Finally!

Here I am. I know. My dad stayed in AZ a little longer than expected. Something had happened. It's a looonnng story. At least, he's made back home.

Sadly, we wouldn't be able to go to AZ until June or so. ARGH!!

Oh well... Life goes on... We're still going. At least the company is paying the cabin, so that way we can cut off the elertric and water for a month at home here in TX to save some of the money at least. It will be extremely hot like last year. Something that I'm not looking forward to. At least, I'm working at the store where's nice A/C there.

I'm still working on second shift lately. I just fill out for morning shift and would start on April 9th. *crossing fingers* hoping to get that approval. I do not want to work late at night anymore as much as I do not want to work too early in the morning. I'll pick morning instead of night because I have to stay to finish whatever it is that I'm stuck on it so I still come home too late. Beside, I want to get in the habit of eating 3 meals a day... morning, lunch, and dinner. I have been eating lunch and dinner then late dinner. It's not good for me to eat late dinner then go to bed. That would make me gain weight. That's why I want to stick to the same rotinue and after eat dinner, I will take Reese out to walk. That way it would be easier for me to lose more weight. My weight is still the same. I'm losing but not as much. So, I want to change around so I can focus more to lose weight by follow the schudule. I can't walk outside at midnight when I come home. It's too dangerous. That's why I rather walk in evening after dinner while still have some daylight. Oh, other reason why I don't want to work late at night is because I never know when to leave because almost no one tells me it's time to go. It makes me uncomfortable to be the last person to leave from the parking-a-lot. Again, it's dangerous. That's why. The minors (those who are under 18) get lucky to leave at 9:45pm it is require by law. Non-minors require to stay until finish. NO FAIR! Hahaha... Yeah lucky them (minors).

Anyway, my parents and I are doing fine and so are our pets. They are doing okay.

But one car isn't that good. OY!! I drive my mom's car and.... Ummmm, I cut to short to the right and hit against the cornor of the wall at home... yes it is my parent's house. It show a little stranch(sp?) on the passenger's door at the right side of the car at the backseat of the car (it's 4 doors car). Just a small one. At least, I think so but still. It's not good. My mom found out and start fussing at me. SAVE YOUR money and get JUNK car soon! OY! I was so hoping to buy my new computer guess I have to change on my wish list to put car on top of my list, now.

Here's the funny part, a few days later, my mom did exact what I did but WORST. Hahaha. She speed up and cut too fast than I do. She stranch(sp?) it real bad same door where I did. But this time the car is stuck. My mom can't go forward or backward so it stuck there. I can't get out so I got out the driver's side. Few moments later, my mom is able to figure it out and finally able to move the car out of the way. It was worst than mine. Now, is it still my fault? Hahahaha. Look like I'm not the only one who make the same mistake here. Pppfftttt at my mom. My mom said, "aaaa Shut Up!" obvious she wouldn't admit this time. Heehee. So, is there a chance for me to buy a computer. I didn't really say it but I can hear my mom said don't push your luck in my mind. Hahahaha

What else is new? Well....I will post it next time. My mind is drawing blank, right now.

OH!! My good friend from Missiouri just had a baby boy about couple weeks ago. Crongrats to new mommy and daddy!! I bet he's adorable. I hope to get to see him soon. *Smile*

Hello!

Yeah I know. What a weird way of saying this in introduction? Well, it's still February. The love is in the air. No matter when or where.

Here's another reason, it's going to be quite a while before I ever get on the computer unless I go to Library but very good chance that I may not have the time. I have been using my father's computer instead of mine. Mine isn't working. No matter how much I tried. Nothing seems to work. I asked couple friends of mine of what their suggestions and yet nothing seems to work. I might have to send to the computer doctor to get it fix but I haven't get around to it. I want to straighten things out in my computer before I ever send to the computer doctor. I hated the idea to send to a stranger to fix my computer espeically they may lied. Maybe having the lack of computer might push me a little bit farther.

Overall, my family and our pets are doing fine. I'm doing good. My right knee gotten hurt real bad back again. There will be pysical thearpy this Wedensday and lucky, it's 3pm so that gave me a chance to sleep in a little bit and get myself a penty of rest before I go. I hope this will work for me. My mom thinks the physical therapy might just focus on one knee. Well, I would feel funny if that does. It wouldn't feel right. Ya know? I sure hope not.

Anything new so far? My parents had decided not to have my best friend to come to live with us mainly because my parents are getting too old and they rather have their own old fashion way by sticking to same old routine that they are familar with. I don't blame them.

Meantime, I'm having long time discussing with one good friend of mine about my weakness. I'm having hard time to go out and social. Yeah, I make up an exuses that I do not know the roads and being uncomfortable going out there in long distance drives. Here in Texas is really complicated. Guilt as charged. Time to force myself to get out. It is only way for me to learn around here is to go out. I can't learn my way around if I'm not going out. I can't soical if I'm not willing to force myself to go out and do whatever it is.

There's this quote from Drew Berrymore (funny, I didn't really like her much but I do like her statement): "I don't expect things to come to me: I go out there and create them for myself."

That means I have to go out and learn. I wouldn't learn my way around if I'm sitting around here. Only way for me to learn is to get lost. Hahahaha. Sometimes in life can be good thing to get lost even we are not on the road. Life can be unexpected but good if we are willing to learn and willing to try.

Anyway, I wouldn't be on computer for nearly two weeks or possible more. See ya later!

No title ....

I tried to type this other day and somehow the power went off so is the interenet. What's really bugging me is that this blogger doesn't have auto-saved. That means I have to type over again. However, I forgotten what did I previous typed that was couple days ago. Don't expect me to remember. Haha.

Oh well, I would like to remember but there's so much going on lately around here. And so much info of what's going on, too.

So, how is it going for you? Everything is doing good. I can't wait for beautiful weather. I heard that theye will be next week and I happen to be only work one day of that week, too. So, there's a good chance for me able to enjoy. Also, for me to give my doggie a bath.

Speaking of a bath, I saw a funniest video and it's so cute... There's a young baby who sitting in the high chair. There's a food all over on his cheeks, nose, and hands. The woman who video him and said, "Oh no, you looks so dirty." The baby's eyes wided and said, "A bath... A bath...A bath..." as the baby nodding and moving hands up and down. "A bath.... A bath... A bath..." So cute. Look like that baby really likes to take a bath. Hahahaha.

Oh, there's another news... my best friend from other state had asked to move in with us. She needs a place where she can get back to her feet and needs a support. My parents and I were discussing about that. I would love for her to come but same time it is a big adjustment for us. Like I said we are still discussing and trying to decide weather or not should we invite her. Possible 90% sure. However, I want to take time to think it over the weekend. Also, give the time for my parents. Since, we grow accustomed that it was just "3 of us", my parents and I.

So, like I said big adjustment for us but it is also for her, too. It would be big adjustment for her. She might be trying not to walk on eggshell on us. LOL since she is new to our ways of doing things. So, wait and see over the weekend...

What else is new? I'm waiting on physical threapy. I'm not sure if I mention this before or was that message had been deleted as I tried to type before but forgive me if this is repeating.

What's ridculuas is that even though there's MRI had been proven that there's something wrong with my knee, the insurance still required elevluation. Right now, we are still wating for accepting for me to continue to do the pysical threapy twice a week according to doctor's note. I haven't hear from physical threapy for nearly a week. Seem like I have to make a phone calls. Ugh.

Oh, I stumbled up and find a news thru this. I make $6.50 an hour. Am I poor?

Guess we're not alone in this. Huh? Sad. I think for adults should make 12 dollars an hour for teenager should be 6.50 an hour. *sigh* No matter what job it is but require for 12 dollars for all companies for that certain age. But then again, would the companies start refuse to hire because of that? Mmmmm? And hire somebody who less age so can pay less? Who knows?

Ohhh I remember... Happy Valentine's Day. Yeah, it's belated. However, it was on that day I was typing "Happy Valentine's Day" that same day where's the power went off. It was about 10 minutes then came back. Anyway, Valentine's doesn't have to focus only for couple. Singles can celebrating! In fact, I bought card for my parents saying that I know that they do love me and it shows and that they always there for me when I needed. And I love them back with Happy Valentine's Day.

*sigh*

I've been taking a deep breath and sigh few times. I'm exhausted! Past several weeks, I've been working from 5pm to closed. Today was the first day I was working since 2pm until closed. I'm so glad it's over. Now, I have this week off until Sunday.

Ya know? this same girl from last year, she was the first who had the flu before anybody else. This same girl who been buying and eating candies all day long at work. She must have high methblisom(sp?) 'cause she's that thin! So thin that she can wear a little girls outfits. Yeah, that thin and she's almost tall as I am. OY! I couldn't believe it! She's lucky. I'm envy of her. One thing that's I find it so annoying is that she doesn't eat healthy food. That's why she get sick easily. Right now, look like she had another cold/flu. She had been coughing, sneezing, and blowing her nose all day. I was thinking... #$%$#* Just great! Just fancastic! Please God, don't let me get sick. I told my mom to stay away from me. She asked why and I just explained about the situation. My mom said that according to tv news there were so many flu in school this year. Oh no! that's the first thing comes to my mind. My mom said give it about 3 days to see how I'm doing. OY! I'm not looking forward. Please don't! I hate getting sick again. I don't want to get sick again. It's not a good thing.

*sigh* I guess I'll wait and see. I'll set my mind to not to get sick. "I will not get sick. I will not get sick. I will not get sick. I will not get sick. I will not get sick. Over and over and over and over again... for the next 3 days.

Well, there's nothing new so far. Everything is good here. Oh, it's almost Valentine's Day. Well, I may be single but there's a way to celebrate Valentine's Day. It doesn't have to have a partner to celebrate a Valentine's Day. Ya know? I even thought about buying Valentine's Day card for my parents. Just my way of saying that I do love them and I cherish them and very lucky daugther to have such a wonderful parents. They may not be perfect but their love is.

female bodyguard and female histroy

Yep, there are some females bodyguard. I just watch one on tv channel few days ago. I was surprised to see there were females bodyguard. I was glad to see that. There's always male. This woman who is bodyguard mention that sometimes it is nice to be with someone who is female and shop with you and can go to public bathroom for protection while males can't. She said that it pays good money but it can be very stressful. She looks normal. She doesn't look like she's a bodyguard. While males are easily obvious that there are bodyguard. They looks soo serious. While she doesn't looks so serious. It shows a lot of other females and mention it is best if you had previous working in police forces or any military so you have already had been training and experiences.

Now that's cool! I was hoping there is one for female bodyguards and it is. I'm glad that the tv shows that. It shows that every female still have the oppurnity to have their own dreams.

I decided to explore a bit about female bodyguard thru interenet. I couldn't find here in USA but I found one in Russia. What's interesting me the most is that women have better effiencgy than men is that they are good at "peace talk" than get into fight. I kinda agree since men tends to get into pysical fights long time ago even during biblical times. There's always wars. Men are the leaders and tend to get into physical. Also, what's sad part is that they do not get the same paid as the men in Russia. Even though they have same professional trains and etc but they do not have the same respects.

Oh what's interesting the most is that, in china, they do have some female bodyguards in the past. Now that's cool. What's cool is that Mulan is real woman who did join the fights and stay to give guidance to the king after the war.

Oh, did you ever read histroy about Debroah Simpson? She is a woman who a bit bulker than most women and she's taller as a men. When the revoulunatry war starts, she wants to join. So, she had a guy friend to teach her how to walk, dress, and talk like a man. So, she wants to see if she can pass her test by meet her mom. Her mom didn't reconize her. So she passed the test as a man. So, she joined to fight the battle. Rumor was that she got shoot in her leg and she took it off by herself. Later, she got shot in her chest so that's how the doctors found out that she's a woman so the military gave an honorable discharge without getting paid.

Later, she got married and had kids. They couldn't afford so she travels and gave speech of her experience. It is only way for her to earn money until she couldn't travel anymore. There's a man next door. A man's name is Paul Renve(sp?) know as "Red coats are a-comin!" as running down to wake all the neighborhoods. Anyway, he wrote letter to congressmen about her. So the congressmen decided to give monthly payment for 4 dollars. (that is possible 4 thousand dollar or more worth nowadays.)

I truly admire many women who has guts to do things like that.

Here's another most interesting part that I like the best. I couldn't remember the name but I've been searching for her. It's during Civil War. There's a woman who isn't try to act like a man nor is she dress like one. She was wearing a normal dress and join the fights. She did the cannon and etc. Now that's even more impressed.

Cinderella

The orgininal(sp?) Cinderella is always been my all-times favorite movie. Yep, I'm sucker for Disney movies as I mention before.

I did saw preview for Cinderella 2 and I didn't care that much for it. Someone I once knew owned one of that movie. She said it was great... blah blah blah... She let me watch it so I did. I didn't like it. It wasn't that great. Doesn't seem much of the orginial(sp?); however, I did like Bambi part 2, now that was very good. It is very close to the orginial characters. I'm glad that I didn't bought it.

Now there's Cinderella 3... I observed few times and I think it would be pretty good as the way I observed for Bambi 2. I do have pretty good judgement as I watch the preview. I tend to pick out the very good movies while my parents tend to pick out the worst ones. So, they usually let me picked it. So, I think it would be worth to buy. So I did. Tonight I watch it. Yep, it was pretty good. I like it. It wasn't that fantastic as Bambi 2 but it was good.

Meanwhile, I did bought Flicka. I remember seeing "My Friend Flicka" few times. So I already knew it is similar so I don't mind buying it. It is good one, too. I cried. I'm sucker any good movies that make me cry. *grin* It's worth it.

Oh, I went to Physcial Threapy. It was just for elevluation and measurements. That's all because that STUPID insurance said so. Geez, if MRI isn't proven enough then it has to be elevuation. How ridculuas is that? That was it. Now, I have to wait for the approval to continue to have physical threapy two times a week. OY!! Oh, doctors said my knee isn't swellown and my mom said it is. Turn out that thru the measurement, it is still swollen. She suggestion to put some ice pack... Well, I haven't start on that, yet. I needed to do that, huh? I've been using heat. Isn't that why it's swollen? I didn't think about asking. I was too sleepy since I had to get up early in the morning. What's worst? I even have cramps in my lower stomach (if ya catch my meaning?) Part of me glad that it didn't start the physical workout this morning.

Afterward, my mom and I went to the Mall until I get so sleepy and tired. My eyes were heavy. I told my mom I want to go home. So we did. I went straight to bed and knocked out. I barely can feel Reese. She wants to play. She stand over me and looked at me until I fell asleep and I have no idea what she's doing next. I was so exhausted. Few hours later, my dad woke me up so we went out to eat dinner. Now I'm wide awake and couldn't go back to sleep tonite. Haha. Guess I took a little too long nap. Lucky, my work tomorrow wouldn't start until 5pm so I can sleep in a little bit longer. Sadly, my work start at 2pm this Sunday. OY! But at least it is Sunday and the store closed one hour early. *fingers crossing* I hope there isn't inspector on Sunday night because if it does then we have to stay longer. BLAH! Wait and See.

What's even best? I'm free all week after Sunday. Monday all the way to Saturday. Now, I dunno about next Sunday. I will find out sometimes this Thursday or Friday. I wonder what's the weather is like? Can ya believe this? Mother's Nature must be hating me lately. Because everytime I am off from work the weather is sooo COLD up to 30 degree is the highest. When I'm working the weather is never been so beautiful and weather is nicely 70 degree. Geezz, thanks-a-lot to Mother's Nature. It's not a good timing. *frown*

I'm hoping for the weather is better when I'm off so I can take Reese out to the park. I know she'll love it!

One of my friend left a quote, "Love needs hope, trust, faith, respect, communication, love, and passion in order to survive... without ONE of those, the fire of love will go out and never be started again. ~Author unknown.

How true is that?! Once my ex didn't show any respect to me that's how I no longer loved him. It was truly gone forever and will never came back. I admit that I did try to "earn the love back" but I realize that he had destory literally.

I like that quote.

Butterflies

Ever had your unusual experience? Or something that unexpected had happened?

I remember when I was invitied by my friend when I was a kid to go to Disneyland for her birthday. Once, we went to nearby the castle where's the waterwell. That's popular place where Snow White is at "I'm wishing" song. There flowers overflowing on the walls and the bridge. There's a shallow fake river but real water with fake blue color. It's still beatiful when you see flowers and most of all lots and lots of different kind of butterflies flying around.

As we approach closer to the "wishing well", my friend and I throw couple of pennies to "make a wish". What's strange is that? I haven't decided what wish do I want instead I decided to wait before I make my decision. So, I went ahead and throw and make a wish later.

We went off and chasing buttflies a bit. Then I said to my friend, "I am going to stand here and stick my hand out then let the butterfly landed on my hand." My friend had her doubts that it would happen. Just a few seconds, I made my wish then the WHITE butterfly landed on my hand. She and her parents were surprised to see that as much I was surprised, too. It was wonderful experience for me. It was my most happy moments.

Here's another butterfly story....

Few years later, I asked my mom if it was okay for me to cut some roses that already blooming in our yard. There were pink and yellow rosebushes. My mom handled me the gloves for protecting and warning me to be careful because of thorns. I wanted to gather them to put in vase in the house. As I walked back and forth and I spotted something unusual on the door. I tried to figure it out and I couldn't. I yelled for my dad to come. He did. He came up to the door and I asked him, "What's this?" My dad looked at it and said I don't know. The color looks similar as the door but something else seem like some kind of 3-D. Something that seems popping out of the door. My dad went ahead and touch it. Turn out it was a butterfly had already came out of the cacocoon(sp). So, I brought the butterfly in and put where the roses are at. Few hours later, there's a heavy rain outside and the butterfly flew and "whacked" on the window. I'm surpised that butterfly didn't hurt him/herself. The butterfly just stay on the window while rainning outside. I decided not to let him/her out.

Next day, it was bright and sunny, I went to school and forgotten all about the butterfly. During the school, I suddenly remembered. I was so concern about my cat might try to eat him. I wondered where's the butterfly now? I arrived home and quickly checked. I found butterfly staying in same spot on the window and the cat is sitting on the windowstill and looking out. The cat NEVER notice the butterfly that is right above the cat. I took the cat in my bedroom. I try to get some kind of straw or toothpick to get the butterfly. Struggling, I tried to take the butterfly outside but the butterfly being so stuborn and flew against the window twice. I can hear the "whacked" sound. I was a little bit frustrated and manged to do the same thing 3rd time. This time I put the butterfly near my chest so it wouldn't be able to see his surrounding that much as I had my hand over the butterfly. I didn't touch him.

Finally! I took him outside where the sun directly to his wings. The wings open and took off. Here's the amazing part, the butterfly circle around the house and come to me right in my face. The butterfly was fluttering as he looked at me then left. It was like "Thank you for let me go free and bye bye." That was incredible experience for me!

Few years later, I joined 4-H club. I made a speech about butterflies and moths to completive against other kids in GA state and won! I was so exciting that I won the first place.

The moment when the butterfly open his wings. I memorize him. The butterfly I met at the door is called "Mourning Cloak". Here's the pix of what the butterfly look-alike. Oh if ya don't believe me... ask my parents they were the witness. They saw it all. ;-)

I still remember to this day for those special moments. We may not remember days but we do remember moments. How about you? Ever have your own speical moments? Feel free to share.

VP is finally here!

Viedo Phone is finally here and many of my friends who kept reminding me. What's ironic? They're busy! Haha But I had my chance to chat with my good friend who I once roommate with her for a year and a half. She looks tired but it was great to see her! I know deep down that she's glad to see me. I can't wait to hear more from her espeically that first-time mom who's going to have a baby. Of course and her husband who's going to be first-time father. I didn't forget him, either. Wouldn't dare. ;-)

I went ahead and have a very short chat with my long lost best friend in Oregan. We're planning to chat more when we have a chance. She has very outgoing personality! She's always out. I said to her, "should I make an appointment with you to have at least one hour chat?" She gave out softly laughed. Yeah girl, I'm talking to ya this time if ya reading this. ;-)

I do look forward to chat with her soon.... very soon.

I also have another friends.... too... I hope to get around to catch them.

I do feel like a little kid who exciting to have a "new" toy. Shame on me for not having for quite a while, too.

Let me see, what else is new? Oh, I finally have appointment for physical threapy and it's tmw morning 9am. OY! That means I have to get up early. Lucky, I'm not working tmw night. Oh, look at the bright side. I'm free next week!

Most of all, I just can't wait to go to AZ!

Brains...

Ya know I always wonder how does brain works. I meant in gerenal such as "How the people being pyschopath, socialopath, and etc.?" I wonder does the brain affect our souls? Or does our souls affect our thoughts? Or is it really our soul in the brain? The heart is just emotion? I even met few heartless people as much I know a few people can be such a heartless. Does that mean they don't have a soul? Sometimes I could have sworn that they really have no soul as much as heartless. Ya know the old quote is "The eyes are the window to the soul" I wonder, does that means the soul is in the mind and not the heart?

Here's this one mention about, "Yep, They're Gay." (By the way, I do find that insulting by trying to get that gay sheep to be straight.) Anyway, I find this very interesting statement, "that gay rams have different brain structures from heterosexual ones" (5th paragraph on first sentence at the first page). How does it different structure? The size? The shape? The wavelength? The hormorne? I wonder does human brain's have different structures for anything such as pyschopath and many other things. Does it born that way? Or being raised that way such as sexual abuse? Or is it being taught? Interesting, huh?

I remember someone once mention to me that he knew that he's guy since he was in elemetary school. He knew that he's different and he often find men fanastcanting. He's gay and that's who he is. I didn't had a chance to ask, does he knew in his thoughts or in his heart or is it both?

Our hearts and minds are struggling half the time. Weather our heart disagreed or agreed to our mind. I remember when I made my final decision in my mind but my heartaches so listen to the heart then finally agrees with the heart then the heart is no longer aches. I also remember that my heart didn't show any feelings. My heart is very neutral while my mind trying to make a decision. It's ironic that my heart doesn't feel trouble while my mind is still agrue. It's almost like an angel one side and devil is other side. They were agrue in my mind. I notice that there is two voices in my mind and once I realize which voice should I lsten to is the angel one, meanwhile my heart shows neutral. How werid is that? So which one do I really have a soul? My heart or my mind? Or is my mind is a soul?

Am I talking philosophy here?? Or science? Or both?

I'm thinking too much.

Good Nite.

Sorta good news.

Well, the good news that I'm not crazy. Haha. I recieved the phone call from the nurse. Ironic, the nurse said something like this, "There's something wrong with your knee but I don't know what it is." Geez, but at least I can call back if I have anymore questions or wait a bit later. The nurse also mention that she/he will call back for physcial thearpy appointments. That's good to hear that my knee isn't broken and it take time to heal back again with physical thearpy's help. I can't wait! I want my knee to completely recovery. I wonder what it is like to have that for me to go thru. Well, it's always first time for everything. Guess I'll find out once I get there by learning thru error and trails.

Oh I almost forgotten... Hearing aids for those who are curious and wants to know more about it... Check it out. Hearing aids Maybe that will be helpful. If you want more info then go to Web Search Engine, you can find more about it. Even though I'm wearing them, doesn't mean that I'm expert. It's best to contact Audiologists. They are the one who been trained and studies through colleges. They're professionals. I just listen to their recommendations and decided to accept or not.

Oh, if you don't feel comforable about cochlear implants then feel free to decline. First thing you enter the Audiologists, they will try to talk you into it. Be sure you gather all the information before you make your final decision. One thing I notice that there a few things that they didn't mention.

One: They will cut your half of your hair on one side
Two: It is very noticeable with that brown thing-y on the outside of your hair. Ya can't cover it.
Three: If you want to go for Scuba Diving for fun or for future jobs (example: Marine Biology)then do NOT take cochlear implants
Four: They use to surgery on your good ear. I mean if you are deaf on right ear and hard of hearing on left ear then they will use your left ear and not the right ear.

Like I said, best to go to research more about it through interenet and books and talk to audiologists. Be sure you gather ALL the info before ya make your decision.

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Mmmm What's next? I recieved an email from a friend of mine.
Feng Shui Horoscope

It's weird and funny.

Take just a minute to take this test & see what happens! If you are honest this tells the truth -- it's pretty good. Write your answers on a paper, NO cheating!! The answers are at the bottom.

1. Which is your favorite color: red, black, blue, green, or yellow?
2. Your first initial?
3. Your month of birth?
4. Which color do you like more, black or white?
5. Name of a person of the same sex as yours.
6. Your favorite number?
7. Do you like California or Florida more?
8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
9. Write down a wish (a realistic one)

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I usually picked green or blue. Depend on my mood, so this time I picked green.
1. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - you are conservative and aggressive
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back
Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love
Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

I don't know about yours but my letter is C.
2. If your initial is:
A-K - You have a lot of love and friendships in your life. (Mmm I do have several friends but not that a lot. *s*)
L-R - You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z - You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

I was born Sept.

3. If you were born in:
JAN - MAR: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
APR - JUN: You will have a strong love relationship that will last forever.
JUL - SEP: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good. (Interesting... I wonder what it will be like.)
OCT - DEC: Your love life will be great, you will find your soulmate.

I tried to think white or black. It is most common choice is white and for some reason this time I prefer black. Something different. I even thought about wearing black as gothloic few times. I'm kinda in the mood for it but never get around to wear them.

4. If you chose...
Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change. (Haha, that almost similar as Sept.)

White: You have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person should be your best friend. *smile* It's Erin, she the first person who I thought of. We been best friends since middle school. I'm so glad that we found each other since several years of lost contact. She's in Oregan.

I don't really care about numbers that much but I thought about if I ever stand in line or giving presentation then I don't like being first or last. Yet, I don't like being 2nd. I prefer 3rd, it just sound right to me. I was forunate(sp) last time my professor will pick in order of names of giving presentation. She asked me if I want to go first or last. I said, "3rd!" I was lucky!

6. This is how many close friends you will have in your lifetime. (Haha! How true!)

I choose Florida. I don't really care much about California. I used to live there. I just dislike the smog. That's why I decided Florida but not the East side of Florida. I prefer West side of Florida, AWAY from hurricane if that's possible.

7. If you choice...
California : You like adventure.
Florida : You are a laid back person. (Haha same with Green color).

I pick Ocean....

8. If you chose:
Lake : You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people. (Haha, I do enjoy please other people but I often reminded myself to focus on me or I'll go nuts. ;-))

Aaahhh I can't tell my wish because my wish wouldn't come true if I did. ;-)

9. This wish will come true if you send this to 1 person in one hour. Send it to ten people, and it will come true before your next Birthday.

I hope so.
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Meanwhile, I found out that VR person wouldn't come over because that person have an emeragcy with someone. I dunno what it is but whatever. That person kept saying "hurring up and hurring up because that person have surgery next week." Geez, not my fault for last minutes. I only told when I'm available and when I'm not. Too bad for that VR couldn't show up. Something tells me that person wants to get it done before the surgery so that person don't have to think about it during and after the surgery. I don't blame that person but like I said when I'm availabe then I'm here but I can't guatrnee to fit person's schuadule for that person must fit mine because I am a customer and that person needs to find a way to fit for my time. Sorry. I truly find it so annoying but I manage to ingore and go on. Life it too
#$% short. I learn to limit to please others.

Smart Moves

Yep, last Monday, I had my appointment for MRI. So, I decided to wear something comfor-y.

I worn light blue sweatpants but with cute top that blends the color pretty good with my pant. I added a very thin black sweater with v shape. I took the light blue fleece jacket. I don't wear or carry anything that's metal expect the zipper from the jacket. That will keep me warm while I'm outside and I can take it off if I want too and still able to wear cute top that has short sleeves. Yes, it is all "layers"! I can put on extra for keep warm or take off all those extra to keep cool. Either way, I'm comfortable. Last, I wear white tennis shoe. That's most common for nurses to wear around. So I figure it might be wise instead of wearing black pair of short heel shoes.

I did imagine it would be similar like x-ray since I knew I couldn't carry anything that's metal. Only thing I have to take off is my glasses and hearing aids. It's a good thing I did. I remember I have to take off blue jeans because of the button itself that can't be mix with x-ray.

As I arrived, I was asking all those questions relate to implants (including cholar implant(sp)). I was like geez why does she asked me that. I told her there isn't no major surgery that's incluing this. Something tells me that she doesn't believe me. Anyway, the nurse said it is fine what you were wearing so you don't have to worry about changing... WOOHOO!! I hate the idea of taking off the clothes and putting on hostpal grown. It's very annoying.

As I went in and saw the chamber. It has small round where you lay down and your body go in. GOD! It's so small even my elbow can touches the chamber's wall. At first, I thought my whole body is going IN. I was kinda relieved that it wasn't happened and that it is just up to my neck. But still, almost the whole of me is in that small chamber... Ah man! I didn't realize it was that small. I admit it does makes me a little bit nervous but I manage to closed my eyes to think about something else. As I waited and waited.... Oh before I went in, there's a small ball where I can squeez whenever I needed to plus there will be loud noise but chances that I wouldn't be able to hear but I might feel the vibration. Which I did feel the shaking as I was laying down. It's soft and comfortable and I'm so glad that I was still able to wear that fleece light blue jacket because it is extremly cold in that room. It is so cold that my feet are freezing even I have my white tennis shoes on.

Patiently, I waited and waited. I can move my head turning right to left. That's all. I looked at my mom and I asked, "How long do ya think that would take?" My mom went "Ssshhhh, ..." I don't understand her the last statement. I find it so annoying to lay down too long. Finally I came out. I found out that it took 20 minutes long. Geez, they didn't mention that. I almost panic but I manage to focus on my breathing and continue to counting seconds... One Thousand One, One Thousand Two, One Thousand Three.... and so on. I lost count and went back from begining again. Haha. Who cares as long I stay focus on something else.

Well, I will find out more about it this Friday or this Monday....

Guess what,... there's another good news. I would be able to get VP this week or next week. (for those who doesn't know what's VP is. It's Video Phone. What ya see the futuric when a person talk to other person thru tv screen. Well, it's here and for us deaf people are able to get it free. It's nice, isn't it?) I can't wait to talk to several people I know that from different states and again, it's free, too. Hee hee. I can chat as long as I want to or until one of us have to hang up. LOL. I can't wait to chat with all my friends. It is something to look forward to.

Mmmmm anymore news?

Nothing I can think of so far...

10 top odd hotels.

MMmmm I would love to visit almost all of them. I wouldn't visit the ice-built hotel. No thanks, I'm not interesting to sleep on ice-bed. Haha

Top 10 Offbeat Hotel

My first choice would be #9

9. Wild Canopy Reserve, IndiaWant your next holiday to really swing? Branch out at our favorite arboreal dwelling, the gorgeous Wild Canopy Reserve in southern India, and get a bird-eye's view of elephants, leopards, and even tigers roaming the deciduous forest below. Tucked away high in the treetops—at more than 41 feet above ground—you'll be well placed to admire the majestic wildlife gather 'round the watering hole. Happily, you needn't forego your own watering hole for the experience; these rustic tree house accommodations are indeed equipped with toilets and running water—there's even an outdoor Jacuzzi on the grounds that's a perfect spot to relax between trekking and safari outings.

My second choice would be # 5

5. Taprobane Island, Sri Lanka If seclusion and romance is what you crave, it doesn't get much better than a fabled Palladian-style mansion set on a 2.5-acre island. Built by a count in the 1920s and visited by kings, queens, and aristocrats, this dream vacation home can today be rented by anyone seeking a fairly-tale experience. Reachable only by wading through the shallow waters of Weligama Bay, just off the Sri Lankan coast, the octagonal-shaped villa boasts five en-suite bedrooms, shaded terraces and verandahs overlooking the Indian Ocean, tropical gardens, and a dazzling infinity pool. In a far-off corner of the world (with only the Indian Ocean between it and the South Pole), Taprobane Island offers timeless luxury, staff at your beck and call, and the chance to make a fantasy vacation a reality.

My third choice would be "Hobbit" hotel. Haha, I gotta check that out.

10. Woodlyn Park, New Zealand If you're looking for truly off-the-wall accommodations, look no further than Woodlyn Park, in Waitomo, New Zealand, where three different motels—a 1950s freighter plane (said to be one of the last Allied planes to leave Vietnam); a 1950s rail car that sleeps six; and a hobbit motel (allegedly the world's first)—dot the landscape of a working farm a few minutes from the Waitomo Glow Worm Caves. You can choose to sleep in the plane's cockpit or tail, the train itself, or the circular-windowed rooms of the hobbit hotel. Woodlyn Park itself is also the beneficiary of some renown, given it hosts the Kiwi Culture Show, a unique New Zealand attraction involving sheep shearing and interaction with native animals.

My 4th choice would be....#6

6. The Lighthouse, North Wales Set on the Welsh cliffs of Great Orme Country Park, with a dramatic 360-foot plummet to the sea below, this castle-like maritime beacon dates from 1862—and served as a lighthouse until 1985. Its three distinguished rooms are, not surprisingly, blessed with stellar sea views, and evocative, seaworthy names like the Principal Keeper's Suite, the Telegraph Room, and the Lamp Room. Inside, traditional Victorian interiors, original pitch pine shutters, antique furnishings, and historical journals and photos combine to create an atmospheric hideaway. But, should you tire of the solitude, the town of Llandudno, with its pubs, restaurants, and shops, is just two miles away.

Last... I don't mind try number.... 7

7. Utter Inn, Västerås SwedenWould-be mermaids and mermen rejoice: The Utter Inn, a one-room hotel lying three meters below the surface of Lake Mälaren, about an hour west of Stockholm, will have you sleeping with the fishes. Reachable only via inflatable boat, the basic room (which consists of twin beds, a table, and panoramic underwater views of the lake) lies in the depths beneath a floating red house, and overnighting here is tantamount to spending a night in an aquarium. Should you need to surface for air, you can paddle across to a nearby uninhabited island and spend the day sunbathing, fishing, and swimming.

Anything else doesn't spark my interest....

Good News...

But first before mention good news, my dad's job offer 2 options. One is go to AZ for 2 weeks then come back for a week then go back to AZ for 2 weeks and repeat 2 more.... OR stay for whole 4 to 5 weeks FREE. That's right my dad's job is paying everything such as foods, hotels, and gas.... And my mom can go.

I can go too... Only thing I have to do is pay my own food. Of course, my parents will help me out on that, too.

That's a good news, we're going to stay AZ for a little over a month during mid-March to mid-April. *grin from ear to ear*

Now, I need to apply for off-days from the store... Mmmmm My mom said she hopes that I would be able to have my off-days that long. I told her if not, I can quit and come back afterward. Haha. There's one girl who did quit and work at the Mall and she decided that she didn't like it and then she came back to the old job where I work. She's re-hired. Heck! Why can't I? I mean many young girls are only work during summer then go back to school during fall and spring. Some young girls did go to work during holidays, too. So what's the difference? It's cheap pay, anyway. So, I don't mind do the same.

We'll be staying in the cabin nearby the lake. It has 2 bedrooms and 2 baths. We'll take our pets with us. I know that Reese would love the idea to walk around the lake. I bet she'll tempting to swim there. The weather would be very nice during March and April. It's perfect timing when it's not so HOT like summer. We would enjoy more. There will be small town nearby but that's okay at least it is nice to have something change of scenery(sp?). It is a good chance that the cabin doesn't have stove but just small refridgerator(sp) and mircowave but that's okay. We used to stay very smiailier(sp) before when we visit North Carolina Mountians. Who knows, maybe there's a grill in the yard that we could use, too. Most likely, it would.

That's a great news especially for my mom. I know she wanna to get out of here for a while.

Finally!

After few weeks, Doctor office closed due to weather and trying to get approval for insurance to pay for the MRI on my knee (at least the nurse do all the dirty work. Thanks to the nurses.) Now, I have to call tomorrow or Friday to make an appointment for next week.

Update about my knee, it has been pain on and off. Right now, I do feel the pain earlier so I took the medication. My right knee had not really improved.

What's else is new? My dad is going to fly trip in AZ sometimes in Feb. My mom is disappointed because I get to go to Gergoria this Labor Day Weekend and my dad is going to AZ and my mom couldn't go anywhere outside of Texas. She'll go nuts, she said. Sorry mom. I wish there's someway that I could help her out but there's nothing I could do.

Meanwhile, our pets are doing okay. Reese is really happy about me being home often, now. She had been sad while I was gone. She's taking this personally. She got spoiled by me staying home too much from the begining. But still she a sweetie.

My family are doing okay, too. My cousin is going to have a baby. She already had 2 or 3 years old son and now she's going to have another one due in March. That reminds me of my friend who is going to have a baby due in March, too. I can't wait to hear when they are born and the names of the babies, too. I think it is so cute! Oh my cousin had already decided to find what sex, it's a girl. So, they will have a boy and a girl.

I did work very low hours at the store for 3 weeks now. The brace for my knee had really helps a lot. I wouldn't be able to work without the brace. Next week, I'm not working. Thanks to them, I think. I also work very slow this time. I did what I could do. I'm so glad that one of my team leader send the group to help on my dept once on the other day. That does help. And again on the next day with different team leader and the groupie helped me.

Meanwhile, I continue to walk with Reese for two days on my off days. I will not stop despite of my knee. I want to keep on my excerise so I can lose weight. Speaking of lose weight, my dad had to get on "rabbit food" so my mom is starting to cook more healthy foods. That would help a lot to give me the chance to lose more weight.

**Pat my back*** I've quit eating potato chips since Dec 2006 and drinking soda (including diet) for almost one and 1/2 years now. Total drinking cans (not bottle) 8 within 1 and 1/2 years. I've continue to drink tea and water. I've drink once in a while Crystallite flavors. I can't wait to lose another 5 pound this year.

Something else is funny

You wouldn't believe this. Haha

My mom have doctor appointment on the same day as my dad. It is different time but my mom don't want to take a risk of possible miss her doctor appointment. My mom could not go with my dad to the DR. I have to go with him because they are going to give some kind of testing. The doctors will give him a medication that would make him like "drunk" so I have to drive him home.

Here's the funny part, the doctor asked my dad if I am his wife. My dad quickly said, "no, she's my daughter!" I can't help but laughed. The doctor said "hey, it can happen. you'll never know." My respond, "Don't worry about it. Even some people thought that my mom is my sister." I can't help but thinking "Eeww"

But it is true that some young women date older men and some older women date younger men. That's what I heard. In fact, there's one about 19 years old guy is looking for older women, too. How do I know? Because I met him once and he asked me out. I can't help but thinking "Eeww, no thanks!" I try to be politely to decline. OY! It is not that easy.

Freezing rain

Yep, it has been very cold rain. The power went off at about 3:30pm and my mom is just half way finish cooking. Unforutately, we have to throw them away. Instead, we went out to eat for dinner. We found out that there's eletric power in Red Lobster. That's where we ate. Afterward, I took Reese for a short and brisk walk so she can easily to go to restroom. Knowing that we will be staying mostly in the house the rest of the night. She might need a little bit of help with a bit of excerise, too.

Meanwhile, the power is back on about 9pm or so, I started to do one more load of laundry plus my mom's clothes. So, we have few more to wear something comfort-y and warm at home. There is going to be freezing rain late tonight. There is a good chance that the power might go off, again. It is something that I'm not looking forward to.

One thing I'm disappointed. I was so hoping to get out this week to force myself to explore a bit since I'm off this week but there is freezing rain and the bridges are on ice. There many accident happens on the bridges in Fort Worth and Dallas and highly recommend to stay indoor. There is tv news focus on accidedent happen on the bridges. *sigh* Look like I'm stuck at home for a while. It is safe that way since weather news mention that it will be like that all week. All nights this week would be about 20 degree. *bbbrrrr* Sound very ch-ch-ch-chilly.

Oh, ever see ice on trees, bushes, and many different things?? Oh man, I remember when there was very icy back in South Carolina and the sunlight hit those icicles. Oooohhh so beautifu!! The way it so glistens and sparkles. You can see some rainbow reflection there. Its very breath-taking to look all those. It's looks like icy-winter wonderland and very fanasty-like. It's seem like a dream and yet so surreal. I better go before the power goes off on me.

Sleeting

There's heavy sleeting in TX and OK.

OY! I've been catching up my laundry and clean things up here and there. It's not that bad. Plus, I'm helping cleaning the kitchen so that way it's stay clean. My dad is also helping out plus go ahead and cook 2 different meats to put in refridated (sp?). That way, we can have something to eat if the power goes off. Lucky, we have snacks, cereal, boiled eggs, and couple gallon of milks. We're ready for power to go off... if there is one. Right now, our home is going okay. We still have power. I've already put down more down thick blankets. I know it is going to be very cold. "bbbrrrrrrrrrr" I didn't forget to have extra candles and a lighter. It's all ready.

We'll have to wait and see how is it going....

For those who living where sleeting and no power... Stay Warm!

How's going?

Nothing much for me. I went out by myself to Barnes and Noble. I didn't buy anything because back in my mind I have few more books that I haven't read, yet.

Meanwhile, Reese have allergic to certain lamb/rice jerky that we bought one and get one free large box and it cost like 6 dollars. Good price and we usually gave it to her. We might have thought that she has allergy outside but maybe both? So, I gave her the Benydral(sp?). Six hours later, she whined and shake her head. Her ear bothers so much she pace back and forth and continue to whine like a 2 years old. So, I gave her another benydral after couple hours, she back and being playful mood. She certain do have allergic to that food. So, we have to stop giving her that jerky kind.

T-T is doing good. He staying with us more often. He enjoys attention, too. Whenever he can get.

I do have one request. My mom, her diebatic isn't good. Her blood sugar is way too high lately. She went to dr. Dr. gave different and stronger medication but DR said that it would take at least 6 weeks before it would give better effective on her. Poor mom, she can't really eat anything much because of sugar is too high and yet she is so hungry. She only ate one healthy meal. Yet, her sugar is so high. So please send good thoughts and prayer to my mom. She needs that. Thanks for those who willing to do that.

Update about my knee, it is a lot better than use to be; however, the pain is still there but a lot less. I'm hoping my knee would heal up soon next week. If not, I'm going to check to see about MRI. I have to wait because nurse is trying to get my insurance approval for MRI. Again, I hope nothing serious.

Another news, I'm not working next week. I'm hoping to work one day a week or two but nothing. I don't know that is good thing or bad thing. One thing, I do know is that I do need money. My money is really cut short and I can't ask my parents this time for their money is short, too. I overheard their converstation. (I'm able to catch that once in a while). In fact, my parents do owe me some money and yet I haven't ask that I want it back. I choice to say nothing about it. I think they may not be able to.

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CNN news:

There's a possible that Prez would get more young men to the army and there isn't enough men so chances that most of young men would be force to go. I certain hope not. I really don't think it would be better effective(sp?).

Also, about stem cells, I think the people should volunteer to donate stem cells and donate to research and not let the government involve. Let people choose what they want.

Quote of the Day: "It hurts to find out that what you wanted doesn't match what you dreamed it would be. " ~ Randy K. Millholland, Something Positive Comic, 09-07-04

My knee again...

After 2 days worth of working, I'm wearing brace. Now that helps a lot better. Without the brace, I bet my knee would be too painful to continue for few hours. This morning, my knee seems not so much painful. My knee is slightly pain on and off but not so bad as it was the first few weeks. Seem like wearing brace and walking 8 hours for 2 days gave cure to my knee. OY! I never thought it would be. I'm so glad that my knee seems better, now.

I'm hoping that my knee would be better and all back to normal. I have to be careful by not bending my knee on the floor. I think that's what cause the bruise so badly since the floor is actually made of concreate (sp?, use for sidewalk). All floors are made the same because there's made of sands here in Texas, that's why they don't build woods. Anyway, maybe next time if I ever use my knees then I have to wear kneepads since all the weight go to knee and against the concrete would make it worst on my knees. Also, I've I bend my knees down to play with Reese all the time and seem like I have to stop using my knees or start wearing kneepads. I use my knees at work and bathing Reese.

Well, it's getting late. I'm not really sleepy but I better get going anyway. Maybe watching tv might helps or listen to music. Good Nite.


Quote of the Day: The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they are jealous of you. You mean the world to someone, and are special and unique. Always remember complimants and forget the rude remarks! ~Unknown~

I like that quote. I usually wonder why do people choose to hate me and didn't even know me. It is true that person(s) have jealous of me.

Drowning in hopeless

Well, I thought I never be able to find job. I even check out about "Contract" jobs. It is depend on which company. Well, one got me interesting but I found out it is all bullshits.

Well, I feel sooo..... I dunno.

So, I decided to explore more through internet. Somehow I landed in this Website... I use the copy and paste here***********************

Are You Feeling Isolated In Your Job Search?
If you feel alone and isolated in your job search, there is hope. No one has to, or should, feel isolated during their job search.If you feel isolated, perhaps it means you confine yourself to your home and spend all day searching for jobs on the Internet. If you have a strong feeling of isolation and disconnection from the world, perhaps today is the day for new strategies! Being isolated from the world is not healthy for your job search. In some cases this isolation can trigger the “blues” or varying levels of depression. Moreover, a job seeker functioning in this state of mind is not very productive and not attractive to employers. Here are five strategies I recommend to overcome isolation:

1. First, leave your home for many hours each day because jobs are not in your computer. It will be a miracle if you do land an interview due to the Internet. If you want great things to happen in your job search, then go where business people are... they are in their offices, at professional meetings, at conferences, at lunch, etc. Mingle with them, integrate yourself into the business world, be seen, and be visible. This is the best way to find a job and your feeling of isolation will diminish. Question: Where and How can I come up to them?? I mean, how can I approach while they have lunch at resturant? Or Ya mean show up in the cafetereia in the work buisness?? They do have cafeteria, or small place where to go to lunch.. right? Mmmm, I wonder, how is that possible? I really don't know the area. *sigh* Maybe I should get out more. So, I can learn more about my area.

2. Second, consider volunteer work. Select organizations you believe in and invest a couple of hours each week volunteering. It will make you feel great about yourself, you will have an opportunity to help other people, and your isolation will diminish. It’s a great tool to build new business relationships and network. Maybe I should go to volunteer by cut down my work hours so I have more time to do the volunteer. Mmmmm, There's a nearby Animal Shelter but is there another better way to volunteer?? I mean, what kind of company, there isn't one here. It is all shopping center around here. If I want to go to buisness that would be in Dallas or Ft. Worth but I don't know where are they and what kind of buisnness are they??

3. Attend professional meetings. A group of professionals with similar backgrounds and interests will be useful. They know what is going on at other companies and in their industries. They have connections you need. Become an active member in the organization, volunteer for projects, get involved in committees, talk with other people, follow up with other people you were interested in, etc. Be seen, be visible, and be active. Mmmm Again, how does that work? How can I partipate? Where can I go to and what company? Other thing, does it feels so weird to show up at the desk... "How can I be a membership here?" What's the best way to confront with all this? That doesn't seems right.

4. Form a career team of 2-3 people who can help you with research and administrative tasks, and allow you to focus on marketing and networking. Meet with these people regularly to discuss your job search, strategies, and ideas.

5. Use the telephone to connect with friends, family members, and others who can support you during your job search. These people may be able to provide you with leads and critical information for your job search. They can boost your spirit as well.Your primary strategy should be focused externally. Job opportunities will not be delivered via your e-mail account. These are just a few strategies to overcome job search isolation. There are many people willing to help you during your job search… connecting with people on a daily basis will be a tremendous boost to your spirit and job search results!
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Interesting, huh? Mmmm???

Sometimes, I don't always understand if I'm in the group. I feel so left out everytime I'm in hearing group. How in the world am I going to fit in if I don't understand them half the time. If there is ever one-on-one converstation, which it is very short one minute converstation would be hi and how are you and where are you from. That's it. Heck, I rather sit down and play Chess than having converstation.

Plus, I don't feel confident driving unfamilar area. These roads are so complicated than Eastern part. It is like I spotted something that I want to get off but problem is that I can't because I've alrady miss the ramp that was 20 minutes ago. It sure has very LONG ramp. The ramp is way in the back. While Eastern part, ya get spotted something and get off quickly to get on the ramp and to get there. And another problem there is very little or NO signs what they have before ya get off the ramp. While Eastern part always posted signs to let ya know what they have up there. Geez, what's worst? I know if I'm lost then I'm TOTALLY lost here. Unlike Eastern, when I'm lost... It is just turning wrong direction and all I have to do is to go back. No problem. I've done that many times but here.... It is IMPOSSIBLE to go back where you come from. The roads here are too complacatied. They're not make it simple like the Eastern. Eastern doesn't allow U-turn while here does. I ended up U-turn and I can't go back. I have to drive worth of damn 30 minutes then able to come back. Like I said, here's sooo complicated. It's wasting damn gas. And gas here are soooo expensive, too.

So, I think I better go back to Gergoria. I don't like it here, anymore. There is no jobs around here. If deaf people wants to move here... I'm not coming back ever again. I heard that Austin is popular place for deaf people lives there. I don't care. I just don't like it here. I'm willing to get lost in Gergoria than I am here. I'm willing to get lost in South Carolina, North Carolina, Virgeina, Washington DC, and Maryland. NOT in Texas. I don't care. pppffffffffftttttttttttt

Since, I'm going to visit Labor Day Weekend there in Gergoria, there is very good chance that I'm staying there and not come back. We'll have to wait and see how that's going. Opps, I almost forgotten. I better get that planned to happen to go to visit Atlanta, GA.

See ya!

It's really chilly here but no snowy.

New Year Resoultion

There is a new year card from the magizine(sp?) called "Soft Sorrounding". I liked her statement.

"Each new year offers up renewed hope and the opportunity to start over. Remember that putting yourself first is not an act of selfishness, but an act of love. For some of us, this doesn't come easily--we have to work at it. Time for yourself won't just happen, you have to plan it. Taking care of yourself will help you take better care of those you love.

You are special and unique, a work of art.
Make 2007 the year you believe it."
by
Robin Sheldon,
President

Searching job is a full time job

*groan* ***Warning Venting****

*moaning* I can't believe this. The more I search, the more depressing I'm getting. How in the world did ya able to find job? Every time I click on, I keep recieving anything that relate to buisness... Assistance Manger, and etc... Very few relate to science. If you can ever find any, there are usually master degree or p.h. degree plus 5 years or more experences. There are few sciences. I'm tempting to change my major. Or is it depend on where you are at? Since there is highest possible that my parents will move Tenn/KY (there's a borderline where my dad's work) So, I've already check out 3 cities of possible where my parents will live. 2 cities are smallest town, that means it is middle of NOWHERE. It is almost exact the same thing back in NC the smallest city only have one Wal-Mart. That's it. There's few fast-food resturant and few local resturant. Most boring place ya ever live in. Yuck! If ya wanna go to biggest mall and city is worth of 2 to 3 hours of drive. What's worst? I couldn't find job there, either. 2 cities that I've checked have no jobs offer. One city is slightly bigger than other 2, only have 5 jobs offer online. Oh great! Just F&*^ing great. What else is new? Geezzz Talking about more depressing around here.

So, I decided to check out more for Atlanta, GA. I found ONE! Geez, it is just ONE. I have already apply since I know my closest friend live there. She even invite me to stay at her place if I ever feel like I need to get away from my parents. (I almost did in few times.) So, think I'll ever get that job? I may have to call to contact that person since the job doesn't offer relocate but that's okay. I have a friend to stay. I'm willing to fly there as long as there is a 85% chance or more for me to get hired. *finger crossing*
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Here's a story... Since, my dog Reese barked through the window bothers me and my parents. So, I've decided to put her in the office. Office is in the back of the house... not the front where she tends to bark. Few times, I checked, I spotted a cat. She barked in the middle of the night at the cat outside of our yard. Geez, that's annoying. So, that's why we feel that it is okay to put her in the back of the house. If she ever find something to bark at the backyard which is rare. Plus, it is not so loud enough to wake my parents.

Anyway, now the cute story that my dad told me today, my dad is usually take Reese outside in the early morning before he goes to work. He always put Reese back in the office. This morning my dad forgot to close the office door. Apparently, Reese creep so quietly while my dad fixing the coffee. By the time, she pass the island counter, my dad saw her butt and tail. My dad said in soft voice, "Reese, go back to the office." She froze but wouldn't move. My dad waited few more seconds, then "Reese". She is just standing there. "Reese, go back to the office" Finally, Reese turn around with her head drop and walk normal back to the office room with clicky sound from her nails. Now that's so darn cute!! LOL

She's really brillant most of the time.
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So, anything else is new? Well, according to my working schduale, I'm working Saturday from 2pm until closed. That's long 8 hours or more depend on who able to finish early at work or not. I can't stand and walk more than an hour. I might be able to toldence for 3 to 4 hours... but not more than that. What's worst, I haven't heard from Dr. this week. and tomorrow is Friday. I dunno what's wrong with my knee until we have it x-ray and/or MRI. *sigh* I don't like it at all. Well, one thing that my mom is right... I will show up at work but if my knee is getting worst then I will have to leave early. I don't care. My health is more important, even I need money. I really need money and I'm bored, I really want to go back to work. I prefer more than that cheap payment hour if I ever find working other job plus not so much walking and standing. There will be some walking and standing but there will be sitting, too. That's why I'm searching. Where I work, there is no such thing to sit.

Hilarious

Aaaawww Man! I wish that there was video taping and send to Funniest Animal Video. My parent and I were watching tv upstair. Reese is with us. After few hours, T-T creep up the steps by the time he reached up to the top. Reese ran after him. My mom manged to stop her before she ran downstair chasing T-T. Meanwhile, I lightly slap on her butt and told her to stay. She had her tail under between her legs as she sit down. I am still stick my finger at her and told her "Down." So she lay down. I kept my eye on her with straight face and my finger is still pointing at her. My mom called T-T to come back. Few seconds later, T-T came up in between of my legs and "hissing" at Reese then took off. My parents and I are laughing. That was so funny! Reese was still look at me with sad face. T-T was sitting on my mom's lap. Then, I told Reese, "good girl" She came up to me as I petting her.

I wish that part was video when T-T came up between my legs and "hissing" at Reese. That was truly funny. *g*

Tom-Tom finally decided to get down and go to his favorite spot. Reese came up to my mom's attention. She looks so sad. She wants all the attention. She doesn't want to share. Like a siblings revival (I think that's right word), who competing each other for attention.

Meanwhile, I was watching Mathron (sp?) of Beauty and the Geek. That was really a good show to watch. My dad seems to like it because he usually go to bed by 9pm because he goes to work next day. It finished at 10pm. I told my dad that ya seem to like Beauty and the Geek. He said "it was okay." I said, "Uh-huh, if it was okay, ya would be in bed by 9pm." My dad said, "No, I said btwn 9pm to 10pm." My mom was supporting me, "No ya didn't say that, ya said ya going to be by 9pm to 9:30." I chimed in "9 to 9:30 ya going to bed but it's past 1o." He refuse to admit that he really like that show Beauty and the Geek. Haha. Because if he didn't, he would have gone to bed early and possible earlier. If he don't like it at all, then he would have gone ealier. Haha. I got him! *smile*

Oh, I almost forgotten. I did mention last time when I watch Dr. Phil. I was so looking forward to watch more about "Hate" in the house. Well, seem like the schudaule is very vague and I couldn't find that show. So, I didn't watch anymore of Dr. Phil. I was kinda disappointed. Dr. Phil doesn't seem give the clear schudaule sometimes. At least, I think so.

Anyway, It's 11:22pm and All Is Well! It's chilly and windy outside. Would be nice if it is snowy.

Happy New Year of 2007

Wow! Where the years had gone by? It sure went so fast in the blink of the eye. Whoa!

I couldn't imagine. I'm still alive here. Whoo-Hoo! Happy New Year!

What's your resolution?

I read somewhere best to do one resolution at a time. To make it easier to focus on one goal instead of tring cram it all up in last minutes. Often times the resolution would be losing weight and excerise and few common things. Funny, my resolution for past few years is to improve myself which I did improve a lot more than I could ever thought of. I only did one step at a time. I'm still have so much to learn.

Mmmm This year resolution would be finishing up few more goals that I haven't had started, yet. Well, I may not be able to reach goal by end of the year but my goal is get into processing. To continue to do what I have in my previous goal. This time it isn't improve for myself but something else. Of course, I'm still working on to lose weight and eat right as humanly possible. After Januaray, the celebration of foods are a lot less until Thanksgiving. Now that made it easier for me able to get back on the track. So far, I only have fewer soda a year (about 5 cans of soda a year). This past month of December which is the hardest part is potato chips. It is my favorite to eat with sandwiches. I finally manage to replace with carrot. It has been a month *pat my own back*

Oh another good news since I visit doctor twice, my blood pressure is back to normal. After 3 to 4 years, the nurse always kept saying, "your blood pressure is slighty high." every time I visit doctor's office. Geez... Haha, Now, my blood pressure is fine. Hoo-Yoo! That's a good thing. I can't wait to have my health back to normal. Soda, potato chips, and cheese are the highest salt and I love to eat and/or drink them. Oh, I did cut down some cheese. I'm not ready to quit cold-turkey, yet. Just give me some time, I'll get around to do that, too. *smile*

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I think I mention this before, my parents are consider to move outside of the city but within Texas. As long as it is 10,000 dollars or more would makes the differences. Sadly, No, it wouldn't. Only like 2,000 dollars different. So, instead of moving ourselves, we will wait for few years to move Tenn or Kentucky. Reasons? Well, my dad's job is in Tenn but it is very close borderline to Kentucky. So, my parents are comparing Tenn and Kentucky to see which one is better place to live relate with taxes. In Texas, the texas are so expensive that my parents couldn't afford and what's worst, they can't save the money for retirement plans because of the bills that they have to pay. So, they are living very tight sometimes, I have to pay to help them out, too. Also, they rather not to move somewhere in Texas because dad's company would not pay for them to move. If my dad is going to transfer to another job, then yes, the company will help them to pay for moving. So, they are going to wait for that. It would be a lot easier.

Meanwhile, I had chat few more guys online date. Those guy said that they can't move and expect me to move with them... Like Calforina, Iowa, and NYC. I was like, No thanks... Not only that my main question, "Do you share everything with your mom?" That's my usual question. They said "yes, I share everything with my mom and even go vaction with my mom and blah blah blah with my mom." I said, "wow, seem like you are very close to your mom." Those guys respond, "Oh yeah, thanks for notice, I love my mom." I can't help but wonder what about dad? Did they ever go in as couples? They said that they have father and they are married for like 20 years or so. I mean, my parents go out on vaction as in couple. My parents almost every Friday night their usual ritual is going to eat out dinner and to movie without me ever since as I was a child. And they are still doing it, today. Every once in a while, I do go to the movies with my parents especially if there is cartoon when I was a kid. Point is, I refuse to go out with "mama's boy". Half the time, I almost wanna say, "Why don't ya go and f#*#$% with your mom?" Geez!

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I almost forgotten. My parents had been talking about where will they live when they retire. My mom asked what do I think of Wyoming. That's far up the north. I was like, "no thanks" To me, I think that is the middle of no where. Mom said that there's YellowStone Park nearby. I said, "is that all?" I reminded my mom is like going to Blue Ridge Parkway. Then they thought about Florida. However, they checked out the prices are too expensive to live there. The houses are too high. My mom said there are at least 50 or more parks to go around to have fun during retirement instead of being so bored and they can have something to do. Oh they even talk about maybe move in other country or something. They have already discussing about retirement plans. Haha, I couldn't believe it. Time is nearer for them. I admit, it does feels weird. Time will fly so fast before ya know it like now. Jan 1st 2007. So, I dunno. I'm going to wait and see where will they move.

Bored

Geez, it's nearly 2 weeks and I'm bored, already. Sitting around the house and doing nothing is my most favorite thing to do. Now, I don't. Am I getting old?

Never in my bewilderest thought, I want to go back to work. Haha, *sigh* I need to be more patience because of my knee. It's okay, now but the pain is still there. It's more of on and off. My knee will be in pain after 15 minutes of walking. I just have to make sure it is less than 15 minutes. It's so hard not to do anything. I want to walk with my dog. I want to go to shopping with my mom and etc. I haven't heard anything from the nurse, yet. At least, I got the dr note that I can't work until Jan 1st. I hope my knee would be better by then. If not, then I have to get in touch with my Dr again. How annoy is that? LOL


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Everything is good around here. We are doing good. My dog, Reese enjoys having me around. My mom's cat is doing good, too. My parent is doing fine. I'm fine, too. (just my knee is in pain).


Today, it has been raining real heavy with bad thunderstorm. The thunder sound did startled on Reese few times. But other than that she's fine once I distracting her. I act like that's nothing. So she sees that then she's fine. The lightining is so close to the house that I can actually hear crackling and static-like before the thunder sound came in. Wow, it's sound very eletricity. There was Tornado warning and Flash-flood warning but nothing happens. I'm glad. I'm also glad is rain, today because this place is really dry and brown. It needs water. Mostly, I'm just laying down or watching the Stargate DVD that I bought, Season 1 thru 10. I'm watch Season 1. Where's Daniel have long hair, he's looks so young there. It helps to keep from me being bored. I need to get back to read a book.. huh?


Like I said, so far, things are going good.


Oh by the way, I did recieve couple emails from the jobs that I apply but all they are asking is Assistance Manager, Insurance Agents, Manager, and few other things relate to buisness in need. Geez, nothing relate to science field. I would give anything to have some kind of science-field. I don't know anything about Insurance Agents, manager, and other things. Why in the world they would want me? They have already set up for interview next week after Jan 1st all I have to do email them to confirm. Can't they read my resume? It's relate to science. Well, I already explore few things and send to my resume to certain company that I'm interesting in. I haven't hear anything from them, yet. I have to wait and see after Jan 1st.


Wish me luck!

Belief

From the book, I've read a little bit. "A note from a Friend" I thought that was very interesting part about "belief". Did you ever had that experience or similar experience? At dinner, when a guest asked for a salt, a person comes in the kicthen and couldn't find salt. A guest came in and asked, "What is this?" as guest pointed on the counter. Why, it is salt. Often times, we overlooked or... is it that we believe that the salt is *not* there on the counter. Belief is very powerful thing.

I have similar expeirnece. More of opposite.... It was Saturday late morning, I was getting up and put my comfortable clothes. I'm not going anywhere. I've decided to put my favorite ring on. I walk over where is my ring is at the usual spot next to my bed on the floor. That time, I do not have nightstand. I saw a ring on the floor next to several changes (dimes, nickels, quaters, and some pennies.) As I reach over and grab it, somehow it disappeared like what you see on TV. One minute you see then in the blink of the eye, it disappeared. I didn't feel the ring on my finger tips and yet, I believe so much that I did saw and touch it. It must have slip out of my finger and mix it up with rest of my changes. So, I grab each coin off the floor and put on my hand. Nothing, I still can't find it. I was sooo sure that my ring was there. I could have swore I saw it. As I kept searching and searching of every conor I can find nothing. I took myself a deep breath and asked myself "WHERE IS MY RING?!" Suddenly there something pop in my mind when I realize something.... The night before, I was cleaning my bedroom and I decided to put my ring in my jewlery box in the bathroom. So, I went over to see if my ring is there. There it is!! I just stand there awe myself and amazing how much belief and believe can be so much powerful. If you believe that the ring is there, you'll see it. If you believe the salt isn't there, you'll not see it. It's amazing how strong it is once you set your mind to it.


Ya know? It didn't cross my mind until now when I read that book. You can do anything once you set your mind to. Mmmmm... All I have to do is believe....

Knee pt 3

I'm going to see Dr, again... Geez...

I contact to my work saying that I really can't come cuz of my right knee. It is true. I can't walk more than 15 minutes. It's too painful. My boss is the one who talk to me on the phone. He seems not appricate that I didn't show up for work for a week and most of all it is on Christmas Eve is very "important". Well, not in so many words but it sure sound like it. I was like "whatever". My health is more important than the job itself. For all I care... I know Christmas Eve is most busiest time of the year especially for last minute shoppers. According to my mom, (I think I mention before) most of the time it is the manager who works at the cashier... Almost no one showed up for work.

Enough about my knee...
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It is sooo nice to take a one week break. It really does. And I took advance of my time to apply online jobs. I can *not* gentuatee(sp?) that website would be successful to land a job. I read many testenomony but still it's a risky... I apply resumerabbit (dot) com. Yes, I do pay for it. I dunno if that would help but one good point there... searching for a job is a full-time job. Wow! I didn't realize about that until now. Mmmmm after and during Jan, I might go to ask for rescuadle(sp) for time of working at my store. I'm considering part-time and maybe off like during Monday, Wed, and Friday. That way during my off days, I can take my time to search for other job or something. In meantime, I'm going to take advanage to search while my right knee is in pain.

Speaking of Christmas, I've really enjoy spending time with my parents. We were playing games and making nice dinners and nice desserts. Sugar-free Cheesecake from Cheesecake Fatory. Yummy! We were dressing up for Christmas Eve for Eat-All-You-Can-Steak. Even those guys there were just looking at me. Ooohhh, cutie guys. Haha. Some of the young pre-teen girls were staring at me the way I dressed up in black and red outfit. It is adult-theme of Christmas way. I have my hair all curls and put it up messy kind of way. Looks so much like on magizine or tv actress. The way how I do things and etc. Haha. Looking for role model, that I can tell. The waiter (men) and pre-teen girls were just look at me too many times. *smile* I do feel speical here. Guilt as charge... I'm loving it. *g*

Oh, we did went to watch the movie (without closed caption) Pursit Happiness actor Wil Smith. My dad interpret some for me. That helps a lot to understand of what's going on because it is mostly talk, talk, and talk. Haha. It's really good movie! Based true story.

I bought a lot of Christmas presents for my parents. I'm so glad that I bought very early. It was before the knee start to hurt. They were unexpecting at some things that I bought for them. Haha, My mom mention that I bought more presents than they bought for me. I reminded my mom that they are going to help me to buy my new laptop computer. So, don't worry about it. They seems enjoy so much with those presents that I bought for them. They sure show it. And those money I bought is my money that I've had earned. *smile* I'm happy for them.

I have 3 nicest shirts and one pair of white gold earrings. Those are very nice gifts. Espeically when I have my eye on Thinkerbell shirt. She bought it at the different store. That store have my size.

Meanwhile, Reese was very exciting to get bones from us. She is very happy and her tail keeps on wagging. She have several bones around in the house, now. LOL. Plus we gave extra treats. It is same for Tom-Tom. We made sure we have Tom-Tom with us because sometime Reese chase him out and didn't want him be with the family. So, we chase our Reese outside for few hours (it's warm sunny with cool breeze, she'll be fine.), so Tom-Tom can spend time with us. He really enjoys our attention. You can tell how much he misses that. Now, he is staying with us afterward. He wouldn't leave. We have Reese and Tom-Tom in the same room but oppsite side. LOL He had been doing that for couple of days, now.

It was nicest vacation of the week even though I have right knee in pain. (Even I was suppose to work, too.) I was able to focus on enjoyment than focus on my pain. Merry (belated) Christmas!!

Pet Peeves

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The medication did great job on my knee. Sometimes I forgot that I have pain in my knee. When I walk in the store today. It only takes about 15 minutes and my knee came back in pain, again. So I sat in the car and wait for few moments until mom comes out. She was buying something. I think this time it would not be make up exuse but a real exuse that I might not be able to come back to work in another few more days. It would be a wise choice.

My dog, Reese pout. She pout almost all day. She wants me to go outside play with her. She doesn't like me playing checker or any other board game. She wants me to play with her. She doesn't want me to play anybody else but her. She doesn't understand that I can't play with her because of my knee. I can play with her as long as I sit down and play ball... but she rather me chasing her or she's chasing me and etc. She wants to play hard not soft. So, she is really disappointed. I felt bad for her. I know she enjoys having me around. However, I still need to take my time to heal my knee, first.

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It's getting real chilly and love it every minutes.

Knee part 2

I went to the Dr. today. The dr said that it is possible just strained (or is that sprined, wrong spelling). Anyway, she said just stay off for couple of days. Egh! I knew that I have no choice but to go back to work on Sat and Sun... Unless... I have to find another kind of excuse... mmmm I will ask my dad later about that. I do not want to go back to work. Anyway, she gave me some kind of inflamation(sp) medication. If it is not better in one week then come back to see the Dr. Well, I took that pill tonight and seems better plus took another warm bath really helps.

This morning, Reese was so exciting and want to jump all over me, I firmly said, "no." Her head went down as she walk away. That breaks my heart... MAN! I know that she wants to play but I can't because of my knee is too painful and she doesn't understand that. *sigh* However, I play with her in other way... She seems to enjoy that way as long as she had attention from me.

Tom-Tom finally jump on my lap later in the evening. It's been such a long time. However, it was short. Unlike for my mom, Tom-Tom stays on her for hours. Lucky mom!

Well, it is getting late. I better go to bed to get some sleep.