rather than talking about how he "feels," often a man would rather express his love by changing her oil, or bringing home a flower, or relinquishing control of the remote.
And when men do talk, they'd prefer to talk about actions rather than emotions. For instance, a lot of guys would choose to express their long-range faith in a relationship by talking about next summer's vacation plans, not by launching into a soliloquy about undying love.
Both conversations can mean the same thing (that he plans on sticking around); he just prefers to say it with plane tickets, rather than poetry. It's one of the reasons men are more comfortable talking at work (the practical universe) than they are at home (the castle that emotion built). But you can bring out his great communicator by making him feel more like he's operating in work mode, even when the topic at hand is your love life. Here's an incredible article, "The Home Office," that shows how he can use his best office skills for great success at home. Guys Don't Want To Be Put On The Spot When men talk less and women want more, the scenario can escalate. Like when the bad cop is pummeling the reluctant witness, more silence equals more questions. A full 65 percent of men we surveyed recently told us they don't want their partners to ask them more questions about themselves.
It's clear that some men are just plain tired of feeling like they're on the witness stand. They're not necessarily hiding anything; many guys simply prefer not to have to relate confusing feelings that they may not even understand themselves.
An age-old tactic can make things better: Back off a little, give him room to operate in a conversation, and he's more likely to open up. To find out if his lack of communication really does mean that your relationship needs a tune up, take this quick quiz.

Update: My Best Dream

"My Best Dream" Please click this first so you'll understand what am I talk about.

I decided to bring that up to my other friend of mine to see what she said. She has a good point. She said, "Maybe people around you do not understand you and what you woud need to be happy."

online class

After a few years, I finally got an elective class that will meet my require!!

Now, after few weeks, I had turned in all my hmk and didn't receive any grades. The students had been asking thru emails if anyone got grades, yet. We were frustrated and anixious since 5 weeks and all 5 assignments had been turned in. Students are starting to consider to report since the teacher didn't respond.

Finally, yesterday, there were 1 thru 4 assignments graded "A"!!!!! I was thrilled and relieved because it won't be long until mid-term coming soon by end of March.

Geez, took long enough for professor to grade those papers...

Well, my time is up. I gotta go!!

Guys # 3

Patience had been paid off. He did contact me first and I did replied. We taking turns natually and he shares with me of what his day is like as well about him hanging out with his friends. We just take it easy as we learn about ourselves.

Guys part 2

As I discover about this particular guy that I liked turn out that his philophsy(sp?) that sex come first then later love. However, mine is the opposite.

I have request two very good friends of mine about how to explain what is love.

Later, he mention that we are not match and said something that I'm inexperience. We should be friends and etc.

I was kinda disappointed and send email to let him that that my guts is not to let him go. There is slient from him so I was about sending another email telling him that I wasn't inexperences and etc then suddenly I realize what I was doing. I withdraw the information and I'm not that type of person to tell or brag.

I realize that I have wasted my breath and realize he's not for me and I needed to let him go. So I send a different message to him and summerize the whole thing that he isn't right person for me and I think him for keeping his promise to stay friend and nothing more. There is no respond nor do I see him online. I knew he's no longer speaking to me. I think he just worry about his own "reputation".

Later, I finally had a chance to talk to my counslor. She said that he's full of himself and sound too much like John, my ex-npd. Then I asked does he has NPD, too?? She replied that she can't be sure and have to know more about him but she advice me not to waste my time with friendship with him because he just string along.

I was kinda disappointed more than before and I mention, "will I ever find a decent and good guy?" she told me it is a good start that I didn't waste my time with him as I did with John.

She encourage me not to go out with guys who are bold and flashy. I laughed because I do happen to like to wear flashy clothes and mom kept reminding me that is too flashy. So it took me long time to learn to tone down with clothes and I finally found something I really liked is fall color clothes that looked good on me like mustard yellow (not bright yellow), earth-toned orange (not bright orange), brown, green, light green, and blue. I have to avoid animal prints, too. It is also flashy or anything that is glittery clothes or look similar as hooker clothes. Like I said it took me long time to learn.

I did brought up with one guy I know that seem isn't flashy type. She mention why not him? I hestate because he is mama boy. She reminded me that I'm daddy's little girl and mommy's little girl, too. Then I mention that I know someone who almost got into divorce because that guy with his mama. She said that wasn't being mama boy that was disfuntual(sp).

I was like... Ooooohhhhh... So I decided to email to this guy and asked him if he still liked me. His responded that he still liked me a lot. Then I asked if he thinks love first or sex first. He said love first. I asked him if he believe in 2nd chance? He said yes he believe in 2nd chance with heart feelings. Then I asked again if he believed there is possible for 2nd chance between us. He said yes. We did chat for a while then I waited for him to start chatting with me instead of me start with him. There is still silent. I still don't get it.

Patience is awful but I'm doing it.

Guys

This is a story about men... In my perspective. It may be wrong or it may be right or it may be half and half. Who knows? Only the higher being knows.

There is a guy in deaf group seems to like me. I just taking my time. Later there is another guy seems to like me. So, I would say the first guy would be guy one who I met first. I would say guy two who I met later on in the deaf group. As soon as the first guy learned that I am getting to know the second guy. He seems to make a move a little bit more. The first guy would be around me more. Almost like, he's setting up a terrtory(she's mine type of guy!). I was alittle skpetical about him. However, the second guy seems to back off and let the first guy take over. I dislike that. Again, I managed to avoid the first guy and approach the second guy to get to know him. The second guy is only stay there for a while. He had to go. He didn't tell me the reason. I just minding my own buisness. I went ahead and chat with the first guy. There is a game that we played. There is a 15 minutes break. As soon as we came back, this first guy put his arm around me then rub my back then he was trying to do something with my bra. I did looked at him puzzle. Then I went in seprate direction to sit down. The girl sitting next to me told him to stop embassing her. He said that I have to learn. I was like what do I have to learn about what? I didn't say and I didn't ask. However, in my mind, I was like, be careful. You could lose me so fast that you have no idea how that it happened.

In meantime, there is a 3 guys online. One I know from the university and other is introduce by my best friend and other I met at bar. I do like three of them, too. However, this guy who I was introduce from my best friend... He said that he have "semi-girlfriend", I was like, what is that suppose to mean? I choice to back off. I only questions to him relate to buisness since I was thinking about business. He is pursuing the business. I learned a lot from him. He has interesting perspective. This guy I met from university, I just happened to met him in the hallway. He is the one who start talking to me from the start. I was interesting in him; however, he broke up with his wife and isn't ready for relationship (how common is that??). It is same with other guy who I met at the bar, he broke up 14 years of girlfriend and isn't ready for a relationship, either. I find it so annoying especially when I am sorta intesting in the last 2 guy who isn't ready for relationship.

I wonder what else is new? Oh, there is two guy seems to be interesting in me at work, too. They work in different deptarment and different hours. However, one day, this guy happen to work overtime and he happened to have same break that I was on. I was kinda surprised that he sat on same table where I sat. We did chat for a little while. I admit that I am interesting in him, too. There is another guy who's interesting in me but I wasn't interesting in him at all. He reminded too much of my ex-finece(sp). I've tried to avoiding him but he always managed to find a way to approach me to say "hi" and I couldn't be rude so I say "hi" back. The guy who I liked... why couldn't he hurry up and asked me out? LOL But I did looked back and I realize that there were several guys liked me and I never did notice and I remembered that they never asked me out. I wonder why is that?

I do not want to ask him out because I remember when I did that, they get cocky and playing hard to get. I find that turn off. Should it be in girl's way... not boys?? LOL

Mistletoe

I never seen a real live mistletoe before other than I saw on tv where a couple kissing underneath. My mom pointed out and told me this is mistletoe in our backyard. At first, I was puzzle because all I see was a trees. However, I didn't notice there's something green on a tree that is bare... No leaves.. Just naked tree with a green leaves on it. I approach closely and pointed... that green-thing-y?? My mom nodded. I look at it closely. I couldn't resisit so I grab my camera. My mom asked me if I see any white berries. I was like... no I didn't. So my mom walked over and showed a few white berries on it. She warned me not to touch it since it is poision. If I happened to touch it then best to wash my hands.

Anyway, I didn't know that Mistletoe is actually a parasite and the tree is a host. Here's more info... Mistltoe-Wikipedia

A picture from my back yard, notice the brown branch is a tree and green branch is mistletoe?

Is this amazing? This is actually a Mistletoe... Next picture will be upclose of white berries...

There is two white berries, one is upclose blurring and other is more clear. Isn't beatiful?

New Year Resoultion of 2009

Mmmmm, two years ago, I looked up and find my old new year resoultion. It is about taking care of myself and I'm the pority(sp). Last year for new year resoultion is to lose weight. Well, one thing for certain that I've gained back. Ugh!

However, I couldn't make up my mind what's my New Year Resoultion. Other day, just before New Year day, I decided to look at my horoscope and I couldn't agree more!

"Even though it's not quite 2009, you are still primed to try something totally new. It's the best time to toss your plans and get going in a new direction on the spur of the moment."

That's Libra for me. That's when I decided, my new yeaw resoultion is making a new direction just on spur of moment.

Middle

My mom help me to notice something that I didn't notice. That I'm in the middle. I refuse to go to bar places where all the singles or where all deaf people meets at the bar or going to church. All I ever do is go work and then come home. Mom asked me why don't I go one or the other. Thers one good side and one bad side. I told my mom that I didn't go to bar because of smoking bothers me. I even got bad headache and I had to leave early. Mom suggestion about going to church. I told my mom that I refuse to go no matter what! I vow myself not to go except weddings or funeral, something like that. That was it!

Mom said that I can't get a boyfriends or go out as friends if I just stuck in the middle. It had to be one or another. As good or bad... Church or bar. *sigh* Mom's right about that. I didn't notice until she brought that up.

Mmmmm so I need start going to bar?

RL stands for Real Life, I could read 1 thick book per day. Which I did make sure I wasn't do much on Saturday and I finished read New Moon after I read Twilight. Jennifer, you're right. It is good!

I was so hoping to finished reading Eclipse on Sunday for one day. Unforunately, I couldn't find in 2 Targets and 2 Walmarts and Barnes & Nobles, all were sold out. I couldn't believe it took me all day on Sunday. I finally decided to make one phone call at other Target that I haven't checked and decided not to waste my gas. Turn out that Target does has it and it is last one. I request to put on hold. After dinner, I went and bought it!

I knew the 4th book called "Breaking Dawn" were sold out except Barnes and Noble. So, I went to Barnes & Noble on Wedesnday and it is only 3 books left. So, I grab one!!! Meanwhile, it took me one week to finished "Eclipse" because I have to work, laundry, and take care of Reese. So I didn't have a lot of time with my book.

So far it is soo good. I couldn't wait to start reading my "Breaking Dawn" I sorta wish that wasn't last book. So yes, I want it continue more Twilight Saga.

Last Sunday, we went to see King Tut. I was exciting to go as much as I was exciting to want to finished reading the last book espeically I know it would take me another week to finish this book. Speaking of Tut, it has a lot of statutes, gold dagger, jars, chests, chairs, and etc. Normally, I just glance the shape of stuff and skimming through descprtion what's it about. This time I appreciate the history and escpecially the art work. I was so amazing. I see turtles, birds, goats, ducks, and etc. What's amazing me some are small writing as using toothpick on a stone. I wonder why perfume oil is more vaule than gold? Is it because oil is sacred?

Anyway, it took about 4 hours worth of tour if ya taking time to read and study the artwork. It is worth it!

strange dreams

Every weekends, I'm off. I usually set clock alarm for 10am or 10:30am so I wouldn't overslept until 1pm or 2pm. Because if I do that then I wouldn't be able to go to bed early. However, I woke up on my own before 10am. Most of time I woke up around 8am or 9am. That is the most ealiest! It is for me. However, first time in several months, I slept until 1pm. I've used snoozed button for a while then turned off. I had strange dreamed that I ended up in alternative reality. Somehow I been sucked up by strange white and blue whril-pool in the sky at night. I had a dog and a bird. They are with me. It is almost like "Golden Compass" the movie. If ya had seen it then you'll know what I'm talking about. Somehow I was being chase and I have no idea why or how that started. One nicest thing about this alternative reality. Everytime those men chasing me and had passed by me. It is because none of the women had done crime. It is just men. Ironic, I'm still on the chase. The bird is grey and black. It is almost look-like you see on postcard where's snow surrounding and 2 small birds that isn't red bird. It is grey and black. My dog looks like Reese but smaller as Pug (type of small dog). I've been different places. I remember I was surrounding red bricks with nice arch designing. It was still dark but had some kind of light that shines unknown direction(don't know where it comes from). I remember I ended up somebody's back yard. I don't know how I got there. There's a stone written. I remembered I read it and understood what it said and now, I don't remember what it said. All I know that was some kind of clues. I couldn't stay that long. I ended up other people's backyard. One thing I hate the most in my dreams and even previous dream, I could fly but it wasn't smooth. It always awarkard flight and it is bumping. I meant is I could not fly as high as I would like and I couldn't stay same level. It constantly up and down. It is like bouncing in the mid-air as I struggle to even and smooth my flight. It just make it seems impossible. I even have to fight harder by trying to fly high across the tall fence to get to other side. Sometimes I succeed and other times I have to climb. I met someone there. Seemed like he knows I was being on a chased. He called another animals. All the animals approched me. One thing that stands out the most is the moose. Yes, a huge moose stuck his head between small tree as the moose tried to clear away from the leaves off of moose's face and looked at me.

That's was it. I finally got up @ 1pm. I dunno how it ends nor do I know why I was on the run.

Before that dream, I dreamed a different one. I was at the playground alone even though there people there. One thing the differences. There's no children around. That is because playground is made for adult. It is somewhat similar as miltary but not very challenge and yet it is challeging for beginners. I saw a tall roof and opening inside. There's a climbing bars and it is about 4 or 5 stories high. There are about 3 or 4 opening gaps in surrounding. I thought it would be easy. However, I was told that I couldn't pass a line that is on the ground to get to the bars. I struggle to get a foot to reach over withouth touch a ground. If I did then I have to get back in line to start over again.
As I managed to get my foot to touch the bottom of the bar. I was like, "now what?" I have no idea how I got there but I'm already on 3rd stories on the climbing bars. Now, my goal is looking for gaps to get in without worrying about falling if I'm on outside of climbing bars. Somehow I couldn't find it so I climb on different side so I can get a better look from the distance because you can't see up-close. Once I found the gap, I went back exact position where I was then got in the gap and start climbing inside. Once I got on top, something unexpected had happened. The bars went leaning over. I grabbed on hold so I wouldn't fall. The bars stayed in lean position, once I figure it out. I just stepped down and not climbing back down. The climbing bars returned back to it position.

The people saw me getting off the climbing bars, they applud(sp) for me. I stood there unexpected at first the I overcome that part and start bowing from right to left by 3 times.

Afterward, I was planning to go back home. I looked around and realize I was lost. It took me a while to find it. Once I did, it feels so strange and doesn't look like my home. It is small one room house with rotten and white paint chipped off. Even though I'm at home but I know this isn't my house nor my parent house. It is too strange.

I wonder that has to do with my anixity(sp?) about me living alone in apartment without my parents are nearby. I did asked few people I know who I feel comfortable to live with me as roommate by getting two rooms. Of course, they said no. I'm soo tempting to knelt and beg. Oh well. I guess I have to move on alone.

Agility

I think that's the right spelling. It is dog sport. As you might see on TV, there's seesaw, jumping, tunnel, and a poles for zigzag.

I've been searching where I can find get together for me and Reese, my dog. There's dog troop but it is too far to drive espeically when it comes an awful traffic. So I've search thru internet and trying to find something.

I ended up and found agility group meeting and it is not far from my home. I was thrilled when I find that out. I've been waiting for first day of class start.

Last Monday, I finally had a chance!! It was just a beginning. It was fun! I enjoyed. I think Reese enjoyed. She seemed to like to soical with othe dogs, too. It is only 8 of us. That is the max for class. That's nice! It makes more interactive and almost one-on-one tutor. Reese seems learned fast.

When I did at home, she likes that new game (from the Monday taught). I can't wait for new technique next week for Reese.

While I was there I saw 2 border collies, one is black and white and other is reddish-brown and white. They seems smaller than Reese. Resse is bigger. Now I wonder, what is other half of her. I guess I'll never know.

All I know she's very bright and loves to walk and play. She's sweet and outgoing.

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At work, it is most easist task, I ever work! However, it is a lot of work!! It is too much makes it seems impossible to get it done. My boss asked me maybe do some kind of team. In another word, add one more person to do the task. However, that person isn't helpful. All that person was standing there and watching me for few moments then walk away. I was like... "Hello?" I refuse to say anything and minding my buisness. I let my boss or others take care of it. I know if a person didn't do the work, they will fired that person sooner or later.

what's been happening?

Things happened quite so fast last month and this week. Since someone transfer to different dept, other person promoted up. Then I got promoted up. Actually, I work 2 jobs at same time. I couldn't finished in time since 2 jobs were a lot. However, I was told two important task that are primary so I focus on that and able get it done. Just couldn't do other things.

When my allegry is acting up, I do feel exhausted and didn't feel like do anything. No wonder it called hay fever, even though allergy doesn't have fever but it does feel like I'm having cold/flu-like.

I managed to get up in morning to go to work. However, I didn't feel like do my work. When I arrived I spotted another worker and work in my area. I couldn't asked for perfect timing. It is truly a best timing ever! Two of us working and I helped her out. Later I learned that she's going to take one of my old postion while I'm taking new upper position. So I taught her and trained her about my old postion. Meanwhile, one of the team leader took over my "training" her. I didn't care. I know that she's has "contoling issue" and likes to be "bossy". I just let her as long as she doesn't bother me. I mind my buisness. Few days later, that team leader isn't there so I continue train her and teach her how to use a computerize thing. She said it is too much to remember. For me? It only take me a day. That's all I need. I don't need a week of training even through there is. I told her that she will get the hang of it. Just take time.

Second week, I felt so much better. Thanks to allergy pill over-the-counter. Plus, I recuprate over the weekend by doing nothing which is my favorite thing to do... Is nothing...

During second week, I ask that person who's going to take over my old postion to see if she could do by herself without me. Of course, I did stop by couple times and help her a bit. So she wouldn't feel overwhalmed on second day seems getting better. Although, she still seem overwhalmed. I think she isn't use to it. Beside when first time doing that, I didn't had time to have 15 minutes break until about a month. When I got use to it, I finally had 15 minutes break.

Now, I'm able to focus one job instead of two. I'm able to get mostly done. I'm sure I'm able to get it done better by next week once I improved my speed.

Oh I forgot to mention something. I was wrong (or misunderstood) that my parent would move sometimes in Jan or Feb. Actually, it is either March or April. That give me a little bit more time. I have already searching for apartment or rent a room. Rent an apartment is too expensive!! While just rent a room from someone's else house is $200 dollars cheaper.

When I contact several of people thru email, so far, there's no respond. I'm kinda disapointed. But like I said, I'm glad that I still have alittle bit more time.

Also, I did check out other university. Downside is no dorm and very bad area makes it diffcult to find a good place to stay without being too far to drive while other university doesn't have dorm but the area is pretty good and able to find a better area. When I spoke to advisor there. She suggestion to email her of a place and she will let me know which area is good or bad. Sadly other university doesn't.

Mmmmm, I rather live in dorm make it easier on me than living a place where's too expensive. I'm tempting to go where's dorm is at but it isn't best school for me espeically I want excellent reputation. So I'm able to find job better and better paid, too. Lots to think about...

One step at a time...

Celebrate!!!

Guess what?!?!!

My dad got the position... A job!!! They will move to Georgia sometimes in Jan or Feb. So that means I need to find apartment. I'm really nervous!!

Why?

Because, I barely know anyone here and my parent are only 2 poeple in my family that I can depend on and there's no family here for me to depend on in Texas. Oy!

Obama

Wow! He won to be president. I applud(sp) for him even though I did vote McCain. Deep down, I knew Obama will win.

I just hope that he is the right choice that's all.

Personally, I think it is huge mistake.

Again, I hope not for the sake of America.

Here's another bad news, IRS made a mistake back in 2006 and have to pay taxes for over 500 dollars. Geez, what's next?

I asked my mom, "couldn't ya postpone?" mom said, no, for they will have to pay interest rate and due pay is in December.

What a wonderful way for xmas?! Huh?

Yah!!!!

I'm getting raised!!! Ppfftttt cheap .25 cent. HEY!! It is better than nothing. On bright side, during holiday, I get double paid. Hee hee. I can't wait for holiday. Ironic, I use to be dreading to work during hoilday but now, I've realize that is real world. So I'm going to continue. Like I said before, I get double paid means more $$$$$. That way, I wld be able to find apartment and etc. It is best for me to have back-up money for it.

My time is nearly up for my lunch is almost over.

Did u know??

(I didn't either until now) you can skip master degree and go straight to PH.D.

Kewl, huh??

I just visit other graduate university. I'm so glad that I get to visit several universities. There is 2 more that caught my interest... However, I'm going to pick one that is nearby. Yep, there is another one I haven't visit.

Hope for the best but prepare for worst

Yeah, when my mom had heartburn. She thinks that is her stress. She kept trying to explain that she tried her best to think positive but there's part of her also thinking worst possibile couldn't happen the she repeat but she's trying to think positive at same time. I said to my mom, don't u mean hope for the best but prepare for the worst. My mom said yeah! she seem relieved that I understood her.

Here's possiblity of good news, my dad received a phone call from his boss. He told him that there's a guy might have to have early retirement due to medical reasons.

So my dad did contact and had on phone interview. The man told my dad that might be intense training. Since there is differences between heltercoper(sp) and planes. My dad said, not a problem for he had experiences working at Eastern Airlines(same as Delta, American Airlines) until Eastern closedthe man did reponsed COOL! As he sounds impressive.

If the man hired my dad then it would be under same company and the company will pay the moving. Yes, my parent might move back to Gergoria. It will be Northern part where's mountains and snows. Mmmm sounds lovely isn't it? However it is not for certain but highly possible. *fingers crossing*

Even though, my parent moved out. I'm staying here. My mom thinks that school is also free there in Gergoria. I kinda doubt it so I ask a deaf friend who is from Gergoria to make sure, if I live in-state over a year then I will be in school for free. Turn out, that it is not free.

So I'm staying here for real. What makes me nervous is that I'm alone here and what if there's emergency or car break down. Who should I contact to? There's no family here. Friends, I haven't been really close, here in Texas.

Success!!

Finally, we did sold a lot of stuff at the yard sale. However, there's still more left over. We brings those back in the house. According to my mom, there is more stuff in the attic that we want to get rid of.

There's a guy who seems interesting in those stuff. When my dad told him there's more stuff upstair. He said that he will come over and help us... Other words, he get these stuff first before others. Haha.
We can get all the help we need. We got a little over 300 bucks! But we are going to use them for new tires on one car. So we have leftover for one hundred bucks. Since it has been a while that we ate out. So we did. We pick a reasonable price for resturant. We didn't pick an expensive one.
Tomorrow, I'm going back to work. I had hard time getting up this morning. Ugh! Not only that, I've been working at home. Now I'm back to work at work. Blah! No time for recuprate. I had intense dreams about at work. It must be antixity(sp). I hate that for it is recurring dreams. I never had recurring dreams before until now.

Oh, we are going to have one more yard sale this Saturday. It is really helpful when put one dollars to 20 dollars.

My mom wouldn't sale anything that's expensive. From what I understand that we are going to hold them for a little while.

Stressed

Spell backward... "Desserts"... Lots of chocolate didn't do any cure... My mom is seems to be more stress than my dad but then again maybe both is in equal. Just that my dad did managed to hold back and later he will blew up. Which it is not unusual. Right now, my mom and I are on and off aguring. Even though it is pretty good news that my dad recieved phone calls yesterday morning from his boss that he wants my dad to stay for one month. It is not going to be easy road.

Right now, our goal is to sell the house. This Friday and Saturday, we are going to have yard sale again but this time the cost will be 20 dollars or less. Anything to sell quickly as possible.

Meanwhile, my mom wants me put certian oil paintings and etc to have it sale on Craiglist. Since I've been trying to take a picture by getting better lightening than using the flash. Because the flash makes the oil painting glare and couldn't hardly see the pictures itself. So I have to move around. My mom didn't like it. In fact, she starting to fuss at me. She said forget the craiglist.

I was like... okay... I'm trying to help but it did no good. I did promised to put it back the way it was but... my mom wouldn't let me talk. She said that if I open my mouth one more time then she'll going to scream. I just rolled my eyes and walked away.

There's another example. My laundry day is usually Sunday evening and Dad's Sunday morning and my mom is Monday. My mom interpruted my laudry day on Sunday. So I started on Monday. My mom fussed at me and tell me that is her laundry day. I told her, that she's interpruted. Then she said to me that all I want is to agrue. I was like, GEEZZZ.

Today, I suppose to be helping around the house but I couldn't stand being around my mom. So I ended up going to library and write this and explore internet and checking emails and etc.

I wish I have my own special's place where no-one is around. And I'm not talking about the park or library. I'm talking about like nobody is around, not even walking by and etc. I want to go where I could have a paradise of private propety that I own and no one knows where it is. And maybe have some kind of miniture cabin or cottage that is size of one room like an old-fashion one room red school back then. Just seprate with large bathroom. Would be nice!!

It has been over an hour and I better go.

unsuceeded

No wonder why!! Somebody had removed several of our yard sale signs!! What an assholes!!??!

update

Consider yourself luck that your parent is still living under the roof in their house.

Right now, we are at higher risk of becoming homeless and bankracpty if we didn't sell the house within by end of December.

Today, we are having yard-salel. My mom is in heart-wrenching to sell the good stuff espeically the french-country oil painting. It is my mom's favorite. I asked her if she want me to buy it. She said no since I'm in the same situation. She's right. I have to save my money.

Right now, it has been over an hour and no one is stopping by. They just drive by and looked. There's one car drive by about 6 times. Mom said they are trying to steal it. If both is bored and decided to stay inside.

If that doesn't work, I'm going to try on ebay. I never done on ebay before. Any suggestion of how's that work or start it up. Mom said she don't have time to do it. I'm going to give it a try. I may start french and french-country oil painting on ebay.

Damn it!! I saw the house for sale and it is right next to us.... There is another house for sell few door next to us. That house has been trying to sell for over 3 months now.

Mom said, we may have to pack our clothes and leave until the first payment didn't pay, that's when the bank foreclousre it. We just take what we got. My mom dislike the idea but we may go back to poor white trash living in tailer(sp). We did lived like that long time ago. Just that mom wasn't her idea way of ending retire and too old to go try start over again. Since my parent had worked so hard to build up and going up the stairs to have better life than their parents. Now, they may go back to rock bottom.

One man did came and check out and he said, those stuff are way too nice to buy. He's look for some kind of junk. Haha. However, he suggestion craglist. I had forgotten about craiglist since it is free to sign up for it. So, once bring those stuff in, I will take a pictures. If anyone curious, or might be interesting to buy. Let me know before I post on craiglist.

just find out: part 2

My dad is force to retire since there's no other job availablity. Mom said move out anywhere they want but question is where... And my dad may have to find another job since they do not have enough from 401K retirement money......

just found out...

At first, I was getting alittle exciting about going to Atlanta. In fact, I'm going to get to see that cute 2 months old baby girl that my cousin had. She also had two boys. She mention to my mom that she never had seen all that pink before in her life. I remembered. That's first thing I bought is purple! Purple pants with purple and pink flowers top. There's purple/blue/pink flowers for whole body and footies. And I bought purple booties to matches. All are same company from pooh bear. I just couldn't resist. I got purple overall and bedige top with lace-collar. And a sweater-jacket that is purple/pink/blue shade. They're beatiful!!

I came home from work and show all those stuff to my mom and etc. We were talking about plans and what to wear while we are there and etc. Mom did her laudry and I did mine and plan to finish up on Friday.

However, my dad just receive news thru email before dinnertime, today. That news could cause my dad an early retire or transfer different job but either way, they are going to move out ASAP. So we can't go and visit Atlanta. Since, we have to save money.

Beside, I don't want to move out. However, economy is bad. The college might not be free, anymore.

*sigh* I better go.

oopps & TGIF

Opps about printed "no title..." Twice. I do not have time to search and delete one. Then again, I might not.

I'm just grateful that I'm off on weekends now. (I dunno abt future but right now I'm just grateful).

Thank goodness that today is Friday! YAH!!

I'll be busy this weekend... Cuz soon, we are going to Atlanta. It looks like it is going to be for real. We are going to leave on 18th.

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Well, I'm just glad there's one wasp sting and not 2, 3, or many. Ever since I've been sting, all I want is itch. Man! It drive me crazy! I use anti-itch creme. It helped for little while. Plus it is sore on my shoulder. I usually carried my purse on left shoulder where's I've been stung at. Now I'm carry my purse on right side. To this day, it is still sore and still on and off itching feeling. That wasp sure worest than bee sting. You definetly don't want to go thru that.

Meanwhile, I'm still working in the morning. Things seemed finally resolved on it own btwn my boss and his boss. Thank goodness! I've worked more hours. I've been working from 6am to 230pm instead of 6am to noon. It is not so bad once I get the hang of it.

Also, my boss gave me temporary 2nd job since someone had been promoted to work in backroom from 330am and other transfer to different dept. So after I finished my part then I go work on my 2nd job. It is a lot of resonablity (sp) but I can get the hang of it as long as it is temporary, that's all that matters to me. I couldn't help the other things after I finished my part.

So I'm under trained of how to do on 2nd job and get cerificated for it even it is just temporary. This 2nd job is a lot but easier than my 1st job... Maybe I'll try to get that postion. *Grin*

I'm exhausted. First time, I'm working full-time. It will take time for me to adjusted. Also, I go home to take a short nap. Afterward, I had dinner then walk my dog in neighborhood. Other times, like on weekends, I would walk her in mornings and during weekdays, I would walk her in evenings. Again, it does take me a while for me to adjusted. I didn't at first but my parent is willing to help me out. They walked her every other day and I walk her every other day. That way, Reese walk everyday. Until I'm able to do almost everyday and my parent do once in a while. It is nice to have a break for me.

Here's another good news, I finally found DR that accepted my insurance and the bad news, it is long drive espeically when comes to gas. However, I'm going and it will be this Saturday. I will call Friday to make sure that they didn't change their policy. So I wouldn't waste my gas.

Well, that's all for now.

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Well, I'm just glad there's one wasp sting and not 2, 3, or many. Ever since I've been sting, all I want is itch. Man! It drive me crazy! I use anti-itch creme. It helped for little while. Plus it is sore on my shoulder. I usually carried my purse on left shoulder where's I've been stung at. Now I'm carry my purse on right side. To this day, it is still sore and still on and off itching feeling. That wasp sure worest than bee sting. You definetly don't want to go thru that.

Meanwhile, I'm still working in the morning. Things seemed finally resolved on it own btwn my boss and his boss. Thank goodness! I've worked more hours. I've been working from 6am to 230pm instead of 6am to noon. It is not so bad once I get the hang of it.

Also, my boss gave me temporary 2nd job since someone had been promoted to work in backroom from 330am and other transfer to different dept. So after I finished my part then I go work on my 2nd job. It is a lot of resonablity (sp) but I can get the hang of it as long as it is temporary, that's all that matters to me. I couldn't help the other things after I finished my part.

So I'm under trained of how to do on 2nd job and get cerificated for it even it is just temporary. This 2nd job is a lot but easier than my 1st job... Maybe I'll try to get that postion. *Grin*

I'm exhausted. First time, I'm working full-time. It will take time for me to adjusted. Also, I go home to take a short nap. Afterward, I had dinner then walk my dog in neighborhood. Other times, like on weekends, I would walk her in mornings and during weekdays, I would walk her in evenings. Again, it does take me a while for me to adjusted. I didn't at first but my parent is willing to help me out. They walked her every other day and I walk her every other day. That way, Reese walk everyday. Until I'm able to do almost everyday and my parent do once in a while. It is nice to have a break for me.

Here's another good news, I finally found DR that accepted my insurance and the bad news, it is long drive espeically when comes to gas. However, I'm going and it will be this Saturday. I will call Friday to make sure that they didn't change their policy. So I wouldn't waste my gas.

Well, that's all for now.

Scream!!!

Yes, I did screamed! There was wasp building a nest up in the ceiling outside nearby the back door. It increasing by numbers. My parent and I walked back and forth by the back door many times and think nothing of it. Until this afternoon, I was playing with Reese just before going outside. She's very vocal (barking) when it comes to play. As soon as I open the door, she's barking and jumping up and down when I had the ball in my hand. As soon as I start to throw. I felt sharp pain that made me scream. It hit me on my left shoulder in the back. I looked back to see what it was. I saw wasp. I looked up and I see a group of wasps were perparing (about 7 of them) to form into group. I knew I was in troubled. I ran. I told Reese to come. She still thinks we're playing. She's hyper as she running along with me. I went around the house to the front yard. I looked around and didn't see anything. Boy!!! It was extremely pain, burning, stinging, and itching. I refuse to itch nor touch it. Meanwhile, my mom was in the shower, I knew she wouldn't hear me knocking at front door. But I did tried... But didn't work. Lucky, it didn't take long until my dad arrived from work.

Baking soda and ice seems to be helping. However, the singing feeling still going on and off. Feels like being stung again and again. I rather be stung by bee (which happen to be twice) for it only sung once and the pain goes away after put baking soda. This is first time I've been stung by wasp.

No allergic reation... Same with bee. Thank goodness for that!!

geeeezzzz whizzzzz

I arrived to the doctor office. I discovered that the doctor is no longer accepting medicaid. I was confused. I said, I've been here for 3 years and been used my medicaid. Whoever behind the desk told me, I know we did but not anymore. Do you have any other insurance. I said no and they refuse to accept me. I was like. What's going on.

So I went to library to check under government website to find lists of doctors would accept medicaid.

Guess what??

I've been calling all the doctors that had been listed under government website. None of them accepted. They used to but not anymore...

I was like what's going on??!!! Seem to me I'm behind or I'm just watching more about president and VP

So I check out on website news... I found out that here in Texas 60% and increasing that doctors refuse accept medicaid.

It's all started in Illionis. There's lawsuit suing doctors for taking advantage government's money. Patients who waiting by hours have to pay. So doctor just making patients who has medicaid will be paying by hours causing more money paying by government. So doctors are afraid to use medicaid from it.

Aargghhhh!!!!

I also read that poor woman from Illionis who has a husband broke his back and couldn't work for long time until it heals. She and her husband with 3 kids have medicaid. And she couldn't find any doctor wld accpet medicaid for her kids get sick, flu, infection, and etc.

Since medicaid isn't accepted by doctor. Children could die or sick could got worest and finally able to take hosptial as in ER. That isn't good. However, I did called one and one accept medicaid only 17 or under, not adults. *sigh*

restless leg sydrome, nerve system, thryiod diease, or nothing

Ya know?? Ever since I can remember, my teacher and my mom always called me ants in the pant. Yes, I couldn't be still in my leg which always constantly shifting. When I was in middle school, that's when my muscle cramp in my leg at night. It called charlie horse or nacturnal(night) cramp. It can be so extremely painful that I woke up in the middle of night. So painful that I do forget how to breath. Once I realize I was holding my breath(that was much later), I tried so hard to remind myself to breath when that happens. I scream for my daddy. Poor him, so helpless and didn't know what to do.

When I was in college, I slept with my ex. I woke up so suddenly as I grab my leg. My ex woke up and asked me what's wrong. I told him I got cramp in my leg. That's when he start gentle message in my leg and that took care of it and heal so fast!

When I'm no longer with him, I tried to message myself. It didn't work. I feel like the pain is ongoing and never ends. Once the pain stop. I really hate to get up in the morning because the sore feels same pain as the cramp everytime I walk. As I continue to walk, the pain goes away.

I remember when I first saw on tv commerical about restless leg sydrome(RLS). It was perfect description for it. However, that pill is when u have RSL almost everyday. I don't. It is only like once a month or two.

Other day, I was in a car and my mom was driving. I bobbing my right leg which it does happen many times in the past. My mom always asked me what's wrong? I said nothing is wrong. Then she asked me if I'm nervous, upset, or stress? She tends to determined that I'm one of them. Like, when there's exam, she dertermined that I'm stressing. When there's isn't anything in situation, she determined that I'm upsetting about something. It was really frasurated that none of them are true!! My mom is ually grab my leg and tell me to stop it so I managed to contol it so that's why it wasn't everyday.

One day, I did bobbing my leg and didn't relize I was doing it until my mom asked me what's wrong. Right there and then I knew what it was... I told her that was RLS!!!!!!! My mom was surprised! She said is that what it is? My respond, "yes!"

Until about three or four months ago, I feel tangle(sp?) and nearly numb in my finger tips. It is annoying. I have to put my hands down. Sometimes it works and other time, it didn't. Now it's starting to spreading in my arms. When I'm busy, like cooking, folding, or anything that I'm busy on table, I feel tangling. So I have to stop and put my arms down until circluation is better. It going back and forth. At night, both of my arms feels same as my legs as in RLS. No matter, how many toss and turns and different postions of my sleep isn't working.

So I looked up in the internet, saying might be lack of calium, or posstium(contain in banana) or water. I've drink a lot of water and I notice it did reduce my muscle cramp over few years, until, it came back. However, I still have RSL even I didn't have cramp. I've been talking multi-vitiamns including caluium and iron. My muscle cramp came back and in my arms are annoying.

Appearently, I need to visit doctor. For could be nerves system or throyiod deases, those what internet said. Or could be nothing.... But best for me to go and check by professional.

caught in between

Doesn't sound good, isn't it? Espeically when I'm in middle between my boss AND my boss' boss. Eeekkk!!

Since I'm not going to names name. I'm going to make this way. My boss is a male and my boss' boss is a female so you'll see him, her, he, and she.

The schedule kept changing on me. My boss says one thing while my paper schedule says another. It can be confusing.

Finally, My boss had told me that he wants me to come from Monday to Friday from now on and off on weekend. So I accepted. According to my paper schedule, I'm off Wed since my boss wants me to come. So I did. When I clock in, the computer said reject and have to get permission. So I spoke to secartary(at the desk) then spoke to another person who happen to be my boss' boss(that time, I didn't know). She told me to go bed, it is your off day. I told her, yeah but my boss told me to come, today. She said no, go home. I told her, yeah, but my boss told me to come on Monday to Friday from now on. She said that she will talk to him. Now go home. I was like, "ok." I back off quickly. She grinned and I think she notice that I back off. I left. I didn't went to bed. Instead, I was doing my errands.

Next day, I came to work. I saw my boss. He's working there, too. As soon as I finished my part, I went off and search for him. I found him and I spoke to him what happened yesterday. He wasn't happy about it. I also mention that I wasn't on schedule for next week. He shake his head (seem furstraed(sp)) and took a piece of paper and write down for my schedule from now on with his signture and date that he signed. It is Mon to Fri. Few moments later, I learned that was his boss. He also mention that he thinks that his boss is the one who change schedule behind his back(SHIT was first in my mind and I'm in middle of this). He said that he will talk to her about it. He said that he knows what this dept needs and she doesn't because she doesn't work in that dept. I refuse to say anything and I kept the paper.

Oy! What can I do about being stuck in middle? I hope the situation will resolve. If not, only thing I can think of is approach to them and tell them that I'm not going to get in the middle of this and this guy is my boss and I just follow what he wants and that's it. I'm sure that my boss' boss will understand because she's HR so her field is more of counsloring. While my boss had graduated and had BA in buisness degree. So, wait and see...

Please send good thoughts for me!

Lucky

I was lucky! Now, I'm not talk about hurricane.

Yesterday, I decided to bath my dog, Reese. She's really stink and possible stay in house for few days or so. Since the weather had been on and off raining. I decided to bath her in bathroom. I went to find something soft for my knees. I couldn't find it. So I grab the float device for swimming pool. It has some kind of thick suraform(sp?). It is not air-thing. So, put in bathroom for my knees as I bath Reese. After, I finished, I dry her and few minutes, she bolt outside. (There's bathroom where's lead to out to the pool). I left door open to keep fresh air in. Since it is raining outsie, I knew Reese would not hestate(sp) to come back. Anyway, I was standing on wet floor and not the thick foam. Somehow, my foot-flop went into slippery and both my feet is going like a bike ride in backward. I feel like I'm in cartoon moment. Everything had gone in split seconds that I didn't had time to grab something to hold like I usually do when I lost my balance. I landed on my butt on the thick foam. I sat there a little longer and wonder if the pain is going to show up but didn't. I thank my lucky stars that I landed on something soft and not on hard floor. I got up and feeling fine. I was relieved. By the way, Reese did came back.

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I couldn't remember my dreams other night. The only thing I remember it was sooo funny that I actually laughing in my sleep and woke me up. Eventually, I went back to sleep and I dream a different dream and again, it was funny that I laugh in my sleep. I woke up. I said to myself, I don't mind humor but I do need a sleep. So I went back and sleep and dream didn't bother me. I wish I remember what it was. It was first time that I actually laugh in my sleep. Kewl, huh? It is for me.

Mmmmm I'm still working in mornings @ 6am and 5 days a week. I'm not use to it even though, I work 6 hours. I was watching Coco Chanel(famous clothing designer and prefume). It is about a woman who before her fashion designer. She works from 7am in morning to 8pm in evening. It is 13 hours worth of working. I was really amazing how much women had to work like that. Anyway, I was amazing by her and how much she didn't give up her dream starting to designs and selling hats to fashion clothes to perfume. She's very independent woman who would wear men's pant and ride a horse that isn't allow woment to wear pants and didn't do side saddle.

I must be lucky to live such thing. I just couldn't wait to go back to school this Spring. I have mentally noted when first day start resigster classes so I can get it first before others.

I better go since it is late.

wwaahhhh!

Wwaaahhh! Sigh, I just learned that Stargate: Atlantis is cancel. First, it was Stargate: SG1 and now it is Stargate: Atlantis. I'm soo disappointed! There is nothing to watch on Friday, anymore. They picked weastling. Now why would weastling would fit for science fiction channel??? Weastling isn't science fiction!!

*sigh*

There's another news, seem like Hurricane is still coming to our side now. There will be heavy rain and winds. Possible tornados... Please send a pray or positive thoughts.

Thanks!

intense dream and other

I had annoying dream that I got fired, just because I didn't earn enough points to stay. Ironic, there's no such thing as points at work. My point numbers are too low so I was asked to leave and never return. I woke up and find that annoying.

Whatever it is, I dunno.

About other thing, I just bought new glasses about couple weeks ago and waiting to get it until yesterday. Since the popular style is thick and dark brown rim with square shape. It looks very much like a student-look.

I dislike thick rim, but I got thin rim with brudary(dark red color) and sorta square/retuanglar with a curve and not sharp coner. It's hard to explain. However, I think I look different with that on. Interesting part, no one mention about my new glasses at work.

Here's another story, it is about Oreo, black/white kitty. Yesterday, mom and I were getting ready to go out to do few errands. My mom didn't realize that she closed the lundry room door. That is where's potty pan is at. We left for about 4 hours and came home. Few minutes later, my mom open the door from laundry room to check on the clothes. I notice Oreo ran so fast. Anoter few moments, mom told me that he ran pass by her and quickly pooped in potty pan. He didn't take his time. He just turn around and pooped. Bless his heart for waiting very patience.

Unlike T-T, he wouldn't do that. In fact, he will poop in the middle of the living room.

Another news, hurricae Ike is coming to Texas. Look like it is going to East of Texas, while, we live in West side. However, I notice there will be small side that might hit Dallas. We just have to keep an eye out to see what direction would be really going plus chance of tornados. I'm just am glad that I will be at home this Saturday.

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There's a lot to say but seems to me I have writer block at this moment.

Anyway, that is photo of my dog, Reese on my profile. That pix was taken last year. Notice grass is brown? This year, we started to water at night. My dad find a way to set up automatic. It start around 2am or 3am (I couldn't remmy). This year, the grass is alittle green. Well, it is green but not dark green like I use to see in East...

Well, in the East, the drought came in and no water in plants. A lot of plants had died and grass are brown as I saw on news last year and before that. If there is one house shows green which is dead giveaway and it charge ya for it. I don't blame the law for trying to protect the water. The lake was very low. I remembered, I used to live in South Carolina and drove to Gergoria. Most of my family lives in Gergoria. I notice the lakes, even large lake, the water is low. I can see the borderline of used to be water to red dirt. And the water is so low that the dock isn't in the water anymore. Every time, we passed by every year. It just getting too low. People seems like either in daniel or just didn't believe that it really happens. Some people needs physical proof. Like, we drove by and did see that.

The news didn't mention about how's weather this year for Gergoria.

Speaking of Gergoria, there is a small country that's next to Russia. Russia is trying to invading Gergoria. McCain did spoke up about enough with cold war that we had in past and enough is enough while Ombama didn't speak up. He just on vacation. Well, Prez Bush was in Florida with kids in one school while 9/11 happens. Soon after the schhol part done, he quickly left. My point is, I wouldn't vote for Ombama. He's too young and lack of experiences. Anyway, I agree with MaCain, enough with cold war with Russia. All those tension could increase chances to lead WW3.

Well, I am leaning more on McCain, now. I know he's old man and has family history of cancer... Maybe just for first 4 years? Not another 4 more years as 2nd term? Mmmmm? I really want good strong leadership for America.

I still have one whole month to think about it.

Good nite...

Update: Simba

Simba is alive and she got picked up this morning before she put to sleep! Yah!

Another updated, I'm working from 6am to 2:30pm this week. I just hope it wouldn't last too long.

I'm thinking about requesting my days off on my birthday. *grin*

Damit!!!

Damn old woman send the border collie to the shelter where's there will be putting to sleep. I found out thru email the other lady is trying to find someone to pick her up, today and put her 501c3, that's no kill rescue organization. However, I heard nothing. I was concern if any isn't going to pick her up today then put her to sleep.

I know the name of shelter, so I look up search and found address and number. I called. I asked if Simba is still there. Yes, she is. Damit was first in my mind. I found out I can't pick her up. It has to be from 501c3 organation to pick her up.

Simba is on a death row if no one picks her up this Monday. She will be asleep by Tuesday.

News Changed

There's a news had been changed. I've learned that our trip to AZ for this December changed to either Jan or Feb.

Moreover, my parent isn't going to move until 2010 instead of next year. I admit, I was sorta relieved. Maybe that would give me more chance to get in graudate school before, they leave.

That's all I have for now.

possible visit?

My parent were discussing about visiting my grandma this Oct, since it is her birthday, there will be family celebration for her. My mom had asked me to save my money so I can go with my parent. Since my parent couldn't pay me to the trip. I still don't know if I could save any. I still have to pay my bills. In fact, I couldn't go to Dragon Con this year during Labor day weekend. However, I could try.

Meanwhile, I just found out that I had extra hours next week. OY!! So that means I need a good night sleeps and I will make sure that I have two 15 minutes break and lunch break, so I wouldn't be so tired.

Speaking of sleeps, I'm going to get ready for bedtime.

what a wonderful mother!

Actually, I'm being scarcastic. I've been in two different stores. I happened to walking around with a cart and I stopped to let people passing by me. I spotted a woman who's looking around for clothing as she walked pass me unnoticed. I spotted a little boy with the shoulder dropping down like a hunch in his back and dragging his feet behind his mother. I was puzzle at first. Why is the boy doing that? Normally I see them very active, running, riding the cart while being very talktive. Then I heard him sneezed. I looked closely at his face. He's looks so pale and had red nose. He sneezed, again as he continued to follow his mom. Few second later, he sneezed, again. I was thinking how rude! Dragging that poor kid... Then next day, I was in the line in different store. I spotted another boy who doesn't looks so good and he's just coughing. I was like, GEEZZ. He's standing next to his mom. I moved to another line for I don't want to get sick.

Why can't people... And children stays home???!!! I read news mention about whopping cough. It is in different county but we are still close. It is increasing. Did you know that doctor advise them not to go out even though you might feel better but it is still catiouns(spreading) yet, people who has whooping cough still going out and continue spreading. It is like they are doing on purpose. In fact, flu, whooping cough can killed people who has low immune system such as CF, diebeatic(mom), asthma(me), and espeically elderly people.

If you had a flu, just remember when you go out, you could killed someone. Another word, you might have murder someone with your "bio-weapon" such as flu.

Well, I also feel sorry for those 2 little boys who had to drag. At least let them sit in cart or lay down in cart. Might as well send them to school.

I remember last year, I spotted little girl look like had chicken pox but healing. However, she seems weak. Her mother actually put two thick pillow and blanket in cart. She lay down resting while mother shopping. Now that's better.

I found those mothers seems insentives.

Well, there isn't much news. Other than, my parent will move next year but question is when. And I'm still working as usual. Wishing I had pay raised. I would do anything have more money.

My pets and family are fine and so am I. Last 2 weekends, we been cleaning, but I think my parents did the most since I work one Sat morning while I'm off in other Sat morning. Trying to adjust to this new schedule isn't easy. Plus, at work, can be overwhalm or other times can be easy. When it is easy, I slow down. When it is diffcult I increase my speed since I have to finish by 11am with my project. After 11am, I'm helping out few other things such as putting things away, helping other team leader of their project until noon then I'm outta here! Its nice to work 6 hours in 5 days a week.

Well, it is time for me to go to sleep since I have to get up early. I'm just am glad that my work isn't that far to drive.

Shoo Fly, don't bother me

There's a song for that. Now I can see why. Earlier today, I was outside after swimming (it is cool when's wet than dry cuz it is hot outside), the fly kept coming on my leg. It just crawl on me. I found that annoy so I shoo the fly with my hand waving at the fly. Few seconds later, the fly came back, I've been repeating to shoo the fly several times. Finally, the fly didn't come back.

Anyway, things seems less tention since we finally have A/C at the other half of the house. Of course, we still giving each other hard times, sometimes.

For instance, today at dinner, we were at the resturant. I order Chicken Tender Platter with honey mustard. (My fave!) the honey mustard is out. I got my dad attention. I pointed my finger at the honey mustard. My dad said, " no I don't want anymore." He's too full. I pointed finger at myself. Then dad understood, "ooh, you want more." I nodded. Reason why I asked my dad is because he could see the waiter comes by. I couldn't the waiter is most of the time is behind me. Mom just laughed at my dad the start talk about what he and I was doing. Then I laughed. My dad just grinning.

There's another news... I just found out that the moving to other state would be coming sooner than I thought...

I admit, I think that is too soon...

please save Simba

Well, it is the dog's name. She's female and has reddish with white chest. She's mix border collie. She has been sprayed, heartwormed (clean), and get along very well with other dogs. She's housebroken. She's very sweet and smart.

However, my parent wouldn't let me keep her. The elderly lady found her stray and took her home. No one claim her nor anyone wants her. She tried to take her No Kill Shetlar; however, it is full. The elderly lady couldn't afford to feed her. Her last resourance(sp?) is to take a shatler where's they kills animals.

Please, she looks so much like my dog, Reese, Simba is reddish while my dog is tan.

I wish I could take Simba, just that my dad dislike animals. He toldence when mom and I wants pet. One dog is enough! *sigh* the elder lady with Simba is in Haltom City. It is not far from my home. Contact me if ya interesting. I will try post pix later on.

A/C

We finally got AC on other half of this house, just few days ago. We are enjoing our den and formal living room. Mom did changed from extra bedroom to craft room. She wants to set up for her scrapbooking. She's been reoranizing and moved around. Dad and I have been doing some lifting. Mom been vacuuming and dustung and move around. She did helping out lifting things, too. We all taking turns.

In meantime, I left to do some certain clothing items that I need since this weekend is tax-free. I did look around. I was kinda disappointed since I only see too dressy and fall kind clothings. I was kinad hoping more for winter and comfortable but looks nice. The dressy ones looks more for office-types and evening as nice dinner out, etc.

So, I came back home and help finished up around the house.

It seems alittle less tension for now.

gotta tell ya this...

I heard someone who had a baby (few months old) and came to work with the baby. This mother is telling a story about a guy at work. He refuse to hold the baby. In fact, he actually pull away with hands up in the air. She said, it is like he's afraid to catch something from the baby. I thought that was interesting. All the workers actually flocking to the baby while that guy who wouldn't want to get close and walked away. I even see another guy at work idmentally wants to hold the baby.

I do wonder sometimes why would some guy wld be afraid to hold the baby?

Bad News...

Long story short, I'm not going to college this Fall as I was hoping for. Yes, it is mostly my fault for poscanting(sp) but I'm still working on it, just not as fast as I could or should(?).

Another bad news, there's defintely high tension at home.

I dislike going to that certain city for I'm concern that I might get lost but look like I have to force myself, espcially if I need to move out sooner.

Pray or send good thoughts for me, please.

Thanks!

me & my big mouth...

Or am I walking on eggshell... Or is it both?

I think it is both. Sooner I move out the less tensions going on here. I also notice that Reese is protective of me.

I do know I might have double responsiblity here. Would I be able to handle, alone?

nothing new, yet

Yep, so far nothing is new or any kind of news. One thing is that I do agree about being patience does paid off.

Only think I would like to share is about 4 leggies fur creatures. :-)

Before I got to that, mom and I went to the store other day and I spotted a clerance(sp?-discount) and I saw a fake bird inside the small cage. It does make a natural sound of chirping. Since it is 2 dollars so I decided to get it and buy it. I brought home. Reese just sitting and looking at that bird. I made it chirping sound and Reese tilted her head. That was most adorable to see her head tilt. Oreo was checking it out.

Next day, I decided to show Tom-Tom. Tom-Tom's eyes were big and rounded like an owl's eyes. He stared at that birdie who made a chirping sound. He walked up closely at same time Oreo came up. Tom-Tom didn't like that, he bobbed his head with his paw. Seem like he did a good job 'cuz Oreo wobbling his head like he's drunk or something. Oreo left. Tom-Tom clawed at the cage and try to get the bird out. A few moments, he stopped and snuff then he realized that was fake so he losed his interest then turn around and left. That did crack me up. Now I'm attempting to try to test with other cats. If there is a way for me, I would.

It is fun to watch.

Good News!

Finally, somebody's no longer working a certain position and I got promoted! After 3 years (or 2 years and half) had been finally paid off. However, there's certain about this position, according to my team leader told me this, that most people are not able complete the task in time. There are very few people who have ability to do that. It is important role and a lot of responiblity! Oh boy! I will start next week, Monday morning. What nice about this?? It will be Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday at 6am to noon while Wed and Sat will be alternate! Whoo-hoo!!

I sure hope I'm able to keep up! Wish me Luck!

sleepy

I'm sooo sleepy since I got up 3 mornings and sleep alittle late but not tooo late. Soon I may go to bed about 6 to 7pm since it is worth of 8 to 7 hrs sleep. Question is, will I be able to fall asleep? Cuz if I force myself to stay awake once I do, sometimes it is harder for me to go to sleep.

Well, I better get up and about or I will fall asleep, right now.

Bye for now.

not looking forward

This coming Monday, I will be working at 3:30am in the morning.

It is 2 am in the morning right now and I usally go to sleep around 3:30am.

However, I'm planning gettin up around 7am or 8am in the morning so I can go to bed tmw night.

*************

So far, I'm still in hang about my situation with community college and university.

Also, I am thinking about buying a house. I understand that I might have to do the yardwork. Mmmm, but if I want to keep Reese with me then it might be best cuz I read somewhere that apartment isn't good for boder collie espeically with her high energy. That make sense because when I did live in apartment back in AZ. My dad helped me out such as when he get up 5am and took Reese out. Then around 10am I would take Reese out. By afternoon, I would walk Reese for half-hour then take a break then give her dinner. After dinner, I would take her another half hour. Before my dad go to bed (since it is dark outside, it isn't really safe area that much), he would let her out. All the time, my dad and I had Reese on leash. So, if I'm alone with less help or non, it might be wise to have backyard, otherwise, Reese would be restless. Which I have seen her that way before. Also, best to have fenced in to make it easier. So I can play ball with her. One thing I missed the most is play with her when I was in AZ since by law it is required on leash. I dislike that but same time I do understand.

Next time, I get a dog, I wld pick medium energy. That would fit perfectly for me as well would fit my lifestyle since I don't have that high energy. When I had German Sherpard, she had medium energy. I would do more research before I get the next dog. I wonder what type of breed, shall I get. Mmmm that would be next 15 to 20 years before I make my decision.

In meantime, I will try my best to do with Reese and make sure she's happy and satified her needs. (By the way, Reese is dreaming, she's growling. I can see her nose wrinkle and her teeth showing while her tonge stick out and lick her noe. Whatever in her dream is seems serious. Now she's stopped growling. It was short.)
Oreo is laying on his favorite spot on top of cat's fake tree-like nearby the wall. T-T is outside at night as usual. He seems dosnt go too far, anymore. He spend most of his time in backyard, now.

My parent are doing ok. Oh, my mom had a bad fall yesterday when she tripped over one of the coach's leg (it is hard to explain). She had a nasty big bruise on her upper leg and large swellown on her knuckles from her hand. Both doesn't look good but at least she can move around, just rather very sore when she move. I hope she doesn't break any bones in future for I hear that elderly tends to have broken hips when they fall. I hope that never happens. *knock on wood*

Like I said, my parent are ok even my mom's had have nasty brusied. She's ok. So am I. I'm doing ok, too. Just hate to be in "waiting and see game" espeically when I want things get done, NOW!

Smile.

A Dream House...

(Warning: there's a small cussing but worth to say...)

As I was searching for a house for my parent since they think about moving out. I spotted a dream house. It looks so much like painting from Thomas Kindcade. There's a mountain view with forest and river nearby cottage-like white house and full of flowers in front yard as on front poach, there is nothing but beautiful view. There's bald eagle and different kinds of wildlife. It also has 2 acres yard and Gazbo and Koi Pond. I give anything to have that. However, it cost over million dollars. *sigh*

Inside that house has large living room and 3 bedrooms and 2 full baths. There's a kicthen but for Chief-type and has island with sink in it and breakfast bar. There's formal dinning room. It has artificial aquarium nearby entrance and has grand entrance and there's double french doors and etc. Bathroom has juczzi(sp). *sigh* what a perfect. Oh it has wood-floor made by brizilian cherry tree.

Like I said... Whata dream house!!! Just to sit front poach and ingudle all that beautiful view. I could do that all day.

Oh I almost forgotten it also have paved for long walk with a dog. *damn, damn, damn* I wld love to live like that.

My lunch break is nearly over.

Ppppffttttt

The vaction of going to the beach was sucks. It was nothing on and off rain. Because of that we left early. Not only that, the outside of hotel looks nice but the inside was awful. The bathroom was dirty and bed was very uncomfortable. Plus there is some kind of odor. Blah! It was awful.

Well, there is some goods. We did went to beach shortly. We walk around the bay and on sidewalk. The resturants were very good and delious!

Speaking of good, I forgot to mention that several weeks ago I was voted top 3 bests of cleaning and organizing shoes dept. I got a prize. They're candies. I don't mind but it is nice to know that I won. Smile.

One thing I notice, most workers doesn't really like to do the shoes. I don't mind. Sometimes, I can be sneaking by using bench seat on and off as I work for shoes. It is a nice way to sit down instead of standing too long. However, sometimes I do get tired of working there and I do need a break from it once in a while. It helps when to do the alternatives.

It is getting late and I better get some sleep.

To the beach

We decided to go to beach since Colorado is too far and Okaholma would be too hot. Beach would be hot but at least it is windy and able to toldence better plus there will be nice and cold beach.

Right now, we are on the way to South. Reese is with us. However the cats stay home. We made sure we give a lot of water and foods. We had done that before with other cat that we used to have. I remember, my forst cat, Tom was sooo exciting about that because he would eat and eat. In fact, he ate almost the whole bag just for 3 nights. I can tell he was exciting. It is same with 2nd cat Tom-Tom. Now, Oreo would be his first time. We made sure we leave nice A/C and potty-pan for cats and have two seperate bedrooms so they have big rooms for themselves as well strenching post and the shade open 1/4th so they can peep window out and etc. That was our usual if we leave 3 to 4 days but not longer. If it is more than 4 days, we would put in cat boarding.

Well, I'm going to try have myself a shut eyes.

soft spot in my heart

I gotta tell this story...

There's a woman saw a boy. He seems like in panic and called, "Mommy!" as he look around and start running. Meanwhile, I didn't notice. I was busy working. That same woman came up to me, "excuse me?" I turned my head around. She said, "I think this boy might be lost." As she pointed to the running little boy. I started to ran up to try to catch him before I lose my sight of him. He turned right. My first thought was damned because he wasn't in my sight. I continued to run by the time I arrived I spotted same boy standing and crying. Two young guys who also worked there, happened to walk by the little boy. They both looked down and little boy looked up to them and crying. He told them, "I lost my mommy!" as he continued to cry. Two young workers seem to be akward and didn't know what to do. One guy pull up the radio and still uncertain what to say. (The situation seems to be opposite, normally, mother wld come up and mention lost child. They would know what to do. We, workers, informed what to do at early train.) The young guy asked the other young guy "what should I exactly says on radio?" Just a few seconds, the boy said out loud, "mommy!!" as he held two arms up and running toward to her. As I turned my head, I saw a mother had her hands on her waist. However, that didn't prevent that little boy wants to hold his mommy. The mother did picked him up and hold him. I was relieve that was taken care of it. I couldn't help it but that defintly tearjerker for me.

The same woman who spoke to me earlier about the boy seems lost had asked me if he did found his mother. Then she explained to me the sitution that she saw earlier. That's how it starts.

Soo adborable... Soo cute to see that at the ending. A child reunited with the mother.

knowledge is power II

Well, I hope writing this down help me to remind me for my own future. I'm sure that wqill also help other women out there.

The average woman spends 11 years out of workforce taking care of family (such as children and elderly parent) and leaving her without enough retirement money to take care of herself. Fact is women are still earning less than men do and live longer.

Ya know? I won't be surprised that deaf people earn less money, too. So that means I need to save even more than normal for retirement plans.

Ratatouille

It is name of cartoon movie. I finally had a chance to watch it. It is about a Rat that cooks. It is funny! But there is one more... It also making me hungry for grapes and cheese. So I know we had some. I went over to the kitchen. I found out we were out of cheese. I was soo disappointed. When I watch that movie it make me in the mood for fruits and cheese. Oh well, I made turkey sandwich and it was good.

I'm still working on Tues, Wed, and Thurs so far. So I'm enjoying while it last and same time, I've been catching up my errands. I'm so glad that I did. However, there is still more to do. Tomorrow, I have to go to audioloist in person to receive the letter for office of disablity. So I can have interpreter. I'm sincerely considering change audiolist(sp).

In meantime, my family, pets, and I are doing fine. We are doing our own errands and taking turns. We have been carefully with our gas and other things too. I do know it would not going to be easy with gas prices keep on increasing. Sometimes I help paying it, too.

I hope things will strighten out in future. Oh I almost forgotten. I'm considering not to vote any Democrats. Ironic, I'm more of Democrats myself.

Well, I better get going. It is getting late and I do have to get up early.

Keep on going and going and...

Yep, I finally got everything I needed but that adiologist for a note to approval that I need interpreter. My mom call for me, just to save gas but this time they didn't mail a letter. What an asshole!? I still haven't had a chance to go. We are saving money and gas. We couldn't afford. So, I have to wait until either this payday or next payday to go in person to get what I want. *sigh* How annoying that can be? The more I visit auiodolgist, the more I feel they are closed-minded!

I don't care. What really matters is that I need to get a letter that I need interpreter.

In meantime, I got lucky, so far I work Tues, Wed, and Thurs. I better go and get some sleep since I have to work tmw. I had hard time getting up today for work. I'm not use to work at 2pm since I usually work at 4pm.

knowledge is power...

The more you know, the better off you'll be. I was just watching Discovery Channel, and the show called Dr. G: Medical Examiner. There was 10 years old boy who died. What strike me interesting? Dr. G mention possible of choking game. I was like, "Choking Game?" I never heard that before but kids do play that game and that could lead to death. I was like, "wow!" It has been going on from generation to generation. Only 25% parents knew. Now that's low number. So I went to search engine and found this website. http://www.chokinggame.net/

Kids do that in school, bus, and playground.

It turn out it was choking game and it is accident death, not sucidial. Sad.

Off subject, I was lucky so far I'm off on weekends for past couple weeks. I'm taking advantage of going Deaf Happy Hour and eating good old mom's cooking meal. I don't think I wld ever get tried of it.

Since it is too hot outside for a walk even though she loves to do so. My parent and I were swimming in the pool. Reese was standing nearby the pool. I told her, "Come on." Quicky as she went down the steps and start swimming around the circle. She hopped back on steps and got out. She would run around the yard and sometimes run around the pool until she's half dry then she would stand nearby the pool and waiting for my permission. I said again, "come on." She would do the same. Sometimes when she got out the pool. I would encourage her to get back in. I would say, "Ready?" She barked. I continued, "get set!" Reese got excited as she got on the step and start on her swimming before I had a chance to say "Go!" I did that few times. She would swimming in circle and back on step and shake herself. She would run around all over again. I saw my parent got out of the pool so I join them.

After a while, Reese still roam around then I thought it is time to play ball. As I walk up to the ball, Reese got it before I had a chance. I don't know why but she likes me to chase her as she has a ball with her. However, I manage to get the ball couple times and play tug-o-war with her and throw a ball few times.

Later, my parent got in the pool so I dive in. I didn't go through the steps. I just go to diving board where's deep water is at. I continue to swim and Reese do her usual rontinue all over again. Finally, the sun is nearly gone down. We got out of the pool and sat on back poach as we wait for air dry and a towel that helps to remove our wetness.

I decided to play ball with Reese but she would not get up. She is too exhuasted. I was surprised that she's pooped out. Since I'm so use to her having bundle of energy. But I'm glad that she's having good time. Espeically when she's so sad every time I go to work.

Oh other day was raining, after the rain, the weather was cool. It was cool enough for a long walk. The moment I put tennis shoes on, Reese started to get exciting. She jumped up and down with barking. It has been quite a while since I took Reese out for a walk. I took a long walk then stop at the park. She lay down until she's cool off then we walk back home on cool day. It was really nice and cool and windy. It was just right.

Speaking of freedom, I'm free this weekend, again. Aahhhh just the way I liked it and I'm going to enjoy that for a while. I hope it wld take long time before they change schedule on me. (Of course, I dunno if they do or not but I would not be surprised.) Like I said, I'm going to enjoy it and take it the best of use.

Still Busy...

Yep, I've been busy as usual. I can think of many different things to say and yet my mind is blink at this moment.

Right now, I'm on lunch break. I've been working 3 to 4 days a week now. Sometimes more... But I make sure I limited for I do not want to miss my oppurnity like going to Deaf Happy Hour. Last week, I did went; however, there's a road block and there's no detour sign. I was disappointed. I really have no idea where is another way.

Oh, I also couldn't believe that this Sunday is Father's day. I haven't got anything for my dad. Mom have already told me that he needs new working shoes. Plus he has his favorite leather belt that is already worn out and even mention about taking to someplace like leather shop and have it sew up. Then I thought maybe buy him another one?

Oh I dunno if I mention this before... My dad's company had cancel the one month trip to Colorado and postpone next year. My parent did talk about trip there in our mini-vaction; however, it is too far. So, we may just go to Oklahoma. We plan to go to bookstore and find information about it. So that way we can make plans. For 4th July. Of course, we have to be careful with our money.

Well, my time is up.

same O' same O'...

Yep, nothing much new. Just been doing some errands and still working on gathering information that I need for college. Meanwhile, I'm planning on visiting two more colleges this summer one is farther but other should take at least an hour and half depend on traffic.

I'm still on brainstorming of which one do I prefer and feel comfortable and most of all better education.

Another good news, I finally have my schedule back. It is just 1 to 2 days a week but I do get call a week before if I want to work more hours and not in last minutes contact. Thank goodness for that. Now I'm back to able to continue to pay my bills and some left over money for fun and needs.

I couldn't wait for my payday time.

I also have been swimming in the pool since mid-May. The water is perfect! I enjoy my swimming and Reese did not hestitate to jump in pool for swimming. After she dipped in the pool, she would run around in back yard and run around the pool. When she's half dry then she would get in the pool and swim again. That's a good way for her excerise during hot weather. In the evening, I feel alittle chilly from that pool then I would take Reese for a walk.

Speaking of walk, I don't think I can go to park for a while since I heard the news that 2 men rape a women at late evening in park. Ugh, the city is growing, that's why it increase the crime rate. They haven't caught those 2 men. I might drag my dad to come with me. Or drag both of my parent. So it would be all 3 of us plus Reese.

Anyway, all is good so far.

interesting story

Well, to me it is interesting.

I read National Geographic mag once in a while. It is May 2003. What got my interest for centuries women in China wew forbidden to read or write in Jiangyong country came up with their own cryptic writing system known only to themselves. Living under strict by men and often arranged and absuvie marriages so they created Nu Shu, it means female writing as a way to communicate and help each other cope using poems, stories, songs and they sometimes sewn into textiles.

Reason why I'm interesting in this, it is about women who's struggle and they tends to find a way. It is same idea when women here in America did fight for rights to vote and work equal as men.

I'm impressed when women find a way to comfort and support to each other in their own creative way. As life in nature, animals, and human beings have find a way to surive. I've find stories more interesting espeically relate with women and deaf history. I enjoy more than America History because Civil War, Revountional war, WW 1 and 2 and black history are too common and it is always same old craps. However, I don't mind black women history. Just don't bring up war stuff. It is too boring for me.

Well, last time I heard High School, had no idea who's first president of USA back in 1990's, it is about 90% students have no idea who is Gergore Washington. I wonder about now?

I better go and do my errands...