Shocking Moment

I couldn’t believe of what I see. Behold, my ex, John, who has Narcissism Personality Disorder (NPD). He’s using online for date. I can’t believe that he added me to his favorite on his list. When I saw the picture of him, my heart went beating faster. I can’t believe it that he is still chasing me. He found my profile. He’s now paying member so he can contact and talk to every women. He’s the man who is a spider to try to lurk them in the web and stuck there for rest of her life with him. He just uses them.

Part of me really wants to destroy him the same way he tried to destroy me for who I am. I know I can’t do that. Somewhere, I read that if you tried to get revenge then it will turn back to you twice. I have no choice but to Let go and Let God. If it is God’s will so be it. Deep inside of me wants to warn many women that man is dangerous!! My heart is screaming for that. However, there’s nothing I can do about it. Sometimes in life, I have to let them learn for themselves. Other women may want to learn and others might be stuck with him and didn’t know it. There’s nothing I can do about that. I am not feeling sorry for that man. I feel sorry for the women who suffered the most.

It’s funny. Since I’ve learned about NPD, I can identify in my family member who has it, one of my uncle and my grandma. I’m not sure about others, yet.

Oh I almost forgotten, one guy I spoke to online, he also have NPD. It’s really amazing me just by asking specific questions but in a general way without seem attacking to him.



Anyway, since he had been oppressed me and I kind of lost my sarcastic for long time. Finally, it came back. That is who I am, too. Here’s my two interesting moments…

One day, I was with my parent, my mom suddenly said, “Oh, I have good news!”

I was like, “What?”

Mom sound excited, “I have your father’s permission…” I interrupt with puzzle in my face expression, “Since when do you need my dad’s permission?”

It’s true. Every time when my mom wants to buy or something and waiting for my dad’s permission; however, he never said anything but spend on his side. It pissed off my mom that my dad put her on hold and didn’t make any agreements and dad spend on whatever it is. So my mom grabs the credit card and spends on what she wants.

My mom laughed when I said that. Dad has different perspective about that. I wish you could see his face expression. He was frowning his forehead and puckers his lip. He wasn’t happy about my respond. My mom was too busy laughing and didn’t notice him.

Here’s the second story:

My parents were planning to make bbq pork ribs on that day. My mom asked me if I want veggie or turkey burger. I was like, “Are we going to have pork ribs?”

My mom replied, “Yeah, but it has all the fats and salts.” I was puzzle, “Are we going to throw them away?” My mom said, “NO!” I know my mom hated the idea to waste the food and money for that.

So I asked, “Whatcha going to do with them?” She said, “I don’t know.” I said, “Well then, we’re going to eat them.” My parent’s just laughed.


I wonder, should I write a book about my life and experiences?

I had forgotten to give the quote of the day: If women ran the world we wouldn't have wars, just intense negotations every 28 days. ~Robin Williams~ (Mmm does that make ya wonder?)