Lost in Time

Wow!

After 2 years, I finally decided to contact someone whom I fell in love. I still do. That person had chosen to married someone else. I can't believe it. The reason why we cut off the connection is because of miscommunication and lack of understanding. Why in the world I contact that person after 2 years? It is because I felt there's unfinished buisness still hanging around in my heart. Plus, I felt ready to contact that person after I finally know who am I and gain my self-confordinant(strength). So, I did contact that person. I never thought I did but I did it.

Funny, that person was shocked and didn't think I wouldn't contact ever again. After few days, that person contact me and that's when we start discuss. I missed that person so much. It was great to hear from that person. After a long time of discuss, we decided to be best to be friends.

Part of me wishes that person would come and running but deep down, I know that will never going to happen. Yes, I'm disappointed. Yes, I did greive. Yes, I did cried softly and alone. My mom didn't know. At the same time, I felt so much better and more at peace, now.

It is diffcult to see someone you loved is in loved with someone else.