Wednesday, February 27, 2008

thinking out loud

You know what? Every time I test myself with personality careers weather it is from internet or from school. Almost exact same result are 3 things teacher, phyosology(sp), and enturpretur(sp).

Even though I use to thought about teacher but I changed my mind. I do not want to deal with kids.

I did thought about counsler but I also changed my mind. I do not want to hear every stranger's emotional problems. It can take a toll out of me.

However, to set up a buisness didn't across my mind until now. I wonder shall I set up one? What kind of buisness? Naturally, first thought would be anything with sciences, right?

One friend of mine thought about set up as farmer and focus anything that is natural and organic. Plus my friend did grow up as a farmer. Other friend wants to be chef and thought about setting herself a resturant buisness. Once I read news, there was deaf/blind becaming a chef and owned a buisness of resturant. One I know from public speaker, he became dentist, he did set up a buisness for himself, too. All are deaf.

Any ideas about setting up one?

I thought abt one thing. I know there are parks and shows all different kind of plants. I can't help but wonder shall I have large dorm of glass, almost like greenhouse and have all different kinds of exotic plants from all over the world? Maybe including couple of waterfalls and small brooks along the way with some water creatures? Maybe have a speical place where people can have speical occasions like weddings and receptions and etc?

Do you think people would enjoy something like that and it is all year around including winters and inside the drom would be warm.

Does that means I need to major in botony? Mmmmmm...

Monday, February 25, 2008

no title this time...

I leatn something that I didn't know about. Actually, mom did told me couple times but either I don't remember or I wasn't ready to listen.

Mom told me that one of professor did called my mom and told her that I do know so much of biology, only problem is that I do not know how to apply in real life.

Mom's interprete that I needs more hands on experinces.

I already knew that. That's why I'm working on trying to find a way to get hand-on-experiences. Only way to get internship is to go back to college again.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

nothing new

Yep, everything is pretty much same o' and same o'. I'm still working. My parents and our pets are doing fine.

Yes, Tom-Tom is doing a lot better! However, I still get him outside during daytime. Sometimes, mom managed to get him outside.

Reese and Oreo are sweet as ever and sometimes they play with each other or one the other would competation for attention from me or my mom.

Weather has mood swings, lately. Some days are very chilly and some days are warm. Other times are humids with cloudys and possible rain. Sometimes it did rain and other times it didn't.

When weather is much nicer, I would take Reese for walk in the park. She loves it everytime, we do that. She always so anxious like a little kid who is ready to go to DisneyLand.

Meantime, I did visit another university. It seems very nice; however, I would like to visit couple more. I hope to have a chance to do that this coming March.

Well, that's all for now. I really don't have much news until next time.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Dinosaurs: Return to Life?

As I was watching on discovery channel. It is too much alike "Jussric Park". Only different, it is not frog but chicken. Since it is possible that those dinosaurs are closely relate to birds. So amazing to watch and can't help but wonder. When they talk about genetic and etc. It is really so.... Barizzare(sp).

I bet there will be re-runs. If you ever see title on the subject, feel free to check it out. Or not. Smile.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Tom-Tom, the old cat

I almost forgotten to mention about him. Next day, after I posted, mom told me that he is feeling better. Mom said that she had to fight him to go outside to prevent him stratching the furnatures, espeically couple of antique chairs. TT would stratch woods, trees, and rugs outside which my mom don't mind just not in the house.

Since the cat fight TT, he would not go outside, day and night. Now I have to pick him up to put him outside during daytime. Since most cats would roam during at night than daytime. So that would help prevent from having cats fight. Plus, we know that TT would come back in time for his dinner. Once he's back inside, he would not go outside.

Before he had cat fight, he would constantly beg to go outside at night. Even we refuse to let him because of cocoyte but when Reese want to go outside, TT would find a way to get it by. He can be quick sometimes. I couldn't catch him. He is more fast than Oreo. Even though, he's old cat, he mangaed to be quick.

Now, he wouldn't go outside at night even during daytime. So, that's why I put him out during daytime.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Finally

After so many months, the eletric bills are always so high. My parents complain and blame on me for using too much eletric.

I remind myself from now on, I will have my lights off all the times. However, it doesn't work. The eletric bills are still high.

So I made a habit of constantly turn off lights at my parents bedroom and bathroom by knowing that my parents were in living room watching tv or cooking. After a while I started turning all the nights when no one is around. I've been doing that for couple months. Even my mom complain about me turning off, yet I turn it off anyway. Other times, mom asked, "did you turn off?" I replied, "yeah, I did." Mom said, "thank you, I had forgotten."

The eletric bill arrived and the price is really low than ever was before. Hahaha! Mom is the one who tend to forget. It wasn't me that left the light on. However, I didn't say anything. My parents did thanked me for turning off the lights constantly. Smile!

Anyway, our old TT cat had a fight because you can see a lot of cuts and stratches. Now, he refuse to come out of the cloest for couple of days. Mom have to coax him out. She told me that he is sore. He had hard time to get on the sofa but he managed. He spend few more days on it. However, he does not ate much. Mom is concern that he may have infection. If he is not better in couple more days, we may have to take him to vet and postpone Oreo's Nutural(sp).

Wait and see...

Monday, February 11, 2008

No Title

Few bad things had appeared last month and this month. I rather not to mention this time. Maybe in the future but maybe not...

Speaking of prez, I'm consider voting Halliary and not because she is a WOMAN... Geez bunches of people's comments said I'm voting her because she's a woman. I find that's really low. I mean I am woman myself. I rather people pick me because I'm pontional(sp) not I'm woman.

It is like I'm voting for Obama because he is young. Or he is black... Blah, blah, blah

I believe in leadership and I believe in voting for best leadership not just because she is a woman.

I have my own other reasons, too...

Anyway, one thing is that I still disagree abt bring troops home.

Well...... Live and Learn.

Meanwhile, there are nothing new so far. Everything else is same old thing. The weather had been up and down. Reese enjoys her walk.

I'm trying to see if I can go back to my passion. I have enjoy drawing. I have always wanna to learn how to draw horses since I really want to do the winged unicorn. I went to library and borrowed few "how to draw animals" and horses was in it too. I did try to draw few times but it wasn't great but I do know that it takes pratices and a lot of pratices to improve. It is good thing I borrow from library because of possibility of my apathy and procansting would waste my money on books for nothing. I didn't really pratice that much even I have penty of time to do it. However I'm going to try stay on it as art is just for hobby not job.

Just wait and see.

My family and pets are doing ok. Oh, we are going to try to have Oreo nutrured(to remove certain thing to prevent to search for mate) for this Friday. Oreo is getting restless and growing long. Once been nutured, he should be able be more calm than before. He's still sweet and lovable.

Well, that's all for now.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Bad Day

Well, how's things going? Pretty obvious...
We went down to the South to visit one of the Universities that I had reserved. Turn out we went to wrong side of the city and we do not have time to make the tour. I was disappointed big time. I was looking forward to it.

So we turn around and come back home after been 4 hrs drive. Talk abt waste of gas... On the way, we ate most lousy Burger King that has no flavor. It taste plain. Dad was alittle cranky mood. I decided to sleep but in dozing kind of way on and off until we got home. Dad and I went back to bed to take a nap since we got up abt 5:30am.

It wasn't great trip. However my evening wasn't so bad. My parents gone to dinner and movie while I watch my favorite Stargate: Atlantis at home and couple other shows alone is what I like. Later, my parent brought me dinner. I ate and went to bed.

I can make another reservation for one of universities in another time. No big deal.

Friday, February 01, 2008

Morning Star

Ever seen Morning Star? It is usally mean it is only one star is still brightest while all other stars faded out. I've seen it several times. Funny, dad go out smoking in morning and never notice. Mom did notice for first time for her. Mom said, "ooh there's morning star!" My respond, "I know, I have seen it few times before." Dad never knew until mom told him. I thought he knew since he's the one who always outside smoking before he goes to work.

It is truly nice to see it. Kinda almost speical. I guess I never knew morning star does exist until now. I always thought just a storybook had been written with imagaination and not exist in real life. Beside, nobody didn't mention about it as far as I know.

Anyway, I'm on my way to South for visitation university. I finally contact one of the biology advisor while I'm there. I'm considering my major something relate to Lab Tech. I did asked if they offer something similar, sadly, the answer is no. So, if the do not have that then which university has that? Anyway, I decided to visit there just to check out, who knows maybe something there might spark my interest for different major beside Lab Tech. Seem like there are a lot of options so I'm going to check that out.

That's why I'm up early since I already mad resversation for afternoon tour.

Again, I'm still consdiering to join sorority. Mom thinks I'm too old for it. Unless, I lied abt my age?? Mmmm who knows, wait and see.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

vote

Wow! Highly competitions this year for we need a good strong leadership for USA. I'm somewhat uncertains in so many different things.

Would I get shot if I speak as in freedom of speech? Maybe, maybe not... But I'm speaking what's in my head. Maybe I'm right... Maybe I'm wrong....

Espeically after I watch on History Channel, Nostromous(long name), he's a prophet. He did predient the future. He uses anaycom(hidden msg) like Hister is word for Hitler. He did mention Hitler is a smooth talker in Germany and blah blah. Which Hitler did only gave speech to draw people into do what he wants.

The prophet did mention New City blah blah 45 degree blah blah. Possible for New York City since he use anaycom and he left out one word. Plus the plane did crashed in 45 degree angle. Plus there is pictures. They look like 2 planes and look like New York city building. So he knows what it look alike. Even he lives in 1500's century. Amazing!

He also precident the Pentgon will be bombed.

Something tells me people wants to forget 9-11. So that man is still on the lose. Since his goal was distoryed Pentgon, but only sucess one section and not the whole building. He's going to send somebody else to do it, again.

Maybe the prophet isn't true but why do I get the feelings that could happen. Sound like that man really wants wars, fights, voliences, and deaths. Sound like he really asking for it weather or not Bush provoking it. Weather or not the past tense of presidents provoking to cause it. Like I said, sound like this man is begging to continue to fight. If he doesn't get what he want, he might go and send more men to bomb pentogan(sp) to able to success that he didn't last time.

Like I said, I dunno.... I just hope that I made the right choice and I hope people make the right decision on whoever they vote.

Good Luck, we do need this for America.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Never Mind...

Oreo doesn't want to be loving. He wants to be bath himself on my lap.

So far,

I didn't hear anything from my new boss. I'm not going to worry about it. Right now, I'm starting making appoitments with universities. I already had one this Friday. Other one had to be 2 weeks advantance. I went ahead made reseveration. I dunno weather or not I could make another tour.

In meantime, I have to fill out pell grant. I really don't like going to library for that because filling out take so long and I need breaks in btwn. Of course, you can click on hold and save it for next day. However I have to do the cleaning backgoround, chache, cookies and etc. It takes too much time for it. I really do not like to do paperwork. I'm sure it same for anybody. Oh well...

Life goes on, huh?

Lets talk abt our (my parents and I) pets. According to my mom, when she got up before I do, Oreo(b/w kitty) tend to call me in the hallway. Oreo wants to see me. Everytime Oreo runs down the hall, Reese would catch him to prevent from him to come in my bedroom. However, Oreo managed to be sneaky sometimes. He would already be on my bed. Once Reese found out, she whined. Haha, soo cute.

Other times Oreo would lay on the relcincer chair where I had my feet to lay a rest on. Reese didn't like that. She would get him off from it. Later, Oreo sneak up and lay on that place next to my feet. Reese looked up and notice that Oreo up there, she would whined. Reese wants to be center of attention. They are so much like brother and sister competeing each other for my attention as well as possible for my favorism. Truth is, I love them equally. Just that Reese is big dog, she doesn't fit in my lap as Oreo, the kitty. He's small and sorta baby in the family. You just couldn't resist giving a lot of attention to Oreo. Everytime I see him, I just scoop him him and pet him while he lays on my arm and one front leg sticking out. He seems to like that a lot. He's such a sweet kitty. Oh, he's so sweet that he doesn't mind being on the leash. Yes, a leash like having leash on the dog. Reason why is that, we haven't neuturled(sp) to remove. He would gone so far to find mate chances are he would not come back until he's satified or he's lost. So Oreo kept begging to be outside. That's why mom put him on the leash. We r hoping to get the despoit(sp) money back from AZ to use that for vet bill. So far, that stupid lady kept postponing it. I'm planning to write down how awful it was there in temporary apartment on website later on. Whenever I get a chance to...

So, we r still short on money. We might not able to for quite a while. We r hoping soon but don't know how soon.

By the way, Oreo just jumped on my lap. Like I said, I couldn't resist. So I'm giving him my loving. Good nite!

Thursday, January 24, 2008

work & TV

Past this week, the work is going good so far. I hope things will be ok afterward. Sigh. My sore isn't so bad once I get the hang of this. However, once every section is clean, there will be no more cleaning. I don't know if I'm going back to work in the evening or not. I guess I will find out soon or later.

In meantime, my parent decided to get statlite dish since it said have more channels and a lot cheaper than cable. It is rip-off. Only thing has more channel worth 20 channels of NFL, 20 channels of NBA, and 20 more channels for Sports. I'm guessing but I do know it is worth over 80 channels are just sports. Maybe there are guys out there who are sport freaks would love to have that dish. There is no A&E, Hallmark, Lifetime, Animal Planet and few more channels that my parent and I enjoy watching those together as a family. If we want those, we have to pay extra. Sadly, we can't cut it off because it is under 18 months contract. So, we are stuck with 18 months for that limited channels compare to cable.

There's postive side just for ME... Yeah, I know... There's Science Fiction channel!!!!!!!!!!! Whoo-hoo.. Now I have to catch up of what I missed on Stargate: Atlantis for Fall Season. I hope to get to see re-runs this summer.

There's more just for me... TLC(the learning channel), Discovery Channel, History Channel(depend what's attract my attention, not intesting in wars), and coule other things. I already start watch those every evening. Untold Stories of ER, Mystery Digonis(sp), Dr. G, just to name of few. Anything with medical, I'm watching it. Also, I watch History Channel "Life after People" that's about what is it like when people are gone. There is one city in Union Soviot had atomic bomb and spread radioactive so high that people had to leave quickly. After 20 years, it showed what it is like. The plants covering up the buildings. There's some kind of amusement park. You can see the metals are rusty with some holes. It looks so much like ghost town. The animals did use the houses. There was a deer on the bed. Haha. Owl was resting on window still and etc.

So the just gave examples here in USA, there will be powers go off. The first week, it showed how would pets managed to live without humans. I felt bad for animals may stuck in the house and impossible to get out. It shows when dog managed to escape, the live thru trash cans and visist every houses and etc. What made me interesting and sad part, small dogs who have short legs, may live up to one week then die because these small dogs are made by human to make them smaller so the can't live in surviual world. I can't help but wonder what abot my Reese? As well as other 2 cats?

Also, it showed that only one Hoover Dam can run without humans on it's own while any other Dam will automatic turn off if there is no humans around in one day. That Hoover Dam can run for possible a century or 2 then it will cut off because there is a pipes down below under water. There are some kind of mussels can build up there slowly, that's when it blocked the cooling system. Once Hoover Dam been cut off, then the Las Vagas' electric power goes off. Imagine that... The Las Vagas can run on eletric over a century or 2 without humans around. Haha. Well, there is a lot of informations. It is truly fascanting.

I just love anything with facts as well as fictions.

Oh by the way, since I have been home in the eveings for a month while I'm at work... I truly enjoy my mom's cooking lately. I missed that so much plus able to eat out couple times. It is soo nice to be home in the evenings. Aaahhh Again, I truly enjoy that. Wishing that last forever... It is a "dream job".

Monday, January 21, 2008

can u say "no"?

I admit sometimes it is diffcult for me to say no. Only thing I can say no is to sex and drugs or anything that's dangergous.

I remember last time I went out with a guy. He wanted to make another date. I actually said no. Howver, his begging make it worst. So I gave in and said yes. I managed to convinced him to accept to mee me on Friday when he wants to see me next day, then next day. Everyday is too much for me. In fact, I got tired of him. My instrest in him grow into zero then below zero.

So he accepted Friday, that gave me few days woth of break from him. I took myself reconsideration. Finally, I emailed him Thursday evening that I do not want to meet him on Friday and from now on. I notice it is a lot easier for me to say no thru email even he begged me thru emails but I was able to say no again and blocked him out.

When my boss asked me to work the next morning, I did respond, I don't think I can. My boss is actually gave me a look. So I gave in and work next day. My legs were so sore that I almost collespe several times. My muscles in my legs were abt to give up on me and could not hold me up any longer.

Next day, I wasn't working then my boss text msg me and asked me to work the next day. It was too soon for my sore legs. I even nearly collespe couple times on my first day off. Like I said, it is so much easier to say no thru emails, text msg, and relay(can't hear tone of voice even relay explain the tone of voice but I can ingore).

In so many ways, I thank God, that I'm deaf. It is one nicest advantage.

My sore legs are getting better. Although the sore and pain are still there. At least, it is not extremely. Thanks to Bengay/icyhot plus tenyhol helped out. Oh, I did had one nice not bath with epsodium(sp) salt. I'm thinking abt do again tmw.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

pain in the a$$

In advanatage, Pardon my FRENCH...

Anyway...

One of my co-worker did know what happened last week with me in costmatic(sp).

Today same co-worker, when I mention about the boss complain that it is still dusting. Co-woker did cleaning. Of course Co-w( for short) did missed few spots which is pretty commons that we actually do on purpose. The new boss did checked. I knew that new boss would do that so I made sure I did spotless for the sake of the new boss. Once my co-w finds out abt new boss isn't happy and told to do again.

Now the co-w understood how I feel. Co-w did looked around to be sure nobody is watching and gave full gesture in body language using the hands and so the shovel type up in the air. What she meant was shovel in the ass or pain in the ass.

Oohh that cracked me up big time. I managed to keep it low. When I came home, I did told my parents abt it. My parent and I laughed. Mom said sound like ya have a "little buddy" to talk about behind boss' back. I said, "yep."

Nice to know I'm not alone in this situation. I know it is not nice to talk someone behind somebody else back but sometimes we all need to vent once in a while to help us to keep going.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

ow, owie

Oh my goodness, legs, arms, shoulders are very sore by cleaning. I mean, not when walking and foot sore. Since I bend my legs a lot. It is my thighs the upper part of my legs are sore. It made worst when I walk downstairs than I'm walking upstairs.
My shoulders and somewhat my back where's my shoulder hurt, too. I did work a bit harder and faster today. It seems paid off. Since my boss satified today. OY!

Now I'm asking to come in much earlier. It is before the store open. Well, at least one hour without costumers interpruted what am I doing even though, it is imporatant to put the costumers first. I have been interpruted few times. Maybe this wld help to have one hour early without intruprted.

I just took tenyhol and soon for antibodic. I'm going to rest about an hour then take a long hot shower then to bed.

Hope I do better tmw... Wish me luck...

Oh, I did break a sweat. Geez...

cinderella again

Yep! This time, it is not cosmtic(sp). My new boss wanna me to do dusting from racks and walls and mirrors. Of course every concer and every inches and every tiny bars. She wanna me to be done by halfway today. Ugh!

Last night, I overheard the conversation when mom asked my dad if that is wise thing for me to continue to go back working. I missed what my dad said.

Later I did contact to my second mom, I asked her opinion. She said that not uncommon by not getting along with your supervisor. She said just keep on going and keep on trying. She enouage me to have postive attitude no matter what. It doesn't matter if I can't make the boss happy. I just show up for work and do the best as I can and (again) have postive attutide.

She said it is best to get fired to know that you did your best as you can and not just because I didn't show up for work or to quit working. Truth is, I can't quit working cuz I have already searching and searching for other job. There is no luck for me.

So I guess I just put it up with it and give my best as I can even though it may never be enough. I will give the best as I got, anyway. As Mother Teresa said. It is between God and I. It will never between me and others.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Beautiful Day!!

It is truly nice day, today. It is cool outside but the wind stay still while the sun warms you. It is truly beautiful. Perfect day to walk Reese and bath her. She's already stink.

I'm so glad that my new boss cancel Monday morning just becuase I didn't do good job cleaning. Well, it is a good thing. I got to enjoy my day today and tmw would be nice as much as it is today. I'm so lucky! On Wed night that's when cold front comes in. Possible snowing/slight/freezing rain, so it is good thing I bath my dog before it is too late. I can't wait to walk again tmw with my Reese. I know she'll loves the idea of going to park. So I'm planning to grab the oppuruinty(sp) to do that tomorrow before the weather get too chilly.

I wonder shall I contact my new boss about up-coming schedule? Or shall I wait for couple of days? Mmmmm, I really don't like driving in snow/sleet/ freezing rain espeically I knew it would be too dangerous. I'm going to wait for few days to see how is it going before I contact my new boss.

Friday, January 11, 2008

almost forgetten

When I got home, I was upsetting that it wasn't good enough and fast enough. Mom held me. Sometimes, it nice to have someone to hold me weather it is from boyfriend or someone you're close with. While I was sitting next to my mom and Reese sitting next to me. Reese was licking my face and brought the ball with her. Few minutes, she lay down as her head on my leg. Oreo jumped up and his tail on my other leg while his head on my mom's leg. Oreo looked up and looked at us several times. That really help me calm down. They're sooo sweet.

Finally, I decided to go out to eat. I ask mom, "why don't we eat out for lunch?" I haven't ate. I was starving. So we did. We even went to couple stores, afterward.
That's when it happens. Suddenly popped in my mind. I did almost forgotten. I went back and read the poem that made me feel ssooo much better. I already posted this before but I'm going to post it again to remind me.

"Do It Anyway"
By Mother Theresa

People are often unreasonable,
illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,
People may accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be Kind anyway.

If you are successful,
you will win some false friends and
some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

People may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis.
it is between you and God;
It is never between you and them anyway.

I'm not good enough...

She said I'm too slow. I don't clean. I told her I did my best as I could. Her respond that's not good enough. I told her I scrub hard with bleach and brush. I dusting constantly. I tried to be fast as I could but it take a while to get it clean it off so that's why proceed is slow. Her resepond over and over, "that's not good enough" she send me home because I'm wasting time and she is going to find somebody else does better cleaning.

This is really upsetting me big time!