Who did you sit with during lunch?

Mmmm In elementary, I have no choice, you go with your classroom sitting same lunch table. It is same for all other classes in lunchroom.

Middle School, my first year there, I decided to try-out cheerleader (which I realize it wasn’t really me but that time I was young and curious and absolutely no idea what kind of role model for that such as stuck up, better-than-you-are-attitude, popular, and etc.). I won the try-out and become a cheerleader. Does that surprise ya? Huh?

LOL. Like I said, I was young and native. Anyway, I didn’t care who I was sitting with at lunch times. Even I just want to sit by myself for a little while ( I needed a time-out time alone but never has a chance!) So, doesn’t matter where I sit, everybody who’s popular and cheerleader sit with me. So what’s a heck! I sit with non-popular people and popular people joined with me where I’m sitting. Hahahaha. They were puzzle about it but who cares! I talk with them. Hahaha, the non-popular seems so confuse about it. You should have seen their face expression. It is so funny! I’m telling ya. Oh, I even went to hang out with the nerdy-types but at first they seem to be skeptical about it. It is because most air-headed tends to give them hard time or play pranks on them. Others might try to take advantage of their intellect such as doing homework for you and etc. Once they get to know me, they warm up around me and be my friends. They realize I’m not the type of person who would be backstabber. I never had, anyway.

Truth is, I wasn’t really happy to be a cheerleader because of all the peer pressure by all the people expect me to be that I can’t. No matter what I try to tell them I’m not but their stereotype seems stuck with them. I felt like want to get out and I couldn’t scream even though I do have mouth and voice. Well, lucky, my parents and I are the way to move so I wasn’t really search hard enough to find a way to get out because I knew we are going to move and I kinda felt relieve. (What I meant was when I look back, I almost possible lead to attempt to commented suicide but haven’t get there to the point.)

Since we moved again, I made my choice not to join cheerleader but my mom encourage me to do that. I didn’t want to. I didn’t like it. I wasn’t happy about it, however; I did join the 4-H club and I am so glad that I did!! That is where I can be me without feeling peer pressure. I do not want to be popular ever again.

Boy, was I wrong? Ha! There’s a quarterback football player find me interesting and want to go out with me. Hahaha! I wasn’t even ask for that. Lucky, it was that time I was 8th grade so I know who I am much better where I can be somewhat nerdy as they already label me not as air-headed popular. Plus, I don’t feel the peer pressure that much. Meantime, I usually sit with smart people or deaf people. It doesn’t matter. I never sit with popular people since they seems to be too bitch-y types.

Again, we moved. Bye bye to such a CUTIE quarterback football guy. He’s really a good-looking guy. I’m not kidding. He has a nice meaty muscle and a little bit lean but not so bad. He has dirty-blond with hazel eyes and somewhat tanned. I’m sure he’s already found somebody during High School. It was fun while it last.

Off to moved in High School, I sit lunches with my 2 former best friends and some deafies and some hearies. Again, I don’t really sit with any popular people. I keep things simple and manage to keep myself invisible. More than half the students didn’t know that I do have the ability to talk. One time during the class we require standing and giving speech. Those deaf people do signs but I didn’t. I used my voice. So, they were surprised and said, “I didn’t know that she can talk!” one student in the classroom. They seemed very surprised by that. I usually keep it to myself. I don’t always share to everyone. Especially when I know those will be coming up to me how to sign this or how to sign that, there will be too many people. Too many attention! I don’t like to be center of attention. *wink*

Mmmm In Gallaudet, now that’s different. I sat with Hard of Hearings, deafies who grow up mainstream, or deaf institution. Doesn’t matter who. I sit with anybody but when it comes to my major. I tend to be invisible. I notice there are backstabbers everywhere. Oh by the way, not all are like that. It just that there can be misunderstanding or miscommunication. So I do not have to worry about it until my last year, they started to notice me more. I did ask one person did you ever hear anything negative about me. She sat there and realizes that there isn’t one. Haha. She said that she told me that she never notices me all those years that I was still around. Haha. I’m good. *wink*

Okay, me and my chatterbox, I better hush up and wrap up to go. *smile*
Oh, I almost forgot again. Mmm What's the quote of the day? "My happiness depends on me." ~Unknown~