Well, accoeding to little girl who spoke to the neighbor and that neighbor spoke to my mom. This sweet girl said that the court had decided to make her parent into divorce. If they refuse, the court will take the kids away. Once they divorce, the kids will stay with her mom.
She also mention that her dad just beat her mom. She meant earlier, today. No wonder I saw her mother is trying to cover herself this afternoon. Not only that, her father did drove away I dunno if he had came back or not. It is truly sad.
Speaking of neighbor, there is several houses next to us, where the house is totally empty belongs to somebody from Calforina. It has been 3 years since my parent and I lived here. The lady did came to stop by doing some cleaning and check on the house.
Until few weeks ago, they put up a rental sign. However, it is not cheap. I'm the one who check that out. Guilt! I thought it wld be neat to live next to my parent. The price is 2,000 dollars a month and unilities are not included. Wow! Was first thought in my mind. Never mind that.
*sigh* I wish my boss's boss would give me more hours to work. Lately I'm off. I only work on weekends. Well, I'm free, today. However, I look at my schedule, it is still blank. They just call me in last minutes for those who doesn't show up for work.
Truth is, even my off days, I search and apply other job but so far, nothing. I realize, one friend of mine thru facebook. She mention that she still searching for a job. She had graduated same as my other friend. Lucky, my other friend had a job while she doesn't. It must be frustrated for her. She even mention about consdering start herself a business. I laughed when I read that. Don't we all??
I admit that I did had my manic depression. Mainly because I hate working there and sooo cheap pay, I barely can pay my own bills and pay my parent of what I owe. I'm completely broke at this point until next payday. However, I don't think it wld be enough. My mom convience me to take prozac (that was several months ago before Amy had died). I did take it everyday. Once in a while, I missed but I managed to keep it up.
Prozac is truly helpful. It helps me to keep on going and less cranky; however, I still hate my work. I'm just so disappointed when I couldn't find anything else espeically the pay hours are sooo cheap.
Speaking of business, I did took my time to read about it. First, are you good at organizing? Guilt, I'm not. Procancasting can cuase buisness go down. Again, I'm the guilt. Are you highly moviating? Yes, I am. I know my weakness. Could I overcome my weakness?? If I am determined enough, yes I can. Are you self-starter? I have no idea if I am.
Mmmm, I better go. I still have a lot to think about.
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