AZ

I'm still in AZ. Yep, Yep, Yep, Yep, I sure am. *grin*

I notice a lot of hispanic people around here. It does seem like mostly are from Mexico. When I was at the resturant, Olive Garden, I notice one hispanic guy stare at me. I mean it is very obvious because he is doing it literally stare. I do feel somewhat uncomfortable. I manage to ingore. I feel sorry for his girlfriend, I knew she would feel less beautiful. Of course, it is not unusual, his girlfriend got mad at him. She wasn't happy about that. I know that I am beautiful and God created me. If I truly hate my apperances then that means I would hate God for created me. I already accepted for my apperances after all I can't change it. Unless I get the plastic surgery which it costs a lot. I rather not. Beside, I like my appearance and I enjoy my beauty. There's no law said that I can't enjoy. But still, it strike me interesting about some men out there. Also what's interesting part, some (or most) men do look at me or suprised by my beauty looks. One thing I don't understand is that they do not approach me. If I try to approach to some guys, it makes it worst because it boast their ego-ism and start playing hard to get. That's really annoying. I lost interesting fast. That's why I don't approach.

A very few guys did approach me. One did but I quickly dismissed him. Sadly, Yes, I did. When I should have put the effort to try to soicalize with him. I guess I'm more comfortable around deaf men than I do hearing men. That's the hearing guy I dismissed him.

Because one deaf guy did approach me and I enjoy talking to him because communicate is a lot easier than trying hard time understanding what's the hearing guy said. It does consume my energy.

Before I talk about Halloween Party, I went to Deaf Happy Hour last summer. There are fewer deaf people there. I don't know if I mention this on the blog because I couldn't seem to find it so I assume it is not. I met a deaf guy there. He's bragging how much he's contoling his roommate. Well, his roommate is female and she's diabetic. He kept telling her what she can eat and what not to eat. He keep on preaching to exercise.. blah blah blah. The way how he says that he really enjoy to tell her what to do. I don't like him at all. I feel very uncomfortable around him. So I left.

Now, at the Halloween Party, There are several deaf people. I met quite a few. One person did introduce me to some others. So that's how it make it alot easier to soicalize. Other person did introduce me to Jimmy. He's seems pretty nice guy. I do enjoy being around him. Then there's a guy I met from Deaf Happy Hour. I wish he wasn't there. He did showed up late. I manage to mind my own buisness and talk with other deaf people until I need to go to use restroom. I could not hold any longer. I walk by that controling guy. He try to stop me, I told him I gotta go. After using the restroom, I try so hard to pass by him without notice him or that he didn't notice me but... He's actually waiting for me. Back of my head was, "sh*t" I couldn't believe it. He grabbed a chair and said that I must respect a lady and bring to the table for me to sit with him. *Ugh* What can I do?! I wish somebody would save me... but deep down I know only I can save myself. The converstation wasn't flowing smoothly in and out. He does the most talking. Half of the time, I don't understand what's the heck is he talking about. Meanwhile I try to think of a creative way to get out. He did asked me a couple of questions but everytime I talk, he just interpruted me. I didn't care. I let him interprut me. I don't feel comfortable of sharing myself to him. He said that our converstation flow in and out natural... Ha! Oh PUH-lease... He said that I'm beautiful. I told him thank you. Then he asked me out... Sh*t was come in my mind again. I told him, "no." He asked why... I just shake my head. I refuse to give a reason. He said that he doesn't see me wearing wedding band and asked me if I'm married. I wish I could lie. I said, "no". He asked me again why not go out for a date. I shake my head. Then he brag on how much he has money and working full-time UPS and been working there for long time. I think 20 years or so... So I make up the exuase that I'm going to school this Spring 2008. So, I rather not dating for a while. Blah blah blah.... Finally, I had an idea... I told him, I need to get something to drink as I got up... He asked, are you coming back? This time... I lied. Yeah, I'm coming back..... No way I'm not going back to that controlling guy. Heck! I don't remember his name.

I saw Jimmy. I bought the bottle of water for a drink and sat with Jimmy. Several minutes later, that controlling guy came to us. Jimmy pointed to the tv which is baseball is playing. I went ahead and watch it. Few moments later, Jimmy got my attention. He said that best way to get the controlling guy to leave is to watch any sports. He doen't like sports and he would leave. Thanks for the advice, next time I will do that. Jimmy and I talk for a while... then controlling guy comes to us. We watch baseball until controlling guy leaves. It repeat like 6 times.... Geez, that controlling guy wouldn't leave me alone. And he still keep staring at me... Oy!! I hate that... I really hate that the most. However, I didn't let the controlling guy bother me. I continue to have fun which I did for the next few hours then I got a little bit sleepy. Jimmy was sweet that he's willing to walk with me to the car. I can trust him so I let him. Plus there are few other deaf people getting ready to leave so it was sorta in group so we're not alone. *smile*

All in All, it was a good experience for me. I do enjoy despite the fact the contolling guy is there. This time I finally find a way to save myself without hoping to have someone to save me after all, only I can save myself. I pat my back for did a good job to make a respect getaway without making into scene.

Wow, I didn't realize, it's getting late. Good Nite.

Need my Beauty Sleep!