Update Knee and Toe

Hey, I didn't think I mention about my knee, did I??

Well, forgive me if I repeat.

It's been over a month without a threapy. What a cheap insurance! Anyway, thankfully, I remembed all those moves of what I taught how to do with my knee. Plus, the man gave me a copy of paper for the excerise to help me to remember. I've been follow instruction and I've been doing twice a week and sometimes 3 times a week focus on my knee for a month. WOW! My knee have been reducing the pain more and more. I've been using less knee brace until late at night. It is only about an hour left for me to leave when my knee start to hurt a little. And now, this pass week, my knee doesn't hurt anymore. It's more of 99.9% better. I do feel a slightly... very slightly, I almost didn't notice the pain. I'm pretty sure in next few more weeks, the pain in my knee would be gone. *smile*

However, about my toe.... What's weridest part? After the medication, it did reduce the numbness but the numb is still there even after the last medication is over. The worst numb in my toe is at night. Sometimes, it is soo annoying that I do have hard time to go to sleep.

I haven't had a chance to go to DR as I was planning to for few times but ended up something else. So, I'm hoping there is nothing pop up comes in my way, I will be able to stop by at DR. office this coming Thursday since I'm free this Thursday.

Ooooohhh, mom's flowers are doing fine. They're growing and growing. Mom did planted more flowers. She always enjoy showing off all of her flowers that she planted. I do enjoy listening to her when she kept talking about it and so exciting when the flowers are starting to blooming. My mom can be quite cute when she does that.

Hot Indurstry or Career Wasteland?

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Hot Industry or Career Wasteland?
by Peter Vogt



Today's red-hot, "I'm sure to get a job in it" industry can easily be tomorrow's deserted career wasteland. Ask any of the thousands of Americans who switched to the information technology field in the 1990s solely because it was the booming industry of the moment. "Have we learned nothing from the dot-com hallucination?" asks Bill Treasurer, author of Right Risk: 10 Powerful Principles for Taking Giant Leaps with Your Life and president of Giant Leap Consulting, an organizational development company in Decatur, Georgia. "Workers continue to hop on the bandwagon and head to the gold rush--only to find that the gold is done gone." When your primary reason for switching careers is to go where the money and opportunity seem to be at the time, "the dangers are high," he warns. Several of today's hot fields happen to be in health care--nursing, pharmacy, medical laboratory technology and radiology, for example. Maybe you're tempted to pursue one of those fields simply because it looks like a sure thing. But be careful: There's more than the job market to think about. Ask yourself these critical questions as well:Why is it hot? Will it stay hot?
It's possible a field is hot because there's an employee shortage stemming from high turnover, poor working conditions, or other ongoing, unresolved issues, says former career counselor Kenneth McGhee, a financial aid specialist at Northern Illinois University and author of Eleven Leadership Tips for Supervisors. You've got to think critically about how long the field will remain hot and why, says McGhee. "An example would be the trend toward training certified nursing assistants to do basic LPN, RN, respiratory therapist, physical therapist assistant, and occupational therapist assistant duties," says McGhee. "Short-term courses, usually at a local community college, are used for this purpose. If this continues, and with CNAs making less money per hour, how long will other health professions stay hot?"
What's necessary to succeed?
"If you're a technical writer and you decide to go into nursing, do you have the skills and desire to deal with doctors, patients, families, and a myriad of other health-care people on a daily basis?" asks William Schaffer, a career counselor in Silicon Valley and author of High-Tech Careers for Low-Tech People. "What if you're a highly skilled software engineer and your new job will require you to report to someone you consider to be your educational inferior? These problems can be licked, but you've got to be aware they exist up-front, especially before you spend time and money reeducating yourself."
What's the inside scoop?
It's one thing to simply read about a hot career, but you can't stop there if you want an accurate picture of it. You need inside information from people actually working in the industry. Who do you know who has succeeded in the field? What appeals to you about the work they do each day? "Have you booked a time to work with or shadow this person who is doing what you say you want to do?" asks John O'Connor, president of Career Pro, a career transition firm in Raleigh, North Carolina. "If this is a career/life decision, wouldn't it be worth taking one day out of your life before you invest your time into going for this career and making this big change?"
Be brutally honest
"If you enjoy working with people and don't mind a job that can be very stressful at times, well, then nursing is great," says Valerie Sejko, director of career services for the Hamden and Shelton campuses of New England Technical Institute in Connecticut, which offers a perioperative nursing training program. "But what if you dislike working with people? No matter how hot nursing is, you'll never be happy in it. And you'll probably be a really bad nurse, too." According to Barbara Moses, president of Toronto-based BBM Human Resource Consultants and author of What Next? The Complete Guide to Taking Control of Your Working Life, people trying to second-guess the job market are playing a futile game. "They'll never beat it, and they'll become unhappy in the process," she says.

Respectful from the website "Hot Indurstry or Career Wasteland?"

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Ya know, I do follow my heart my first goal was Marine Biologist. It's funny. My mom kept trying to pursude me to chase "What's hot in the Indurstry?" Several years ago, What was hot is "Computer Science" and now I notice that it wasn't there anymore. My mom did try to convince me to take Computer Science. It's funny, I did took one course just to satified my curiousity. And believe me, I don't understand one bit. Nothing, Zip, NaDA, Zero. Yes, I don't. I managed to do my homework that's what keep my grades good because when it comes to exam, I failed. I do mean I flucked down to 17%. Yes, I do not understand. I just follow the notes and teacher's presentation and type down the computer code words and VOLIA, I'm done. I asked the teacher what am I suppose to study. He said if you understand your homework then you'll be fine. I really am totally clueless.



I was very lucky to take a course back in University of North Carolina for Mairne Sciences Problems. I didn't really enjoy much. I do enjoy learning but it is too much physical work for me to can handle. I was truly exhausted. As worst than I'm working at my work. It just that where I work is most BORING! I really want something mental challenge than physical and boring job that do the same thing over and over. I realize, I needed more mental challenge than anything else in the world.



Question is what kind of mental challenge job out there? Other than Computer Sciences... I've tried to find thru search engine but ended up mention about mental jobs not good for aging people. Whoopie... Of course not... but not giving me the lists that I'm searching for. Maybe I'll talk to Career Counslor in college. They may give me the lists for that.



I even thought about maybe research scientist or something relate to science field. What's strike me is... ***copy and paste*** The research comes from the government-owned Training and Development Agency for Schools, which claims that science research and media jobs are also more boring than teaching. Respectfully from the website "IT is one of the 'most boring' jobs for graduates." ****end copy and paste***



Ya know what I was thinking? I remember I saw on tv once. There's a policeman who handle the traffic. He seems really enjoy doing that. He kept saying "hi" and giving the best acts and acting silling as he control the traffic. I bet there are someone out there said that it is most boring jobs. What really matters is that... He enjoy doing that. He have been doing that for few years. I think it is depend on people's personality and what's fits their career best for them. What's important is you know you enjoy doing this whatever job it is because it is who you are. It is important that to focus on something you know you would enjoy no matter if the money are good paid or not.



I wonder. What would I enjoy most?

Off today.

Sigh, I've been so busy for last few weeks. I didn't really have time to just sit and doing NOTHING. It is my most favorite thing in whole world. What's ironic. I started to get bored later on at night. OY! I got so use to being so busy. But truth is I was so exhausted. It was kinda nice to do nothing. Oh, I did took Reese for a walk. She's enjoying so much. As usual, it is her favorite thing in whole world.

I didn't really give myself a brisk walk that much. I just strolling around and finding space for Reese to sniff around the grass and trees and fences. I walk around nearby the creek. Letting her explore. There's a little brisk walk here and there but not much. It was kinda lazy walk.

Again, it was nice.

I have copies of application that I asked my dad to do that while he's at work. It's cheaper that way. So, now I can send 3 different colleges here in Texas. So, wait and see which one that accept me. If all does, I may go and give myself a tour to see which I feel comfortable or not.

Oh, speaking of sorority, I had a strange dream last night. I was talking to one of the sorority girl. She telling me about this sorority and how to get in. That's weird. I recieve a letter of invitation. Oh, her name is Reese but spell very different. I'm not sure it's more of double letters. It's funny. Every time I dream, I always tried to read but the words are not always so clear. I'm keep seeing doubles. It's almost like my eyes are crossed everytime I tried to read. I keep on struggling to try to read in my dreams. It never fail that those words are not so clear. Yet, why am I still struggling to read? I like to read and I want to read but sometimes my dream wouldn't let me. Hahahaha

That was it. I don't remember any more of the dreams.

Well, I finally bought book of stamps. I've been postcansting of buying stamps. Now, I can mail the applications.... and mail the card to my friend in Missiouri that I've been putting off, lately. I will have my chance sometimes this week.

Well, I'm going to work tomorrow and Wed. It's funny. I'm looking forward to go and yet, I'm not. I just don't really want to work 2nd shift anymore nor do I want to work on weekends.

Thankfully, I'm free full weekend this coming weekend. I'm so thrill. I know I needed that. My parents and I are planning to go to the park but a little farther from home. I heard that there's beautiful there. So, if the weather permit, we can go.

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Hello!

As I mention ealier there's another plans that I have... well, that still come to later. Sorry to leave ya in hang.

Anyway, good news, I bought myself a laptop and I hope to get it soon by next week or two. I didn't like my previous laptop. Lucky, it is only cost 200 dollars and it did last me several years. The screen is starting to fade away and many other things. It's very old laptop. I'm glad that it is very useful for a while especially when I was working on paperwork for school. In meantime, I'm just glad to bought a little bit better laptop and have better screen and it will have 2GB. If it is 4GB, it's cost over 2,000. Nah, I stick with a less price-y. At the same time, I'll know that it will last longer, too. I finally understand more about computer than I used to. So I'll know how to take good care of it.

Update about my "big toe", the medication did helped a lot; however, there's a slight numbness until the last day of the medication. After the medication, it get worst again. I still don't get it. I was planning on to go back to doctor but "one thing lead to another" so I didn't really had a chance. I'm hoping to go this Monday. In meantime, I will go to work this weekend.

Oh good news, I finished fill out the application. Now, I need to make copies for this Monday then afterward, I will mail out for the college and hoping to get accpeted. I really can't wait to go back this FALL. I admit that it will feels funny for me to go back to school, again. I just hope that I'll make it this time better than before. I reminded myself, one step at a time and do my best as I can.

Overall, my family (including pets) and I are doing okay. Mostly, we enjoy our beautiful weather lately. We spend mostly outside. Mom said that she feels like she's on a vaction. Dad's laying on Hammock. Mom and I are rocking the chair and watching beautiful scenery in our backyard. Sometimes, my mom joined with my dad to lay on the hammock. I just sitting in the chair and reading the novel. My parents chatting here and there and sometimes I join the converstation and other times I read.

Oooooooohhhhh... Don't forget... Next month, there is Mother's Day... and of course, my mom's birthday, too in May. I did bought couple things. I've thought about buying few more. Mmmm I wonder what?

Deep Dark Secret

Or shall I say skelton(s) in the closet...

Don't we all? It's funny. I always thought I have worst skelton in my closet. Turn out, it wasn't comparing by all my friends. Haha... Yeah, Ironic, isn't it?

I met one girl mention that she's 16 and have sex with someone else's who already have a wife.

I met another girl who was 14 years old got pregant and abortion.

I met another 10 years old girl who invovle gang life and do drugs. She's even witness murder at age 13 and never told a cop. What's sadden part? Her parents never knew that she's missing.

Turn out my skelton seems to shrink to the smallest as mustard seed. In fact, I don't remember what it was, anymore.

What's funny? I mention to my mom about me considering to join sorority. My mom told me to never mention any "skelton" in my closet because sorority is considering "perfection". And that chances there will be "rumor" and "backstabbing" and etc. I was thinking... what "skelton" do I have?" I thought that was very interesting of what my mom mention to me. I wonder. I won't be surprised that there will be "one or two bad apples" in the sorority as much I wouldn't be surprised in any groupie. That means I have to be careful who should I befriended with.

One thing is that, I never really liked "bitchy girls" I couldn't really get along with those girls. Like my mom said, their and mine personality will clash. It is a huge conflicts. We do not get along with each other.

Deep down, I know there will be a huge challenge for me. There is a new experiment that I would like to try it out to see what happens. If ya wonder what's "new experiment" that I would like to try. I'll tell ya...

Everytime, I meet not only bitchy-types but very jealously type. (well, usually, I haven't had a chance to meet those girls and they automatic hated me.). First thing, I notice the eyes and the face expersion. Well, the best way for me to show the example that I usually see that looks, it is very similar.

Did you ever watch the orginal Cinderella Disney movie? If so, you'll know what I'm talking about, watch that stepmother's face expersion when she heard Cinderella sings from the love song that she dance at the ball with the prince. That moment the face turn to jealously (possible hatred). The experiment, I would say in front of the people, "Correct me if I'm wrong, why do I notice the jealously face experssion in you?"

Deep down, I know my mom would tell me "Don't do that!" However, I never do anything about it. I've always said nothting and moved on while that bitchy continue to be bitchy and doing things behind my back.

Truth is, there are some people who are "darn" good at their face experssion and never showed it. There are some people who are good at hiding and I didn't notice. For example, I remember I was roommate with one hearing girl. I was saying something funny. She just strug like it was nothing and took off. I can see something is bothering her. I can see something is boiling inside of her. I approach to her and asked her what's wrong. She denial. That's my pet peeves! I explain to her what I notice that body language and it really shows. She was kinda surprised and didn't realize by her body language. So, she told me what's bothering her and etc. Afterward she's fine.

This one girl who I formally roommate with her. I never knew there's something bothering her and that she backstabbing about me with other "suite-mate" until she was starting to bother me. Such as, she promised her "suitemate" that she'll let her watch the her favorite tv show that she recording on Thursday night. I have my big test on Calculculas on Friday morning. I told her that I would like to go to bed early and to get up early because I notice I do better memory when I have enough sleep at night and study more in the morning. (If I had knew, I do have "right" to kicked the suitemate out because it is my right to do what I want in my room as well.) I told her, "I'm sorry but I'm asking you to postpone. Friday night... You can do anything you want. It's free. I'm willing to let "suitemate" to watch Friday morning if she wanna that badly." She lied, "okay."

So, I went to sleep for about couple hours later. The tv flashes woke me up. At the end, we agrue and agure. Ended up with ra group and etc, It was wasted of time. I found out there's a lot of things that bother her and never told me one thing about what's bother her and she did a damn good at cover it up.

Point is that, when I spoke up and I asked what's wrong? I spoke up, I asked what's bothering you. I spoke up to ask, "..how, what, why, when, and etc" They never say anything until I said something.

Now, I'm going to try a new experiment with the "bitchy" girls so going through college and learn more mistake along the way before I go into the real world might be a good idea. As this quote said.... (more comments below the pix)

By the way, yes, I've been to AZ once before I was about 6 years old. I have already visit Grand Canyon(sp). I somewhat remember but not everything. I just remember small things here and there. I was quite young. Beside, that was North AZ,... where's my dad is going is very South of AZ. It is close to Mexico. It would take about 20 minutes to Mexico. It's true about taking a nice different scernery. Oh, my mom still have a hope to go to beach at least one week vaction this summer. In another word, mom wants to buy swimsuits to be prepare for it weather or not we're going. Still, my guts said that wouldn't going to happen.

Beside, I've already made my plans to go to Atlanta this Sept on first weekend Labor Day Weekend. So, I don't know. Plus, I found out the school start before Sept 1st, also. I dunno when will AZ start on the day and when will it ends. So, I'm just going to have to wait and see about that.

And.... I do have another plan........... that will come to later........

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So, how's it going??

Well, good news is that I'm not working next week Saturday... I'm working this coming Saturday (It's next weekend that I'm not working, I dunno about Sunday.)

Meantime, I've been busy taking care of many different things. Today, I took Reese a bath. Afterward, I gave myself a nice long shower then walk with Reese. I came home and ate dinner then watch the movie. I didn't forget. I've been doing laundry, too.

I'm working tomorrow but free on Wed, Thurs, and Fri. That would give me more chances to do few more errands.

Seem like there isn't much to say?

Well, here's my poem that I wrote a few days ago.

"A Key to My Heart"

My heart is closed.

I locked my heart for I fear the pain again.

I have the key.

I choose not to throw the key away

because I do not want it to be found by a stranger.

I put the key in safe place.

When someone wants to enter my heart, a person will have to earn it to receive a key to my heart from me.

It is true that someone who really wants me have to earn my trust, love, and respect then I will give that person a key to my heart. Question is, "Will you give me the respect that I deserve?"

To go on travel or not to go on travel

Yeah, it's about going to AZ. Seem like there's a lot of going on and there's contract forms and everything postpone until possible Aug/Sept. Thing is that, I'm going back to college so I would not be able to go.

Speaking of travel, my parents kept talking about vaction and maybe going to Mexico. I didn't say anything in this blog for last about a few weeks because deep down I knew we will not be able to go. Turn out, I was right. We're not going to Mexico. Everytime, we make a plans, we are not going due to money, debts, crisis, and other reasons. It will bound to happen sooner or later. Granted, I am a little bit disappointed but again, I wasn't that disappointed because I've already expected that would happen. I would love to go to Mexico or any other beautiful places but sometimes in life, we just have to accept the fact we're not.

Part of me am glad that I have a chance to go on Florida few times during spring break. I am even grateful that I went on a cruise. Well, it wasn't deaf cruise that I went on. There is no deaf curise during my week off in spring break. Sad but true. At least, no matter what, I did went. I learned from the experiences and it is worth my while. I did went to Oregan last year (or was that year before that?) to visit my long best friend. I did visit Minn (with my former BF). Who knows? Maybe I'll grab my oppurunity(sp?) to go to Missouri, too. At least, I can go somewhere. Huh?

Look at the bright side, I was able to save my money, anyway. I already have my goals for some things that I would like to buy for.

In meantime, I'm just keep on working and working. And yes, I'm still considering to quit....... soon.... how soon?? I don't know, just soon. At least a few weeks before school start, or maybe more. It is depend. Beside, I've already requesting to cut down a bit of hours or working. So, that way, I am usually off 3 days a week and sometimes 4 days a week. Kinda on and off. It seems a lot easier than full time working. Full time does wearing me out.

Oh the good news, they're hiring and more workers, tonight. There are 2 new members in my group. I notice that it makes a lot easier there, tonight. I hope it will continue like that for a while. Please do! I do not feel so exhausted tonight. Just a little bit tired but not so exhausted. I'm kinda grateful for that plus I was able to come home a little early tonight. I hope it will continue more often for next couple months. **fingers crossing**

Well, that's all for now.

Tornado Warning and Mom's panic

Haha, yeah, I'm so glad that the worst part is over.

Before the worst part is over, I was sitting upstair and watching large size tv and eating dinner. Mom finished before I do and she went down stair. Mom came up and told me that I needed to go downstair ASAP becasue there's a storm-a-coming and possible tornado. Dreading by the facts, my fave tv shows are on TONIGHT! Yeah, it's Stargate time! Ugh, So, I went ahead and recording and pray to "mother's nature" please don't knock the power off. Please don't knock the power off. I went downstair and watching mini-tv weather news. I sat there and mom encourage me to get batteries and radio to put in the bathroom. So, I did. I even gather up couple towels and bathrobes. I quickly gave Reese dog food so she can have something to eat and take her outside for few moments. Somehow Reese knows the weather changed. She's being cautious and sniffing in the air. She walk around cautious as she toward to my house. She's knows somethings going on outside. It's dark and cloudy.

Meanwhile, I took Reese inside the bathroom and mom took T-T in the laundry room. Those 2 specical places have no windows and very little mirror. (Laundry room doesn't have mirror). Mom opened small window in the winery room. Mom can hear serin as well she can hear the tornado. Mom told me she had heard tornado sound before. It's sound like a strong and loud roaring and sound very much like train. I thought that was very interesting. Hailing cames in. Mom just jumped up and down and kept saying "listen, listen, listen." I was like... I can't understand the tv. Of course, my mom asked me to turn off the closed caption because it is blocking the view of warning different cities/counties. So, I just sat there and not really listening. Mom kept saying, "when I said, "go" and that means "go". No asking questions and etc. Just go to the bathroom." She said that quite a few times. I told her, "I got it!" Geez, mom!

Suddenly, mom heard siren sound and quicky grab me to the bathroom. Reese is already in the bathroom. Mom have her pillow and I have mine. I grab two towels. One for Reese and one for me. My mom have 2 robes next to her so I know she'll grab it when she needs it. Mom said there's a hail and siren sound. It was like 2 minutes. Time doesn't seem like forever. That was it. It's over... well, sorta. There's more a-coming according to weather but barely passing over us.

At the end, we saw full arch of rainbow. Yes from one side to other side. It's huge and very strongly clearly to see. It's beautiful. In fact, there's 2 rainbows, we watch until they fade away.

Finally, I was able to go upstair, missing the begining of Stargate but that's okay. At least, it is recording and thanks to Mother's Nature that didn't knock the power off. I was able to watch it and fast forward of those commericals. haha

Meanwhile, the medciation did pretty good. My toe seem a lot less numb. It's still there but not so badly as it used to be. *sigh* One thing is that I'm not looking forward to go to work tomorrow (Saturday).

Oh well, at least, I'm earning some money and like my mom mention that few times, it is something for me to do. She's right.

No Title this time...

Aaahh yes, I took my medication for my big toe. It helps very, very little. Werid. What else is new? There is 3 more days left for me to finished medication. I guess I just have to wait and see how's that going. I finally had a chance to catch up here and there while I am at home. Like I said before, doing the cleaning is a full-time job in the house. I realize you really can't work while cleaning unless you have off-days to do the cleaning which you rather enjoy your off-day and not do the cleaning because of working. Haha. Beside, I can clean and taking a longer break. That's nicest thing about it. Plus I can stop cleaning if my big toe is making worst on me. I don't have to put it up while I was at work. This Saturday, it's time for me to go back to work weather or not did the medication helps me. *sigh*

Ya know? I rather work elsewhere.

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Well, overall, there's no news and that means it is a good news.

Good Night.

Visit doctor

Yep, I decided to go to the doctor, today. Instead of going to work, (blah) I didn't wait that long in the waiting room. It took about 30 minutes (normally an hour or two) then to the doctor offices, I waited for 10 minutes (normally, it is 2 hours or more) after I spoke to the nurse. The doctor showed up. She use that "prink" thing-y. Seem like made of plastic-like needle. I asked first with a little hestation. She put it on my arm and now I know it wasn't a real needle and it is plastic and it bends very easily. Anyway, she asked me to close my eyes and tell her if I feel anything or not. I do feel it in all my small toes. My big toe, I can feel some area and some very little and some nothing. She even feels my pulse on my foot. Werid. It's like feeling paluse on a waist but instead she feels it on my foot. I guess she just testing to see if there's a blood flowing there.

She said that she will give me a medication and I will recieve bloodwork. Ugh, why does it have to be bloodwork? I didn't asked that; however, my face expression seem showing a lot with puzzle. Ya know? My faces and body languages are showing more than before... because no one never really notice or anything unless I spoke up. Werid. It's almost like they're reading my mind, yet, they're reading my body languages. Anyway, she explain about maybe it is the multi-vitamins that I take can cause the numbness in my toe. I told her that I didn't really take it everyday. I only take it whenever I can remember. She said that there's possible nothing but to excerise the pre-catiouns(sp?).

I was like, ooookay. I asked her about my work since my toe start real bad numb after couple of hours or less. She asked me if there's any other postion that I can work that doesn't have to be standing. Ha! At the store, there's no such thing for sitting. Anyway, I'm off just for few days. I notice my toe is a slightly better... maybe 5 %. However, it is better than working and killing my toe. I waited for bloodwork. Everything is quick and fast, today. I was kinda surprised by that. Normally, I don't leave like until dinnertime.

Afterward, I was dropping off the prescription and picked it up couple hours later. I discover it is steriod pills. Ugh, I don't like steriod. Gratefully, it is only 4 mg each pills. It is just taking 2 morning, 2 lunch, 2 afternoon, and 2 bedtime. Next day, there will be 1 morning, 1 lunch, 1 dinner, and 2 bedtime... and lists goes on up to 6 days. I'm kinda glad that it wasn't that strong. Plus, my mom told me that giving me a steriod is possible assume that might have some kind of infection in my toe. I was thinking... that's werid.

(how many times have I said werid? haha)

Anyway, *crossing fingers* I hope that will works. We'll see in next few days. Until then, I'm free this week until Saturday to go to back to work.

Reese is truly exciting having me at home. She plays with me as I lay on the couch longer than before. All I have to do is hold the ball and let her chew. Few times, I can get the ball out of her mouth when she's unexpected it. And just let her chase it. She'll come back do that some more. I even went outside for a little while. I play with her more to encourage her to use "potty" which she did. Meanwhile, my dad take out the trash. I did helped him out and Reese followed us. Afterward, we take all those newspapers out from the ground where my mom planted since it is going to be about 50's and day after tomorrow would be about 70's. I saw a couple walking on the street and Reese came down to the driveway and watch them. She didn't run over the street to meet them like she use to. She got the message that she can't go pass the front yard without our permission. I told her "good girl, come on." So, she did. She did very good and easy to train... and of course, smart.

We were watching a pretty good movie, tonight. Can you guess who's playing in it? Hehehe. My favorite actor, Micheal Shanks. He's truly impressive. I can see another different charater plays in that movie. There's nothing like the one he played "Lifeboat" which he also played 4 charaters in him and one out of four is a "bad guy". Well, I thought I would see similar bad guy in the movie, tonight. I was wrong. He played totally different in that one. Wow! The more I watch him playing different characters, the more I want to watch him to continue to play many more tv shows and/or movies. He's did fanastic job. Really fanastic! Again, he's impressive.

Okay, enough with mushy stuff. *grin*

Happy Easter!!

Yeah, I know, it's past mid-night. What can I say? I don't go to bed early, anymore. Beside, I work 2nd shift from 2pm to 10pm. Lucky, I wasn't working today. However, on Saturday, I worked until 12:30am. I was truly exhausted!!

So, since I worked 2nd shift so I sleep in late and went to bed late. So that means, I didn't get up about noon or 12:30. I go to bed about 2am to 3am.

So, I grow accusted for that because even though I'm free today. I can sleep in late but I woke up at 1pm. I'm use to get up around that time. Oh well.

We didn't really celebrate Easter since I'm too old. Hahaha. However, it is very nice and chilly this weekend. Sadly, I do not see any flurries lately but it's very cold. Well, the weatherman is wrong about the flurries but they're right about chilly. Since the house is kinda chilly, lately. I grab my chance to clean and vacuum my bedroom. Never UNDERESTIMATE the power of dust. The first vaccum was about 7inches. I dumped it out and put in a new one in. There's another 7 inches. I decided to vaccumed TWICE! OY! It is not just dust but lotsa of hairs. Possible mine and my doggie. Can ya believe that? I should vaccum more often.

I admit that it is not easy to do. Trying to clean plus working because cleaning a house is like a full-time job, too. Ya know? If I ever going to buy a house, I rather buy smaller. It is a lot easier to try to stay clean more often than a bigger house.

Meanwhile, I've been busy doing more laundry. Can ya believe that? Laundry is never ends. It's just keep on going and going and going and going and going... Like a pink enerized bunny. Ya know what?? I never realize that cleaning a house is really a WORK until now. Haha.. Okay...

Enough talk about cleaning... It's too depressing... Unless you're really enjoy cleaning.

Meanwhile, my family and I are doing okay. At work, it was okay. Sadly, it's my toe is still annoying. I try to see if I wear different shoes such as sandel, flip-flop, slipper, and without it. All day long my toe is still annoying. I sit, it fine for a little while then got worst. I got up. It's fine for a little while then it got worst. I lay down, it is fine for a little while then got worst. I still don't get it. I did looked up the internet. It said need to get a new shoes. That doesn't work because even without a pair of shoes doesn't work. My mom asked me is it the same place where's my "bad" knee is at? I said, "yep, it is on my right knee and so is my right toe." Werid. Huh? I told my mom that I'm going to doctor tmw. I'm not going to work. I may call and say that I'll be late but depend on the doctor says. I certain hope that there's a reversable.

Okay... OFF the Subject...

Ya know? I've been thinking on and off about dolphins? I notice dolphins swims counterclockwise in circle. I often wonders... do dolphins swim opposite direction down in South? Think about it... Northern part dolphins swim counterclockwise and Southern part dolphins swim clockwise. I often wonder does it have to do with magnetic field? We do have North pole and South pole. There's a magnetic in the core of the Earth showing North Magnetic and South Magnetic. Is it possible that those dolphins follows magnetic field or do they didn't realize what they're doing? They just follow by instincts? I wonder, like the "Berduma Triangle" know as possible mess up the direction by not know which direction is north, south, east, and west. Would that mess up the dolphins' direction, too? Or does dolphins able to sense it and avoid it?? So, I went to search web site and found this, "Neuroscience for kids"

Haha, I think it is funny. I just thought of that and I found the website that mention breif about megnetic fields. Ha. Hey, that's my idea. Oh well, someone else got it first before I did. Funny, it did mention about snakes might have their prefences, too. Or is it really affect by the megnetic field??

Mmmm I wonder how can I find this. I may go to library to ask for that. Predominance of clockwise swimming during rest in Southern Hemisphere dolphins. That would encourge my curiousity. *smile*

Well, good nite.

Updates

Well, I didn't go to see the Dr. One thing leads to another, I made a phone call that I assume that I wouldn't get the interview. BUZZ. Wrong, I got the interview. So, I went out to buy a new top and a haircut since my interview is next day.

Well, I discover that postion would be "knock-to-knock" the door alone after 8pm. I think not. Especially in the city like that, I dare not. The hour is from 2pm to 10pm. I may be willing if it is 2pm to 8pm. Maybe... but then again, I am not so comfortable with the idea of doing this by myself. Sometimes, I do understand a person and sometimes I don't. That's why at work, if I have hard time understanding what the person said, I tend to call someone who works there to help me out or that person will take it over. It is depend on the situation. So point is that, I don't think it is a good idea for me to do this alone.

Oh well, it is a good pay but at least, it is a good experience and learning experiences for me. I show up and funny thing is that he didn't ask questions... He just start descirbing the postion. I asked about ya know why not at the store have a tent set up and etc. Allowing people to come, he said that it is best effinicent way is door-to-door and have been doing that over 16 years. It is very interesting part. I was kinda disapointed that I turn it down.. It is ME that I the one who turn it down. How Ironic is that?? I mean I do want to involve but not that way. I really want to go for that and seem like I'm going to hire but I decline. Hahaha. Well, at least, I feel a little better to know that there's a chance. It may take long time but at least, I'm not giving up.

Meanwhile, my big toe is going on and off numb/tinkling feelings. I don't get it. Sadly, I'm working Monday, Tuesday, and Wed. That means I'm not able to go to Dr. until after Wed. *sigh* Whatever, I will do my best as I can. I remember one of the worker did call to make an appointment and she have during her work hours. She said that she didn't care. Maybe I should do the same, anyway. After all, my toe is more important. I know. It's funny. I'm making an exuse to not to go to work. Heck. I really don't care, either. Life is too short and I care about my legs and feet otherwise I wouldn't be able to use them If I don't take care of myself.

So, I'm still on a job hunt. I did saved my recent newspaper for the ads. Unfortauately, my mom use them. Hahaha. What I mean is that, this weekend is going to be flurries. Yes, there will be light snow. It is very chilly yesterday and today. I'm so glad that I didn't put away of my comforter, just yet. I just hang it over the bedrail for temporary. Smart. When I felt so freezing last night, I grab my thick comforter and it is sure warm me up. My mom said that she should have listen to her mom (my grandma). My grandma warned, "Never plant anything before Easter. It is always after Easter to start planting no matter where you live." My mom assumed that there wouldn't be fllurries and in Texas is always hot. Well, guess what, mom's wrong and grandma's right. Hahaha My mom already planted her blubs and it is 3 inches long already. The flurries will kill them. So, my mom grabbed all those newspaper that I bought a few since couple weeks ago and put them outside to cover all her bulbs. Poor mom. And Poor me. My mom grabbed my ads and put it outside. She said that she started not to because she saw my cell phone lay on the ads on the kitchen counter. However, she did it anyway. Grrrrrr.

Oh well, I can always buy another one for this weekend. I still think this is funny and unusual weekend for me.
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I've watch really good movie. Don't click on it if you haven't see it because it is major spoilers. "Black Diamond" Yes, Leo plays in that movie. Not bad. He did improve on his acting better than before. Personally, I didn't think he was great on Titantic.

What else is new? Mmmmm, oh, I loved my haircut! It is much better than before. I have suffer at least 4 different haircut that I truly hate the most!! This time I've enjoyed it so much. Finally!

What's going on?

Well, I didn't say anything because I was kinda hoping that "it" would go away. Haha. When I came home from Tuesday night at work. I was sitting and watching tv. As usual, I took off socks and shoes. After one hour of show, I pick them up and stand up. Suddenly I felt something funny in my big toe, not the little toes. That's weird. It felt numbs and tinkling. It feels like when you have a shot in your mouth from dentist. It feels the same way. So, I tried to shake it off, literally. Mmmm, It's not working. I'm trying to get the circulation flows in my big toe. I went downstair feeling tinkling and sharp pain everytime I walked down. I felt like I want to itch and I can't because I can't feel it. It's very numb. Any idea, what's the heck is that??

Meanwhile, I was getting ready to go to bed. I took my time to massage and rub my legs to my feet by trying to get the blood going to my big toe. Nothing works, It got worst. I tried to ingore since I was soo tired from work. I couldn't go to sleep. I feel like similar as "leg syndome" as you see on tv commerical. Geez, I came to my mom which she's already in bed. She usually not asleep. I approach to her. I wishper, "mom, are you awake?" She opened her eyes and looked at me. She didn't say anything then I went on explaining to her about my big toe and asking her, "Do you have any suggestion?" My mom did the same thing I did by rubing my leg downward to try to reach to my big toe. Nothing seems to be working. I assume maybe it had to do with shoes or a knee brace. Mom tried and she said try to see if I can go to sleep. It didn't work. Few hours later, I was so exhausted that I was able to fall asleep. The next morning, I still feel that numb and tinkling but it wasn't as bad as it was night before. I thought maybe it would be better later on tonight. However, it got worst. It is same thing as the night before. How annoying that it is? Extremely! I took a shower and rub my leg to my feet. I've tried everything I can but nothin works. I gave up and went to bed. I don't know how but I manage to find a comfortable position to go to sleep. This morning (yes, it is today), I felt a mild tinkling and numb. I was so hoping that it wouldn't get worst at work, however; it did. I request to leave a little early after closing. I was kinda glad to have that kind of exause because lately, I stayed until like 11:30pm to midnight. It is honest exause. Now, my big toe is still heavy on numb and tinkling. Lucky, I'm free tomorrow, I'm going to call dr to make an appointment on the same day which is tomorrow. By the way, it is my right big toe. Same spot where's my right knee is hurt few months ago. Weird. What's going on with my right leg and foot?
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My mom went to dentist, today. She had her teeth fixed. Somehow, she got overdose pain medience because my mom got "drunk-like" and doesn't compehend of what's going on. She got neasua (sick in stomach) and dizzy. Lucky, my dad came home early today because I was at work. My dad took my mom to ER. Doctor said that it was overdose medication but it's wearing off. They check her heart to make sure it is okay and draw some bloodwork. That's all. They came home. My dad went to bed after I came home from work. I stay and "babysitting" with my mom while he's in bed. I've keep my eye on her. She said that she thinks that she's okay and go ahead and go to bed. My mom asked me, if I'm still awake, I will come by to wake her up in next couple hours to make sure she's able to wake up. If not, then I have to call 911. She looks okay. I hope that she will going to be continue to be okay until next morning.

I'm so glad that I'm off tmw and Friday. Of course, I'm going to doctor which I do not like that but I rather that I do for the sake of my toe.

Complaining...and other things when I was a kid

I mention to my mom about considering quit where I work. My mom said that she wouldn't surprised since I've been complaining a lot. I've realized how true. I've been complaining here in the blog, too. I've been doing that quite often, huh? Seem like I wasn't really happy about it. So I did start searching through newspaper and through interenet. *sigh* It's funny. I've decided to apply "No exp require" However, everytime I made the called, it require to have certified. I was like, just "bleep" great!!

What's next? Whatever. Anyway, speaking of complaining, I need to find a another way to solve this situation. I did come up with couple of ideas. Now, I need to talk to my supervisor about it. If that doesn't work, I may contact to my VR and ask him about his advices. My friend suggestion file complaint. No offense, I prefer someone who knows what they are doing so that's why I'm going to contact VR about a few certain situations.

Such as, I am "the only one who's working here" as one of my co-worker said. My co-worker is right and half the time, I do feel like taking advantage. Others are talking while my boss told me that I'm slowing down and I need to speed up. Geez, boss, why can't you tell that to them!!

*sigh* Maybe some of my ideas that I can make some suggestions for I do not have to work with those people and able to work in the mornings and not 2nd shift.

If not, I'm going to contact with VR and talk about that. I was thinking I rather quit than file complient. Because there are few things that I would like to try out, first.

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What's next?

Well, over all my family and I are doing okay. Our pets are doing good.

I would like to mention about something. While I was working at the store, I notice some kids were complaining, whiny, and begging for toys. Some gave up and give some toys to them and some refusing and dragging them out. It is same with candies. I thought that was very interesting. I looked back and I remember, I don't recall myself doing what they are doing. Everytime I go to toy store, I just looked around and walked around. I grab something that capture my attention and put it back. I left the store. I didn't cry or upset. I asked my mom why I didn't behave like that when I see other kids did?? My mom told me it is because they keep reminding me, I can have toys only for birthdays and Christmas. I can't have them at anytime I want. It is only for Christmas and birthday. I suddenly remember, my mom usually said this, "If you be a good girl, maybe you'll get for your birthday." If I want that toy, "If you be a good girl, maybe santa claus will bring you for Christmas." Over and over and over and over, "No, we can't have them, now, wait until your birthday." If I tried to whine, "If you are not going to be a good girl, you will not get the toy." So, that's how, I didn't whine.

It's true. I didn't complain and whine at the toy store. I just love to look around and it's like waltzing in the fantasyland.

I also remembered that when my parents are moving. They're planning to buy me a small video game so I can play while in the car. It is to keep from me being bored. Plus, they did bought quite a lot of books, coloring books, cards and some puzzles. Anyway, I was so confusing about my parent is going to buy me a video game. I said, "it's not my birthday. It's not Christmas, yet." My parents tried to explain and yet, I do not understand. I keep on refusing to pick video game. Somehow, my parents picked it anyway. It's Hong Kong video game. Haha. I still remember how confusing I was that my parent is buying me a toy that wasn't on my birthday nor Christmas. At first, I kinda refuse to play but I saw my dad playing it then I start wanting to play. Haha. I couldn't believe that.

I thought that was very interesting part.

Here's another experience, I was quite young, too. I remembered, I decided to test on my parents. How do I do that? Okay, here it is, I asked my mom, "Can I have a cookie?". My mom said, "No, you can not have a cookie." I went to my dad, "Can I have a cookie?" My dad said, "of course." So I got it while mom didn't know. I asked my dad, "Can I go outside and play?" My dad said, "No, you can not." So, I went to my mom, "Can I go outside and play?" My mom said "yes, you can." I did experment to know who I can ask to that would say yes and know which one I should not ask if he/she would said no. Those are examples. I asked thousands different questions to both of them. I know which is which. One day, my dad fussed at me for doing something that I wasn't suppose to. I told dad, "mom said it is okay." My dad was confusing. So, my dad did approached. They did discuss about it. Later, I did the same thing. My mom fussed at me, "Dad said it is okay." My mom come up to my dad. They started to figure it out. So, they talked with me. They said, I can only ask "one question to one person" If the person said yes then I have to accept it. If a person say no, I have to accept it. That means I can't go to other person that had have already been asked first place. I said, "okay." Really, it's not a problem because I already figure it out who I should ask and who I shouldn't ask. Like I said, I get what I want by knowing that person would say yes while other doesn't. Heehee.

Kids will figure it out one way or another.

I do not remember what and how it has been said but I do remember the ending part. My mom and I agured. I said something that it is true. My mom said, "Don't be smart mouth with me, young lady!" I was like, I have no idea what's smart mouth, smark aceklic, and sarcastic really means. However, I said, "Smart mouth or not, it's the truth!" My said, "Awk! Go to your bedroom, now." I said with very upsetting because I did nothing wrong, "FINE! I have homework to do anyway. So, I'm going to my bedroom." My mom went, "Hump!" I walked off to my bedroom. I did start on my homework for about an hour or so. My mom came knocked on the door. I told my mom to go away. Truth is , I do not want to agrue because I already knew I was right. My mom was being stubborn. She still knocked on my door. My door is locked. Finally, I gave in and open the door, "What do you want?!" I was still unhappy the fact that I was in my bedroom for no reason. My mom said, "I want to apoloize." I stood there said, "Well, it's about time!" My mom said, "Take it easy, it is not easy for me to admit but at least I admit it." I do not understand why mom is having hard time to admit her mistake.

However, I do now. It took me a while but at least I finally understand.

Well, I guess that's enough for now.

I thought this is very interesting...

Be a Stealthy Job-Hunter
***Copy and Paste***Eight Tips for Finding a New Job While Keeping the One You Have
By Margaret Steen
The best time to look for a new job is while you still have a job: You have more leverage in negotiations with potential employers, not to mention a paycheck.
But that doesn't mean it's easy. You need to spread the word -- and your resume -- in a way that doesn't tip off your current employer. And you need to make sure you don't lose focus on your current job while you're searching.
Career and job-hunting experts offer eight tips for mounting a successful job search while still employed.
First, assess your risk. In some cases -- if you're working on a contract that is ending, for example -- it may not matter if your boss knows you're looking. But other times, letting it be known that you're looking for another job could cost you your current job.
"Based on that assessment, decide how you want to approach going about looking for another job," says Richard Martinez, a management consultant who is acting vice president of human resources at NanoAmp Solutions in Milpitas, California.

Be careful where you send or post you resume. "You'd be amazed at how many times companies find resumes of their employees on the Internet," Martinez says.
When you send out your resume, make sure you know who will receive it and what they plan to do with it. And if you have a blog, consider carefully whether you want the world to know about your unhappiness with your current job and how your search for a new one is going.
Choose your confidants carefully. Networking is one of the best ways to find a new job, but it involves talking to lots of people. If you're going to be frank about your desire for a new position, make sure the person you're telling can be discreet. You might even ask the person up front not to tell others without your permission.
Tone down your networking. It's a good idea to talk to as many people as possible about your search, but since you may not know all of them well enough to trust them with your secret, try to be subtle.
Ron Visconti, managing partner of the Peninsula Employment Group LLC in the San Francisco Bay Area, suggests using neutral phrasing that doesn't stress that you're looking for a job right now: "I'm always open to learning about new career opportunities."
Search from home. Give recruiters and potential employers your cell phone or home phone number and a personal email address. Never use your work computer or company-owned cell phone for your search.
"I had a client who lost a job because he made a call to a prospective employer on a company-issued cell phone," says James Elkins, owner of Career Planning Services in Scarborough, Maine.
Ask potential employers to keep your secret. Employers generally know to be careful when calling to check references at your current employer. But it doesn't hurt to emphasize this point. Elkins suggests including a line in your cover letter that says, "My employer is not aware of my interest in this position, so please keep my inquiry confidential."
Stay focused on your current job. Starting a job search means deciding you want to leave your current job. Once you've crossed that emotional line, it can be tough to keep putting in your best effort. But you should.
"You always want to be held in the highest respect by your superiors, subordinates, and peers," Martinez says. "The worst thing that can happen to you is you go up to your boss and say 'I quit,' and he smiles."
Next time, start networking before you want to leave. A strong network is "your insurance against unemployment," Visconti says. If you stay in touch with former colleagues and others who are active in your field, they'll be more likely to approach you next time a job is open. ***End of Copy and Paste***

Mmmm, that sure makes me wonder. Internet can be small world, sometimes. However, I do agree with one thing is search for another job while you have a job. I read somewhere that one guy mention that he quits and regret it that he did because it took him longer to find a job. So, it is wise to search while you have a job otherwise, there's a good chance that you'll lose home and fininically in debt whatever it is. It is safe to be safe than sorry.

Well, speaking of job hunt, I didn't really find anything. Oh I did join "ResumeRabbit" dot com. I highly recommend it DO NOT use it. It's not worth it as you think it is. Well, all my resmume is out. Haha, but since my parents plans to retire and sell the house and travel through RV. I might be somewhere in Texas so everything will be change and have to update. I dunno if I can update since ResumeRabbit doesn't allowed. Geez, because it is already posted and it's like newspaper, you can't change it. So WHATEVER. Now I know and it's worthless. Yep I wasted my money on that thing.

Meanwhile, I've been working almost every weekend. Weekends are the MOST busist time. It sure wear me out. Sadly, mother's nature didn't listen to me for this weekend for a rain. I can't go anywhere to enjoy a weekend, anymore. I feel like I have no life. Geez, I did tried to change schudale but still... my boss wouldn't let me. I'm still stuck on it. I'm attempting to have a month off by fill out the form. One problem, I can't "hide" because sometimes it can be small world and one of the workers that I possible bump into. They're know I'm here. *sigh* Sometimes, I do feel like I'm the "only" one who's working there. I know I've mention before but I do consider just heck with it and quit and wait to go back to school this fall.

Then again, I might as well stay there and continue to work for a few more months. I'm going to try my best to be patience and remind myself that time will go fast.

Speaking of school, I'm almost done with application and FASA (I know it is not right but close spelling). I'm planning on to finish up this Tuesday since I'm free this Tuesday.

Well, I better go and go to bed. I'm truly exhausted.

More Rain!

Oy! My friend Jennifer mention her friend's wife stuck in Dallas due to thunderstorm. Stuck in airport isn't a good thing, that's what I heard. Although, I didn't have that experience, yet. I hate the idea of cancel the flight because of weather. Of course, Safety comes first but still not exactly relaxing.

Anyway,it is a good news for me! More rain means less work. Thanks to Mother's Nature, she did gave me more rain yesterday. I was working yesterday. I came home early because it wasn't busy. *sigh* and not so tired. According to WeatherMan said will be raining tomorrow. Often times, weatherman is wrong but I sure hope not. Please Mother's Nature, rain more this weekend. That's including Sunday and Monday. I'm begging here. Like I mention before more rain means less work, not so many people willing to go out to shop on raining days. I'm willing to do the dance rain... *grin* Hahaha I know, that sound silly.

Anyway, My parents and I decided to go out a very nice dinner night. I dress very cute outfit. We went to that fancy restaurant nearby CheeseCake Factory. It just set it up about a month ago. Sadly, it is available at 9pm and it's 6pm when we arrived. We didn't want to wait. So instead, we went ahead and go to that...mmmmm, Eat-All-You-Can-Eat different kind of meats... Again, I was certainly pig-out! Yummy! It's been long time since I have steak, again. LOL. I ate more than my parents can eat. Haha I continue to eat while my parents just sat there and wait for me to get full. Afterward, we came home and watch a movie on tv called "A guy thing" It's cute movie. It's not so great but sweet.

Meanwhile, everything else are good.

Oh, a very good chance that my parents would not go to move to AZ. Whew!

Even though they are moving or not to move, I'm staying here in TX.


Your Hidden Power Is: Earthly

You are sort of childish yet brave. If you get pissed off you become a very strong fighter. You hate seeing the earth die and you use your special powers to save the earth from becoming hell. You are loved by many and hated by few but you only despise those that try and destroy your wonderful earth.

Gem Stone:Emerald Eye Color:Lime Green Hair Color:Brown with green on the bottom tips and it is shoulder length flipped out.

Quote:I tear my heart open. I sew my self shut. My weakness is that i care to much. And our scars remind us that the past is real. I tear my heart open just to feel.
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Raining!

Thanks to Mother's Nature! Thank You!! Yeah, I was so thrill about thunderstorm ealier, today. Also, it contiune to rain on and off (I'm guessing). I left with very light rain. I enter work. I can hear thunderstorm (with hearing aid). It was certain loud. One of the person works there ask me if I can feel it. I told her I can hear it. It's loud. She said yes it is. It has been doing that for a while. I'm so glad because I knew less costumer means less work. Less work means go home early once everything is done. YES! I came home early, today. *sigh* I do not feel so exhausted but tired... not exhausted. Thank goodness. I can rest and really do enjoy watching some tv shows. Now, here I am.

Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, make it rain more this weekend. It would sure help a-lot!

Sing-a song: "It's raining life! The forest is breathing and the fern are rejoycing. It's raining life."

Now, I feel more relax. I'm gettting a little sleepy.

I'm off tmw and Wedesnday. But I'm going back to same store to buy few things. I'm going to get them while they're on sale. *grin*

Meanwhile, I think my biological clock is starting to tick. Eeerrr. I'm single. Hahaha. Oh, I'm not going to get pregant. I rather adopt. That's me. For those who wants to get pregant, be my guest. I'm not. I refuse to get into that. *smile*

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I haven't finished with my application. I might do that once I recived my H.S. transcirpt. Oh, I've finally got my College transcirpt, too, today! It is also require. I got around to do it. My weakness is procastning but I'm doing much better than I use to be. I'm going to set my mind not to procastning once I go back to college, again.

OY! I never thought I would go back to school again. Well, one greatest thing about being single is to enjoy being single. Wink. Hahaha. Who knows? Maybe it's time for me to check out those cute guys there. In meantime, just enjoy life.

Luis concern about education

I was listening what Luis had to say about edcuation and compare the differences mainstreamed and deaf school. As I mention before, I have grew up oral and later learn SEE (Sigh Exact English). I pick up very little by little of ASL and I enter Gallaudet. I was so overwhalmed(sp?) with so much easier to commuicate as well learn more ASL.

As I mention before, I was lucky to move different places and I was able to learn many different teaching methods of what teachers had taught me that they think what's best for me. It's funny. I learn so much with many different method. Again (forgive me for repeat), I think it is depend on government, prinicipal, and supertendented prinicipal... and possible community.

Reason I say this is because one is I moved. I grew up mainstreamed. I went to preschool and it is private preschool for the deaf. It is excellent providing education because it is base on community. I learn a lot. I enter one elementary school. The edcuation was O.K. It was the teacher herself is abusive. Long story, somehow she got fired. Later, there's a new teacher came in. I could have swore, I see twins. Despite the fact they look sooo different. One have blond and other have black. One is taller and other is shorter. But everthing thier personality and behavior and the way they moved... exact the same. Truth is, it is the prinicipal should be fired. We moved. I went second elemtartry, the education SUCKS! Everything same, same, same, same, same, everyday. Same math problems, same reading problems, and etc. Over and over. Nothing new, nothing exciting... OY! I told my parents about it so we moved again.

I went to 3rd elemtartary, it was pretty good. It is a little bit challenging. I learn a lot. We moved again. 4th elemtartary, I learn more. The teacher notice my higher level is science and Soical Studies. (GOD! I HATE Social Studies and I have no idea why am I soo good at that? I find it sooo boring. I rather science.) So, the teacher put me higher level of Science and Soical Studies (still don't like Social Studies and whats ironic? I don't remember what's Social Studies, now. Haha) So this 4th elemtartry was so much better than the previous ones. I enter Middle School. Education was excellent.

We moved again, I enter 2nd Middle School. The education wasn't that good. It wasn't challenge. The 1st Middle School's education is better. I have more challenging there. Anyway, I did learn here and there. I acutally enjoy there. I think it is the environment.

We moved again. Lucky, I finished my 8th grade and able to move 9th grade in High School without interprut again in the middle of it. Meanwhile, the High School was O.K. The teacher didn't want me to go to learn different language. I remember I was depsitely wants to learn Spanish and French. I should have told my parents about that. They will agrue with them and get me into it. But what's done is done. Point is, the education was pretty good.

By the way, I did visit School for the Deaf in Calforina. It is well-known in Riverside. Calfornia school for the Deaf, I heard it is best school for the deaf. In fact during that that I was elemtartary, all the deaf people went to that deaf school instead of mainstream in Middle School. So, I want to go where they're going. My mom had a good point after I visit there. They are teaching deaf people "how to be costumer". In another word, they're teaching "metal retended" how to live in the world same way they are doing to deaf children at Deaf School. There isn't best education. So, I didn't went. I continue to mainstream.

My point is, it is depend on how do they teach and finicially (sp?). Sometimes, my parents have to push. Oh, before I enter 2nd middle school, there wasn't any deaf in mainstream in Middle School. All Deaf Children goes to Elementary, some are older enough to go to Middle School and some are older enough to go to High School. However, they are going to Elemtartry. My parents have to push REAL hard that my parents doesn't approve that. My parents wants me to go to Middle school and have deaf program there and High School including. Of course, they're upset because they want to keep money to themselves and not spend on delveloping deaf program in mainstream for Middle School and High School.

I remembered that &%^ teacher put me seprately from the deaf group. So, the deaf group rejecting me. Mainly because teachers (notice the plural) mad at my parents so they put it on me. I had have hard time fitting in. Deaf children are already clicked start from Elementary. So seeing teacher rejecting me so they rejecting me, too. Yeah, my mom saw that so she fussed at my teacher for doing that. But it was too late. The rest of the kids were rejecting me.

Now, come to think of it... It was my parents push real hard to get me a better education. Not the school..... Now, I know why they moved a lot... The real reason is finding better education for me. Children who recieved better education is from the parents who push it to make it happen.

Thanks Mom and Dad.

P.S. ASL is the key to improve the english. It's true. The research have proven that and I notice it that, too. I may not be excellent english but I used to be a lot worst. Not oral and not SEE can improve my english.

Hope that I give a good feedback for you, Luis. If you have any more questions, feel free to ask.

No Title this time...

Ya know? I admit that I'm in safe haven here at home with my parents. I've really do enjoy living with my parents. Yes, I admit that I'm in a comfort zone. At least, I finally get around to fill out of the appiclation for University (not going to mention where and this time it is not Gallaudet). There's a few things that I'm stuck on especially relate about tax. I never thought this is getting complicant more and more. I also found out that I have to have High School transcirpt. I never have to have it until now. I have no choice but to find my High School phone number and address. I did called to make sure it is the right H.S. first and find out how much does it cost for H.S. transcirpt. Fine me for 5 bucks, geez, nowadays, everything have to be money this and money that. What do you guys think? I'm not rich. Whatever. I already mail it and now I have to wait for transcirpt to comes in for next few weeks or so.

Reason why, I choice not to go to Gallaudet. I only have one class left and I do not want to waste my money to be full time student there, just for one #$%# class. I never been so pissed off in my whole life. I found out that I only have one class left as whole time I thought I was graudated (it's a long story.) I feel like what the heck wasted this #$%#$. What's done is done. What's important is for me to get that #$%# degree. In meantime, I discover that living in Texas more than one year, I get to go to University FREE because of my deafness and thanks to the government. So, again, I'm not going to waste more money on Gallaudet. Plus I already have high debt of student loan and I do not want to spend more on that craps. I have had enough. If I knew that student loan is bunches of B.S. I wouldn't have borrowed their money. They're like credit card. Geez!

So, after few weeks (or is it several weeks?) of consideration, I decided to be full time student at University. By the way, I finally have my courage to go there to visit by myself. It's a long drive alright. Sssshhhh don't tell my parents. *wink* Anyway, one thing I hate the most is the bridges, way too many. A few is so-so and one is good and none is best. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I never really comfortable driving up on the bridges. Unless it is flat, I'm good. This bridges are always rounded and... sorta like curve. I feel like I'm on a rollar coaster. In fact, I feel like my car would fall off the bridge. Yes, I know sound parainod(sp?). Like I said, I feel more comfortable of the bridge is flat and no curves. I toldenerance(sp) but I managed. Obvious, I do not like height. Anyway, I went there to explore alittle and lucky I decided to bring backpack so I can feel like being in the "pack" and not out of the loop there. Haha. Pretending to be a student and not a visitor. *g* It makes me feel a little better. I do not want tour guide. I rather check out for myself to see if I could ya know... to see if I'm feeling comfortable around. I explore around and found biology building and chemistry building. OY! It is sure a long walk. This University seems bigger than Gallaudet (or is it has been a while??). I did went inside the building and look around, too. I wrote down some names of the professor it is always show on the outside of the office. I look around hopefully to catch a glimpse some of the professors. I managed to saw a few as I walk by here and there (not just the office but classroom espeically if you pick the right timing when the class finished and to move on the new class like walk in the hall way around 1:52pm) It is best way to see them. So far, I think they are nice under my observation. After been experiences of meeting people and getting to know people, I'm starting to know weather or not they are good people by just by their charastic (sp? Means sorta like personality) faces. The way how they project themselves inside and out.

I feels funny for me to visit at University. It has been few years since I've been in school. I looked around. Surprisely, there are quite a lot of Asian people there. I heard that Asian people are quite intellenet people. I'm not sure if I wanna go for that. For some reason, that made me quite more nervous. Anyway, I just now realize something. So far, I don't see any Asian professors.... Weird. My main question is, can I handle that? Seem too high expectation for me...

*Sigh* There's something else pop in my mind. Maybe contact one of the biology advisor and ask to meet him/her to discuss more about classes and what they have and don't have. Maybe to find out what if I want to graduate at that Unversity and not Gallaudet? Would it give me a better chance to find job?? Or it doesn't really matter? Would that makes the differences or not?

What if I decided to stay a few more years? What if I decided to join sorinity(sp?)? I heard that join the greek society might give a better chance to find job because of connection and network. Someone could help you to find job because that person knows you and can give a better feedback. Plus able to involve activity shows that I can do teamwork and able to make commitments and hard worker. Mmmmm?? Once someone had mention to me, she said something like that, "I refuse to join because it is like "buying" friends." It's possible. I know someone who once join said that they seems very supportive on the outside while the inside it is not. There other person said that they are supportive inside and out. I think it has to do with what group is it and what kind of people are they inside that group. You have to pick the group wisely. I remember once when I use to involve Christians group this guy mention to me, "No matter where you are or what group you in (or what company you work in, I add this part), there's always two or three bad apples in the group." Nobody is perfect.

The thing is... I do not want to involve Christian anymore. So, what else is there a "group" other than Christian, A Greek Society?? I still would like to involve activity in a group. I realize I truly do enjoy doing that. However, I really do not like is lack of commuincation. I'm sure there's hearing people might have some sign language. However, there's limited. Plus, I finally know who am I so I don't feel under the pressure anymore of being somebody else that they expect me to be. I do not feel any burden heavy in my heart by trying to be "Christian" Crystal and not being "ME" Crystal. I feel that I'm being "ME" Crystal and as I mention before, I finally know who am I. Now, I do not have to be "Greek Society" Crystal. I'm Crystal who involve this "Greek Society" or "any names group" (ex: "Humane Society, and etc.") Maybe it might be wise to pick a group that something that I feel in common (not fit in but something that I feel relate with or something that I do believe in....

Let's go back what if I decided to stay few more years? Would I get tired of it? Would I feel burn out? Would I find my motive to stay? Will I find internship during the summer? Will I find internship is better than my previous internship?? Will I be able to continue or what? Well, one thing is that I still have one class left. If I do not want to continue few more years, then I can just transfer my class credit to Gallaudet and graudated from there. So, I think it would be wise if I just stay one semester as full time student and to test to see how I feel about staying in another year or so. To see if I have the motive to continue, to see if that is what I really want. To see if I am feeling comfortable about staying a little longer. After all, I'm getting older... Not younger.

Curious....Will I find a good guy there? Or would they be too young for me?? Mmmmm? Haha, I'm still mention about a guy... Who knows... any comments about my comments?

I'm back...

Yeah, yeah, yeah... I'm back.. obvious. *wink*

Okay, there is a song that capture my attention. Well, it is from my friend's CD... I try to give back but somehow lost contact since. So, I still have that CD. I decided to listen to it again. Like I said, there's a words that capture my attention. What's funny? I don't understand but something the music and the way she's sang capture my attention. So, I finally find my time to search for it and I found it. It is just first two paragraph that I really liked.


Laugh and Cry
Live and Die
Life is a dream. We are dreaming.


Day by Day
I find my way.
Search for the soul and the meaning


That's the only 2 paragraph that I liked the best. The rest I really don't care that much. However there's another paragraph that I do like it, too.


People run
Sun to sun
Caught in their lives ever flowing.


Here's the overall song: "Then You Look At Me"



Anyway, I really do like those words. I listen to it quite often.


Well this time, this will be a short blog.

I do agree with Mother Threasa(i'm not catholic) one thing of her quote. "If you want the world peace, start with your family."

Hello again!

aaahhhh yes, the previous blog as I mention one thing lead to another. I found quizlla and I was so hoping to land on Daniel. *sigh* isn't he dreamy? Heehee. You going need to forgive me for I will might be stuck on talking about Dr. Daniel Jackson from the stargate from almost every blog I write (or should I say type?) from time to time. Again, I'm so disappointed that DARN Sci-Fi channel choose to cancel the show... URG... so that means there will be last several espidode(sp?) starting April 13th (yes, it's Friday the 13th. I'm kinda glad that show wouldn't be showing any horror movies on Sci-Fi like showing "Pumpkinhead part 1, part 2, part 3... and I think part 4" and many other stupid horror movies when it comes to Friday the 13th.) . Afterward, there will be a movie to summize it all and possible not show on tv but will send release thru DVD. Geez.... Sci-Fi made a final decision what a load of craps. Did I mention this before?.... The first record on Guiness for longest sci-fi show is Stargate. Well, obvious it is been 10 years longer than Star Trek. No wonder why Stargate is soo popular. *grin* Oh well, sci-fi seems so desprate... because they add on "LIVE" westling (sp?) (means physical fight almost like boxing but use in weastling.) Anyway, since when Westling becomes a Science Fiction?? I'm going to say this again, "GEEZZZ"

Yeah, yeah, yeah, obvious, I'm in disappointed and complain again. Forgive me for repeat.

Okay, change subject.

Let me see... What else is new? Okay...

Let's talk about Reese, my doggie. My sweet baby girl...

Okay, other day my mom talk to me about Reese and my dad while I was away from work or someplace else. My dad came home from work in a grumpy mood. Reese sure knows how to butter up my dad (according to my mom as she watching and observing them). My dad told Reese, "quit it" in a grouchy old man tone of voice. Reese jumped down and lay down for a while. My dad sat down on the couch to watch some tv show. Few moments later, Reese jump up on the couch and try to get close to my dad. Again, my dad said in a grumpy tone of voice, "Go Away!" So, Reese jumped down and lay down for a little while. Few moments later, she jumped up and got real close to my dad's face. She knew that my dad doesn't like to be lick 'cuz he'll get grumpy again. So, she put her head on his shoulder. That melts my dad's heart and gave her attention by talking and petting her. Afterward, she jumped down on the floor and seems satified that she's able to butter up my dad. Sooo cute!

Here's another story... Reese knows the differences by what I wear shoes and pants (or short). She will know if I wear blue jeans or dress or skirt or different kind of nice pair of shoes that means I'm gone shopping and/or eat out dinner. She's not happy. Her tail doesn't wag as much.

If I'm planning to stay home all day, I would wear black slipper with pair of socks (or without depend on weather) and comfortable indoor pants on (or short depend on weather). She would sniff from my foot to leg then start wagging her tail and she got really exciting that I'm staying at home and ready to play and expecting to go out for a walk.

If I'm going to work, I would be wearing tan pants and brown comfortable working shoes. She would sniff and lay down and ingoring me. (I think she knows that I'm gone too long than I am going shopping and come home very shortly).

If I'm wearing an excerise pants with white tennis shoes, she would sniff and start wagging her tail and jumped on me. She get very exciting to know when to go for a walk. She would be barking and going to the door or going to where's the leash is at. She would run back and forth while I'm busy trying to put my shoes on and telling her, "Just a minute... give me a few minutes" or "be patient girl, I'm getting there. Give me some time."

So, there is a small confusion there since I'm going to physical theapy. I do put on my white pair of tennis shoes. She would be jumping up and down. I told her, "no" few times. She looked at me and then she lay down. Few moments later, I have keys in my hand and still wearing that tennis shoes. She came and sniff my shoes and sniff my keys then came to my mom. She did that few times. My mom said, "I know, I know what you want. You want to go for a walk." Reese barked and got a little exciting. My mom quickly said, "No. No walk. She's going Bye-bye." She stop jumping up and down and looked at my mom with her head tilted. Again, my mom repeat of what she said, "....Crystal is going bye bye." as she wave her hands to Reese and talk to her like a little girl. Reese moved her eyebrows and her head tilted other side. Finally, she lay down and look at me and look at my mommy. She doesn't understand why I'm leaving without her and that I'm going to excerise but she understand that I'm leaving without her.

My mom said that Reese's remind her of me. When I was a little girl, I was so furstrated when I try to say something that none of the adult can understand what I was trying to say. My mom can see that very similar in Reese. She wants to talk and yet she can't. It is very furstrated for her. So my mom speak "her language" for her so she would understand what's going on.

Speaking of bye-bye, I always say good bye to my parents before I leave to work or elseplace. Reese took it very personal when I didn't say good bye to her. She wasn't happy and she barely move around. My mom told me about that so I told Reese "bye bye" before I leave. My mom said that it makes a big differences. She's happy and she was looking out the window and just waiting for me to come home. So, she knows what "bye-bye" is.

More stories to tell in the future. (Reese chewing her bone.)

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